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 Posted: Tue Dec 21, 2010 5:52 pm
I told my dad I didn't get the $36000 scholarship because I didn't get a 30 on the ACT. Which is basically true. Instead, I got the $16000 scholarship. Why? Because I got a 29 on the ACT and could never raise it any higher. Then he goes back and says it's my fault because I couldn't study harder. ******** you. Is anything good enough for you? I tried my best on each test and ughhh. Instead of saying "oh, that's too bad," you say "that's your fault." Yes, maybe it is my fault. But can't you EVER recognize that I try my best on everything I do? Is anything I do good enough for you?
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Posted: Tue Dec 21, 2010 5:56 pm
Mickey2146 I told my dad I didn't get the $36000 scholarship because I didn't get a 30 on the ACT. Which is basically true. Instead, I got the $16000 scholarship. Why? Because I got a 29 on the ACT and could never raise it any higher. Then he goes back and says it's my fault because I couldn't study harder. ******** you. Is anything good enough for you? I tried my best on each test and ughhh. Instead of saying "oh, that's too bad," you say "that's your fault." Yes, maybe it is my fault. But can't you EVER recognize that I try my best on everything I do? Is anything I do good enough for you? Don't think about what others think of you Mickey, you did your best and as long as you feel that you did your best then its perfectly fine. We all have our flaws and as long as you are open and honest with yourself, to hell with what others think. In my book you did fantastic. Don't try to please others as it will just lead down a dangerous road for you, please yourself and as long as you're happy with what you do and how well you do it, then you can't go wrong.
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Posted: Tue Dec 21, 2010 6:09 pm
Mickey2146 I told my dad I didn't get the $36000 scholarship because I didn't get a 30 on the ACT. Which is basically true. Instead, I got the $16000 scholarship. Why? Because I got a 29 on the ACT and could never raise it any higher. Then he goes back and says it's my fault because I couldn't study harder. ******** you. Is anything good enough for you? I tried my best on each test and ughhh. Instead of saying "oh, that's too bad," you say "that's your fault." Yes, maybe it is my fault. But can't you EVER recognize that I try my best on everything I do? Is anything I do good enough for you? $1600 is still a lot of fawking money; you did really well. You're parents should be proud of you...not mad at you gonk
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Posted: Tue Dec 21, 2010 6:17 pm
That word, in and of itself, is enough to trigger panic attacks that only get worse each and every time. I couldn't breathe, I swear it. I'll kill them all. At this point, I know people should know better, so I'm forced to assume they're trying to kill me. Next time I see that word used by someone I know, I'm certain my organs will just explode and I'll die. Sad thing is I'm serious. I felt the pressure. If I hadn't had the chance to take a shower right then something vital would have exploded. I can't stress enough how much I'm not exaggerating. Hopefully the feeling of organs about to explode doesn't actually mean they will, because that's not the way I want to die.
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Posted: Tue Dec 21, 2010 6:29 pm
Aneyana Mickey2146 I told my dad I didn't get the $36000 scholarship because I didn't get a 30 on the ACT. Which is basically true. Instead, I got the $16000 scholarship. Why? Because I got a 29 on the ACT and could never raise it any higher. Then he goes back and says it's my fault because I couldn't study harder. ******** you. Is anything good enough for you? I tried my best on each test and ughhh. Instead of saying "oh, that's too bad," you say "that's your fault." Yes, maybe it is my fault. But can't you EVER recognize that I try my best on everything I do? Is anything I do good enough for you? $1600 is still a lot of fawking money; you did really well. You're parents should be proud of you...not mad at you gonk Some parents are dead serious about wanting their kids to be in the "Top percentage".
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Posted: Tue Dec 21, 2010 6:50 pm
epic-writer42 Aneyana Mickey2146 I told my dad I didn't get the $36000 scholarship because I didn't get a 30 on the ACT. Which is basically true. Instead, I got the $16000 scholarship. Why? Because I got a 29 on the ACT and could never raise it any higher. Then he goes back and says it's my fault because I couldn't study harder. ******** you. Is anything good enough for you? I tried my best on each test and ughhh. Instead of saying "oh, that's too bad," you say "that's your fault." Yes, maybe it is my fault. But can't you EVER recognize that I try my best on everything I do? Is anything I do good enough for you? $1600 is still a lot of fawking money; you did really well. You're parents should be proud of you...not mad at you gonk Some parents are dead serious about wanting their kids to be in the "Top percentage". I seriously don't know why some parents are so crazy. You'd think they'd realize that being that way would just push their kids away. and I know this sounds racist...but it seems like Asian parents tend to be the most common culprits of this. I mean both poor Mickey and Nim put up with that sort of thing
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Posted: Tue Dec 21, 2010 6:57 pm
Ane-- I'm not the worst off, honestly, but yeah. I really do think Asian parents tend to be the most crazy about it. I remember someone in grade school would tell me their parents would whip them with a belt-like tool that wouldn't actually injure them but would hurt, if they got bad grades.
My parents aren't so grade-obsessed. Well, they are, but nowadays it's more about control, I think. My mom won't let me do my own laundry by myself, and before it was more about be 'not being able to do it'.
Next bit is a bit squicky....
Did I mention she made me handwash my and my sister's underwear? Like, with just a bar of soap and water. Because she claimed they had blood on it. Some which was just old stains, the new stains...not my underwear. Handwash. Yeah.
And yes, I did still machine-wash after, we just apparently have to handwash before too.
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Posted: Tue Dec 21, 2010 7:03 pm
Agreed with all of the above. Being Filipino, I also am subject to the same bullshittery of parenting. But I guess it's a hit we have to take.
I guess what I'm saying is, is that if you just succeed, they'll be there to bask in the same glory. So, that said, be successful. Dont look back.
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Posted: Tue Dec 21, 2010 7:08 pm
I don't know what to do. I have no place to call home. I feel like I've worn out the zCB, worn it out so I no longer even remotely belong, and this new place...it's causing me even more problems, and I'm not sure how much more I can deal with before I'm forced to give up all the awesome new friends I made. Figuratively speaking, I have no home, no family, and nobody who loves me. And these past two days have been noticeably worse than the shithole my life usually is. Key word: noticeably. That's saying something. It really is.
I don't want to put this in white text. Maybe if I don't...someone will care. I get reassurances only when I actively mention how alone I feel in here, which is basically the equivalent of someone handing out presents to everyone except me, and then I ask for one and get it...but it's not the same. I had to ask, and that alone means I'm not worth as much to anyone.
I wish it were enough to have one or two people who cared about me, but I need a group to fit into...when I don't have one, even remotely, I just get all...weird. Like I'm upset, but it's all detached...but I can still feel it. And I hate it. I want a place to belong, and my personality isn't built for that...yet another of the paradoxes that serve to prove that the universe really does hate me.
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Posted: Tue Dec 21, 2010 7:10 pm
Heartless901 Agreed with all of the above. Being Filipino, I also am subject to the same bullshittery of parenting. But I guess it's a hit we have to take. I guess what I'm saying is, is that if you just succeed, they'll be there to bask in the same glory. So, that said, be successful. Dont look back. Whoo Filipino pride. xD; I hope you aren't the youngest in the family. Assuming your parents are also secretly still living in the Philippines every day. If you have responsible siblings, they were basically born in place of parents, that all sound familiar? 8D Yeah, you can kinda tell I'm enjoying my two weeks off from school to spend every day with my mother, huh. >,>
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Posted: Tue Dec 21, 2010 7:22 pm
LabTech Kestin I don't know what to do. I have no place to call home. I feel like I've worn out the zCB, worn it out so I no longer even remotely belong, and this new place...it's causing me even more problems, and I'm not sure how much more I can deal with before I'm forced to give up all the awesome new friends I made. Figuratively speaking, I have no home, no family, and nobody who loves me. And these past two days have been noticeably worse than the shithole my life usually is. Key word: noticeably. That's saying something. It really is. I don't want to put this in white text. Maybe if I don't...someone will care. I get reassurances only when I actively mention how alone I feel in here, which is basically the equivalent of someone handing out presents to everyone except me, and then I ask for one and get it...but it's not the same. I had to ask, and that alone means I'm not worth as much to anyone. I wish it were enough to have one or two people who cared about me, but I need a group to fit into...when I don't have one, even remotely, I just get all...weird. Like I'm upset, but it's all detached...but I can still feel it. And I hate it. I want a place to belong, and my personality isn't built for that...yet another of the paradoxes that serve to prove that the universe really does hate me. Jer0nim0 Heartless901 Agreed with all of the above. Being Filipino, I also am subject to the same bullshittery of parenting. But I guess it's a hit we have to take. I guess what I'm saying is, is that if you just succeed, they'll be there to bask in the same glory. So, that said, be successful. Dont look back. Whoo Filipino pride. xD; I hope you aren't the youngest in the family. Assuming your parents are also secretly still living in the Philippines every day. If you have responsible siblings, they were basically born in place of parents, that all sound familiar? 8D Yeah, you can kinda tell I'm enjoying my two weeks off from school to spend every day with my mother, huh. >,>I'm the eldest, and therefore the scapegoat for everything. Be the best, strive for the grades, go out and be someone. But I am someone. Just not entirely what they want me to be.
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Posted: Tue Dec 21, 2010 7:36 pm
Hrm. That would technically be my brother, but since my sis is the responsible older-sounding of the two, that's her. Definitely the scapegoat. It's totally her fault I am fat and stupid and rebellious, right? So my parents should totally take it out on the person who basically raised me to not be a robot, and scream at her until she gets sick, right? It's so damn stereotypical. She's lucky she was smart enough to pull off the rest of what they expected, except the going out part. My parents want her to go out and be someone, but she's always sick to them so she should stay home. Totally both possible at the same time.
And yeah. I don't think any kid would ever be what their parents expected.
I think what scares me the most is that everyone's basically doomed to be what their parents would be like. Makes me glad I'm prolly not able to have kids. Would not want to do this to anyone else.
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Posted: Tue Dec 21, 2010 7:39 pm
I think the essence of my future parenting is to make sure that dreams can drive, hope is undying, and working is key. I want to raise a son on values that I know, and have him choose. Rather than forcing a lifestyle onto him.
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Posted: Tue Dec 21, 2010 7:43 pm
@The grades thing: My friend's parents would ground her from doing homework. Silly RiRi I can't keep it to myself anymore. I need to tell someone about my secret evil plan.
I've been playing Katamari on the Rocks on repeat for 2 days, quiet enough that it's audible, but not loud enough for anyone to get annoyed. Slowly, it's getting stuck in my dad and brother's heads. I know because I keep hearing 'naaaa na na na na na naa na...' from people who aren't me.
>xD ...I love you. XD
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Posted: Tue Dec 21, 2010 7:51 pm
Pirate Captain Sushi At around 1 PM I told Zuzu I'd be back soon to talk to her... but I fell asleep and didn't wake up until 8. DDDD8
I feel like a jerk. gonk Sleep is moar important you silly soosh.
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