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 Posted: Wed Jan 19, 2011 7:47 am
I miss the way we used to talk
From before 8pm to past 3am
About anything and everything
How we understood eachother with just a look
Or a few small word
I dislike how we're both preoccupied now days
But that doesn't mean we can lose the amazing friendship we built
Right?
Don't do this to me
Because when you stop understanding, I'm going to stop trying too
And I'd hate for that to happen
Don't leave me, B
Please
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Posted: Wed Jan 19, 2011 8:42 am
Little Miss Fortune
Today is a stupid day, and I want it to be over xp Agreed. I went to bed late as well, and then woke up at 3am due to the room being WAY overheated. The heating system here has problems, it was on low but it was boiling... had to get up at 6:30am for a 7:30am class and now I get to be at school until 7pm, and have classes constantly from 10:45am-7pm. And then actually waiting for the bus to get back home, I'm going to be so exhausted once this day is done with. crying I hope your day improves for you despite the lack of sleep 3nodding
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Posted: Wed Jan 19, 2011 12:31 pm
Jikoniau Little Miss Fortune Today is a stupid day, and I want it to be over xp Agreed. I went to bed late as well, and then woke up at 3am due to the room being WAY overheated. The heating system here has problems, it was on low but it was boiling... had to get up at 6:30am for a 7:30am class and now I get to be at school until 7pm, and have classes constantly from 10:45am-7pm. And then actually waiting for the bus to get back home, I'm going to be so exhausted once this day is done with. crying I hope your day improves for you despite the lack of sleep 3nodding
Oh, wow, your day is way worse than mine D=
Is it ALWAYS going to be that bad or is it just for today?!?!
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Posted: Wed Jan 19, 2011 1:58 pm
School started up again today.
This upsets me more than anyone will ever know.
I can't enjoy weekends and vacations, because I know I'll have to resume it all afterwards. Get up early, take the commute, go to class, spend the next half hour wishing it were more than half an hour, go to another class, take the commute back home, spend the rest of the day doing chores for my parents like always, try to sleep, fall asleep, have a day off, and then...again. Even when the classes and stuff aren't that bad, it's the fact that it's an endless cycle that really makes me want to just stab myself right here and now, for whatever values of "here" and "now" apply at the time I'm thinking about it, which is practically 24/7.
And after I graduate, it will get ten times worse, because I'll have to do the exact same thing, but with work, which is longer and even more stressful, and there'll be bullshit taxes I have to pay over and over and ******** over again, and housing stuff and insurance stuff and whatever the hell else goes on. So if anyone was about to say "don't worry, you'll be out of there in 4 years" (which is untrue, by the way; I'm taking 8 years...and now if you'll excuse me while I fall over laughing at the idea that anyone's bothering to read this), please...spare me. >_< It only gets worse. And worse. And worse. And when it's finally over, I'll be, well, old, so even though I'm finally free of the cycle, it won't be worth living anyway. And I'll have to pay to live in a retirement home, and paying rent is like paying taxes: over and over and over again. ******** bullshit. And if I'm not working, I don't know how I'll even do that.
I should've done away with myself when I had the chance. I really should have. Life does NOT get better, it goes on and on and ON and ON and even if it didn't get worse and worse (which it does), that in itself would be enough.
Fixed. Might make more sense this way anyway.
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Posted: Wed Jan 19, 2011 2:06 pm
@ Foam: I'm highly sure that i'm not your buddy IRL.
I cried in the middle of class today. In sociology we were watching a video on relationships and people in them and what a relationship is in the views of Sociologists. And out of nowhere I started crying and then i had to excuse myself when we switched over to the self-worth video. I don't know whats wrong with me anymore. i feel myself slipping. i don't even make my usual sexual jokes anymore. I hate this feeling.
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Posted: Wed Jan 19, 2011 3:58 pm
Little Miss Fortune Jikoniau Little Miss Fortune Today is a stupid day, and I want it to be over xp Agreed. I went to bed late as well, and then woke up at 3am due to the room being WAY overheated. The heating system here has problems, it was on low but it was boiling... had to get up at 6:30am for a 7:30am class and now I get to be at school until 7pm, and have classes constantly from 10:45am-7pm. And then actually waiting for the bus to get back home, I'm going to be so exhausted once this day is done with. crying I hope your day improves for you despite the lack of sleep 3nodding
Oh, wow, your day is way worse than mine D=
Is it ALWAYS going to be that bad or is it just for today?!?!Just Wednesdays, I don't think I'd be able to handle this schedule if it was every day o_o though Monday isn't much better... Labs just take up too much time, chem lab on Mondays is 3 hours biology lab Wednesdays is 4 hours (3 hour lab, 1 hour lecture) as well as other classes both those days. We got out of lab early today so I gets a short break before discussion :3
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Posted: Wed Jan 19, 2011 4:06 pm
My mom is trying to turn me and my friends into groupies for my sister's boyfriend's band. -_-
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Posted: Wed Jan 19, 2011 4:19 pm
Shiori Miko My mom is trying to turn me and my friends into groupies for my sister's boyfriend's band. -_-
O.o
What kind of mom would do that?
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Posted: Wed Jan 19, 2011 4:21 pm
Shiori Miko My mom is trying to turn me and my friends into groupies for my sister's boyfriend's band. -_- I say do it, then post pics. wink
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Posted: Wed Jan 19, 2011 4:24 pm
Jedi Sasquatch Shiori Miko My mom is trying to turn me and my friends into groupies for my sister's boyfriend's band. -_-
O.o
What kind of mom would do that?
The kind that see a school girl outfit and says "Aww it's so cute! Stacie you have to buy it!" "The skirt is kinda short-" "Oh don't be such a wuss."
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Posted: Wed Jan 19, 2011 4:28 pm
I miss Jake. He hurt me so terribly, and he knew that it would hurt me... But I still miss him so terribly. Its so painful to see him now. It tears me up inside not being able to run into his arms and tell him how I miss him, tell him everything is forgiven just to feel his body again. Just to be in his thoughts again.
I miss Victor. He's the only one I dated who honest to God loved me and I was so awful. I miss how special he made me feel.
I miss Sierra, because she was the first one who ever made me feel wanted.
"...And every single thing you ever did that bothered me, is every single thing I miss."
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Posted: Wed Jan 19, 2011 4:44 pm
Jikoniau Little Miss Fortune Oh, wow, your day is way worse than mine D=
Is it ALWAYS going to be that bad or is it just for today?!?! Just Wednesdays, I don't think I'd be able to handle this schedule if it was every day o_o though Monday isn't much better... Labs just take up too much time, chem lab on Mondays is 3 hours biology lab Wednesdays is 4 hours (3 hour lab, 1 hour lecture) as well as other classes both those days. We got out of lab early today so I gets a short break before discussion :3
That's still pretty bad, even if it is just one day a week >.<
Good luck keeping up with it all! <3333333
@Kestin: I get overwhelmed when I think about things like that, too. I have school 5 days a week and work 3 days a week, so I never get a break, like, ever. I just have to keep taking it one day at a time, and I hope that you can, too =( <3333
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Posted: Wed Jan 19, 2011 4:57 pm
I'm babysitting my friends kids. I love the little monsters but they're so tiring to be around. They're refusing to take their naps. I still have four more hours till their parents get home too....
I don't think I ever want to have kids.
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Posted: Wed Jan 19, 2011 8:25 pm
And that goes down as one of the most depressing conversations of my life. First he's ranting about how he's hates being alone and just wants someone then when I say he had the chance months ago and and didn't take it and he said something just wasn't right. Pick one, you want someone or a certain someone. If you want someone, go ahead and pick one who's okay with that. If you want a certain someone who you have that connection with, they're worth waiting for. And not to mention he's talking to me about this out of all people, a girl who he's nearly dated him more times than I care counting at this point. When I asked him what he was looking for he didn't even say love until I mentioned it. Then he just said he wanted someone "he can love and loves him unconditionally." He probably didn't mean it but it sounded so self centered. And he wonders why I think he'd be a shitty boyfriend? Why I told him to go for the other girl because I wasn't going to be his option?
Edit: The term "bleeding heart" suddenly has new meaning. I care so much their suffering is enough to break my heart.
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Posted: Wed Jan 19, 2011 8:31 pm
I have a feckin' cold. gonk It came up outta nowhere last night, and I was so congested that I could barely even get any sleep. SOMEONE MAKE IT BETTER D': Song Riter227 @ Foam: I'm highly sure that i'm not your buddy IRL.
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