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 Posted: Sun Jan 09, 2011 2:59 pm
Jedi Sasquatch I didn't want to say this to anyone, but I feel like I have to. You may not want to read this. I don't know why, but all I can think of doing today is cutting. I'm already planning to do it tomorrow. I can't find my knife anywhere so I'm going to use one of the kitchen knives.
I don't know why I hate myself so much right now, but all I want to do is cut myself and bleed.Why cut? if You hate yourself, then find the reasons why you do so and turn it upside down, harming yourself will only make things worse =/
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Posted: Sun Jan 09, 2011 3:01 pm
Pirate Captain Sushi I need my stylus... I need my stylus.... I need my stylus... I need my stylus...
-rocks in fetal position- whats a stylus?I have no idea what it is, heh sorry but what happened to it?
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Posted: Sun Jan 09, 2011 3:03 pm
I hate myself because all of the stupid things I say and all the accidents that I cause. And, well, a lot of reasons. But I don't know how to change any of it.
I don't think I'm thinking very logically right now. I dunno.
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Posted: Sun Jan 09, 2011 3:07 pm
Kamilucis Pirate Captain Sushi I need my stylus... I need my stylus.... I need my stylus... I need my stylus...
-rocks in fetal position- whats a stylus?I have no idea what it is, heh sorry but what happened to it? My WACOM Bamboo FUN stylus. The pen for my art pad to make digital arts with. ;o; I lost it somewhere in my room... emo
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Posted: Sun Jan 09, 2011 3:14 pm
Jedi Sasquatch I hate myself because all of the stupid things I say and all the accidents that I cause. And, well, a lot of reasons. But I don't know how to change any of it.
I don't think I'm thinking very logically right now. I dunno. Pish posh, I ll be honest hurting yourself wont solve any problem, it will most likely seem confusing and frustrating and crap for a while but there are better things to do and ways to spend your time If someone makes you feel that way, prove them wrong, do yourself some good. We all say stupid things and do stupid things at time but its what makes us human
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Posted: Sun Jan 09, 2011 3:17 pm
Pirate Captain Sushi Kamilucis Pirate Captain Sushi I need my stylus... I need my stylus.... I need my stylus... I need my stylus...
-rocks in fetal position- whats a stylus?I have no idea what it is, heh sorry but what happened to it? My WACOM Bamboo FUN stylus. The pen for my art pad to make digital arts with. ;o; I lost it somewhere in my room... emo You can do it!! Im sure it ll turn up somewhere and ohsnap if i remember those are awesome art pads
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Posted: Sun Jan 09, 2011 3:19 pm
*After senslessly beating firefox for crashing and gaia for deleting the post he was creating by making him relog in.*
"Make my own luck."What do you think I've been doing this whole time mom? "Why don't you go out and meet a girl?" Because my types don't live in this city or are already taken. "You'll never meet a girl if you act like that!" THEN WHAT'S THE POINT IF THEY DON'T LIKE ME FOR WHO I ******** AM!!!!!!!!!!!! scream scream scream scream xā/0+1^5=WTFboom
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Posted: Sun Jan 09, 2011 3:22 pm
Jedi Sasquatch I hate myself because all of the stupid things I say and all the accidents that I cause. And, well, a lot of reasons. But I don't know how to change any of it.
I don't think I'm thinking very logically right now. I dunno. To err is to human. No one is perfect, that's part of what makes us who we are.
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Posted: Sun Jan 09, 2011 3:30 pm
Kamilucis Pirate Captain Sushi Kamilucis Pirate Captain Sushi I need my stylus... I need my stylus.... I need my stylus... I need my stylus...
-rocks in fetal position- whats a stylus?I have no idea what it is, heh sorry but what happened to it? My WACOM Bamboo FUN stylus. The pen for my art pad to make digital arts with. ;o; I lost it somewhere in my room... emo You can do it!! Im sure it ll turn up somewhere and ohsnap if i remember those are awesome art pads Wacom Bamboo is amazing <3
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Posted: Sun Jan 09, 2011 3:37 pm
Kamilucis Jedi Sasquatch I hate myself because all of the stupid things I say and all the accidents that I cause. And, well, a lot of reasons. But I don't know how to change any of it.
I don't think I'm thinking very logically right now. I dunno. Pish posh, I ll be honest hurting yourself wont solve any problem, it will most likely seem confusing and frustrating and crap for a while but there are better things to do and ways to spend your time If someone makes you feel that way, prove them wrong, do yourself some good. We all say stupid things and do stupid things at time but its what makes us human
I don't deserve what I've been given. I stopped doing anything to take care of myself and threw away my awesome college scholarship, and what happened then? I was taken back to my home, given all the freedom I could want and left to continue doing nothing and relax.
I don't deserve that. I don't deserve anything but pain. And if nobody else is going to give me that, then I'll do it myself.
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Posted: Sun Jan 09, 2011 4:01 pm
Jedi Sasquatch Kamilucis Jedi Sasquatch I hate myself because all of the stupid things I say and all the accidents that I cause. And, well, a lot of reasons. But I don't know how to change any of it.
I don't think I'm thinking very logically right now. I dunno. Pish posh, I ll be honest hurting yourself wont solve any problem, it will most likely seem confusing and frustrating and crap for a while but there are better things to do and ways to spend your time If someone makes you feel that way, prove them wrong, do yourself some good. We all say stupid things and do stupid things at time but its what makes us human
I don't deserve what I've been given. I stopped doing anything to take care of myself and threw away my awesome college scholarship, and what happened then? I was taken back to my home, given all the freedom I could want and left to continue doing nothing and relax.
I don't deserve that. I don't deserve anything but pain. And if nobody else is going to give me that, then I'll do it myself.NO YOU DON'T!!!!! YOU DESERVE TO BE HAPPY!!!! PAIN IS BAD!!!!
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Posted: Sun Jan 09, 2011 4:06 pm
So the girl I liked asked me to Sadies hawkins( SP?) in a very cute way. She made a post for me asking if I wanted to go and she drew Pokemon all over it.. let's just say that made me extremely happy and of course I accepted. Well the secret of this all is that well I kinda don't want to go because that will only make me like her even more( I'm sure of it) and that I suck at dancing. /;
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Posted: Sun Jan 09, 2011 4:18 pm
Yesterday sucked. Every year I normally spend my birthday alone, walking around and slipping into a nothingness that i create around myself to prevent much interaction. Yesterday I had so many problems, I hate my birthday. Earlier I cut myself again. I patched myself up and then walked over to the park and just sat there alone. I feel myself slipping more and more everyday into the depression that i thought was over. You never would have thought that the guy who always looks on the brighter side, the guy always joking around and flirting with everyone wouldn't have problems like this. Sadly its something I push down and down and hope it never comes out.
I'm sick of being the way I am. I just want to change. I would give anything to not feel the way I do every day. But that's not the way the world works and I must work with the cards I am dealt.
Oh well it seems that I feel a small bit better than when i started typing this out. Thanks for letting me vent.
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Posted: Sun Jan 09, 2011 4:30 pm
cow of the null So the girl I liked asked me to Sadies hawkins( SP?) in a very cute way. She made a post for me asking if I wanted to go and she drew Pokemon all over it.. let's just say that made me extremely happy and of course I accepted. Well the secret of this all is that well I kinda don't want to go because that will only make me like her even more( I'm sure of it) and that I suck at dancing. /; You don't want to like her more? And all men suck at dancing xD So what? Just go with the flow, as long as your having fun, she wont notice. Trust me on this one, SeƱor Vaca.
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Posted: Sun Jan 09, 2011 4:31 pm
cow of the null So the girl I liked asked me to Sadies hawkins( SP?) in a very cute way. She made a post for me asking if I wanted to go and she drew Pokemon all over it.. let's just say that made me extremely happy and of course I accepted. Well the secret of this all is that well I kinda don't want to go because that will only make me like her even more( I'm sure of it) and that I suck at dancing. /; Even slow dancing? It's simply slowly rocking back and forth while spinning around. Like a Foucault's pendulum motion.
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