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 Posted: Thu Dec 23, 2010 7:28 pm
epic-writer42 LabTech Kestin epic-writer42 Yes, my nefarious scheme shall soon come to fruition. Mwahaha!!!! ...are you breaking up Carmella and Nes so Kat can have him? biggrin No, it goes more along the lines that I gave someone a gift that cost me 5 mil gold which I got through selling a 6mil recolor of that very same item. I swear, the odds of me winning that item should have been literally zero!!! The universe just wants you and Ane to be together. X3
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Posted: Thu Dec 23, 2010 7:29 pm
 Holy crap, FEAR is freaking scary. I'm shaking right now because of that game.
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Posted: Thu Dec 23, 2010 7:32 pm
Foam-Dome epic-writer42 LabTech Kestin epic-writer42 Yes, my nefarious scheme shall soon come to fruition. Mwahaha!!!! ...are you breaking up Carmella and Nes so Kat can have him? biggrin No, it goes more along the lines that I gave someone a gift that cost me 5 mil gold which I got through selling a 6mil recolor of that very same item. I swear, the odds of me winning that item should have been literally zero!!! The universe just wants you and Ane to be together. X3 I told him I couldn't accept that item gonk
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Posted: Thu Dec 23, 2010 7:36 pm
Updated my signature! Had to take out Somber temporarily to make room, but it's so worth it xd
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Posted: Thu Dec 23, 2010 7:40 pm
Aneyana Foam-Dome epic-writer42 LabTech Kestin epic-writer42 Yes, my nefarious scheme shall soon come to fruition. Mwahaha!!!! ...are you breaking up Carmella and Nes so Kat can have him? biggrin No, it goes more along the lines that I gave someone a gift that cost me 5 mil gold which I got through selling a 6mil recolor of that very same item. I swear, the odds of me winning that item should have been literally zero!!! The universe just wants you and Ane to be together. X3 I told him I couldn't accept that item gonk 5mil?! That's more than I've ever had! eek Giving a 5mil gift is, quite literally, impossible for me to even comprehend. I can feel my brain shorting out... gonk Epic, I don't want to know what kind of gold you must have. *sticks fingers in ears in case he decides to tell me anyway* xp
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Posted: Thu Dec 23, 2010 7:42 pm
Aneyana Foam-Dome epic-writer42 LabTech Kestin epic-writer42 Yes, my nefarious scheme shall soon come to fruition. Mwahaha!!!! ...are you breaking up Carmella and Nes so Kat can have him? biggrin No, it goes more along the lines that I gave someone a gift that cost me 5 mil gold which I got through selling a 6mil recolor of that very same item. I swear, the odds of me winning that item should have been literally zero!!! The universe just wants you and Ane to be together. X3 I told him I couldn't accept that item gonk I'll admit that I went way over the deep end.
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Posted: Thu Dec 23, 2010 7:43 pm
LabTech Kestin Aneyana Foam-Dome epic-writer42 LabTech Kestin epic-writer42 Yes, my nefarious scheme shall soon come to fruition. Mwahaha!!!! ...are you breaking up Carmella and Nes so Kat can have him? biggrin No, it goes more along the lines that I gave someone a gift that cost me 5 mil gold which I got through selling a 6mil recolor of that very same item. I swear, the odds of me winning that item should have been literally zero!!! The universe just wants you and Ane to be together. X3 I told him I couldn't accept that item gonk 5mil?! That's more than I've ever had! eek Giving a 5mil gift is, quite literally, impossible for me to even comprehend. I can feel my brain shorting out... gonk Epic, I don't want to know what kind of gold you must have. *sticks fingers in ears in case he decides to tell me anyway* xp It was an item I got from that super prize rig.
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Posted: Thu Dec 23, 2010 7:44 pm
epic-writer42 LabTech Kestin Aneyana Foam-Dome epic-writer42 No, it goes more along the lines that I gave someone a gift that cost me 5 mil gold which I got through selling a 6mil recolor of that very same item. I swear, the odds of me winning that item should have been literally zero!!! The universe just wants you and Ane to be together. X3 I told him I couldn't accept that item gonk 5mil?! That's more than I've ever had! eek Giving a 5mil gift is, quite literally, impossible for me to even comprehend. I can feel my brain shorting out... gonk Epic, I don't want to know what kind of gold you must have. *sticks fingers in ears in case he decides to tell me anyway* xp It was an item I got from that super prize rig. LA LA LA I CAN'T HEAR YOUUUUU (Translation: Lucky b*****d. mad )
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Posted: Thu Dec 23, 2010 7:46 pm
LabTech Kestin LA LA LA I CAN'T HEAR YOUUUUU (Translation: Lucky b*****d. mad ) You made me laugh so hard I choked. XD;
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Posted: Thu Dec 23, 2010 7:50 pm
LabTech Kestin epic-writer42 LabTech Kestin Aneyana Foam-Dome epic-writer42 No, it goes more along the lines that I gave someone a gift that cost me 5 mil gold which I got through selling a 6mil recolor of that very same item. I swear, the odds of me winning that item should have been literally zero!!! The universe just wants you and Ane to be together. X3 I told him I couldn't accept that item gonk 5mil?! That's more than I've ever had! eek Giving a 5mil gift is, quite literally, impossible for me to even comprehend. I can feel my brain shorting out... gonk Epic, I don't want to know what kind of gold you must have. *sticks fingers in ears in case he decides to tell me anyway* xp It was an item I got from that super prize rig. LA LA LA I CAN'T HEAR YOUUUUU (Translation: Lucky b*****d. mad ) I did not ask for it at all. Seriously.
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Posted: Thu Dec 23, 2010 8:57 pm
I know I shouldn't make assumptions about the future, but nothing has changed in the past few months since I came home, and it's becoming harder and harder to shake the feeling that nothing is going to change.
My mom tells me I shouldn't worry about the future right now, because this is a "time for healing," but that's the thing - I'm not healing right now. I'm not getting any better. The suicidal thoughts are still here right now, and they aren't getting any quieter.
I feel like I should have killed myself awhile ago, and right now I'm just wasting everybody's time by staying alive. The sooner I die, the sooner everybody has to deal with the emotional trauma, and the sooner they'll all get over it.
I know the reason I haven't had a girlfriend isn't because I'm nice. It's because I just don't know how to flirt, and again, it's becoming harder and harder to shake the feeling that I'm never going to know how. I'm going to be lonely, depressed, and living at home for as long as it takes for me to finally kill myself and get it over with.
I've seen what adult life looks like, and I've seen what's happening to our world, and it all just looks so bitter and miserable that I don't know if I want to be a part of it, even if I can somehow get out of this slump that I'm in. My whole life is such a big blob of cynicism and misery that I don't think I can escape at this point.
I keep feeling like I just want to close off all the doors and wait for my life to end. I don't want my family to have to suffer because of my failure anymore. God damn it.
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Posted: Thu Dec 23, 2010 9:00 pm
Jedi Sasquatch I know I shouldn't make assumptions about the future, but nothing has changed in the past few months since I came home, and it's becoming harder and harder to shake the feeling that nothing is going to change.
My mom tells me I shouldn't worry about the future right now, because this is a "time for healing," but that's the thing - I'm not healing right now. I'm not getting any better. The suicidal thoughts are still here right now, and they aren't getting any quieter.
I feel like I should have killed myself awhile ago, and right now I'm just wasting everybody's time by staying alive. The sooner I die, the sooner everybody has to deal with the emotional trauma, and the sooner they'll all get over it.
I know the reason I haven't had a girlfriend isn't because I'm nice. It's because I just don't know how to flirt, and again, it's becoming harder and harder to shake the feeling that I'm never going to know how. I'm going to be lonely, depressed, and living at home for as long as it takes for me to finally kill myself and get it over with.
I've seen what adult life looks like, and I've seen what's happening to our world, and it all just looks so bitter and miserable that I don't know if I want to be a part of it, even if I can somehow get out of this slump that I'm in. My whole life is such a big blob of cynicism and misery that I don't think I can escape at this point.
I keep feeling like I just want to close off all the doors and wait for my life to end. I don't want my family to have to suffer because of my failure anymore. God damn it. Flirting is easy once you get passed the awkward feeling.
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Posted: Thu Dec 23, 2010 9:04 pm
epic-writer42 Jedi Sasquatch I know I shouldn't make assumptions about the future, but nothing has changed in the past few months since I came home, and it's becoming harder and harder to shake the feeling that nothing is going to change.
My mom tells me I shouldn't worry about the future right now, because this is a "time for healing," but that's the thing - I'm not healing right now. I'm not getting any better. The suicidal thoughts are still here right now, and they aren't getting any quieter.
I feel like I should have killed myself awhile ago, and right now I'm just wasting everybody's time by staying alive. The sooner I die, the sooner everybody has to deal with the emotional trauma, and the sooner they'll all get over it.
I know the reason I haven't had a girlfriend isn't because I'm nice. It's because I just don't know how to flirt, and again, it's becoming harder and harder to shake the feeling that I'm never going to know how. I'm going to be lonely, depressed, and living at home for as long as it takes for me to finally kill myself and get it over with.
I've seen what adult life looks like, and I've seen what's happening to our world, and it all just looks so bitter and miserable that I don't know if I want to be a part of it, even if I can somehow get out of this slump that I'm in. My whole life is such a big blob of cynicism and misery that I don't think I can escape at this point.
I keep feeling like I just want to close off all the doors and wait for my life to end. I don't want my family to have to suffer because of my failure anymore. God damn it. Flirting is easy once you get passed the awkward feeling. That feeling never goes away for me. I've tried, I really have.
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Posted: Thu Dec 23, 2010 9:07 pm
Jedi Sasquatch epic-writer42 Jedi Sasquatch I know I shouldn't make assumptions about the future, but nothing has changed in the past few months since I came home, and it's becoming harder and harder to shake the feeling that nothing is going to change.
My mom tells me I shouldn't worry about the future right now, because this is a "time for healing," but that's the thing - I'm not healing right now. I'm not getting any better. The suicidal thoughts are still here right now, and they aren't getting any quieter.
I feel like I should have killed myself awhile ago, and right now I'm just wasting everybody's time by staying alive. The sooner I die, the sooner everybody has to deal with the emotional trauma, and the sooner they'll all get over it.
I know the reason I haven't had a girlfriend isn't because I'm nice. It's because I just don't know how to flirt, and again, it's becoming harder and harder to shake the feeling that I'm never going to know how. I'm going to be lonely, depressed, and living at home for as long as it takes for me to finally kill myself and get it over with.
I've seen what adult life looks like, and I've seen what's happening to our world, and it all just looks so bitter and miserable that I don't know if I want to be a part of it, even if I can somehow get out of this slump that I'm in. My whole life is such a big blob of cynicism and misery that I don't think I can escape at this point.
I keep feeling like I just want to close off all the doors and wait for my life to end. I don't want my family to have to suffer because of my failure anymore. God damn it. Flirting is easy once you get passed the awkward feeling. That feeling never goes away for me. I've tried, I really have. Cause you're probably thinking to hard about it. Loosen up, talk like you're talking to a best friend, girlfriend is nothing more than the words girl and friend put together, and be yourself.
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Posted: Thu Dec 23, 2010 9:09 pm
I don't think people like me very much when I'm myself.
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