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 Posted: Sun Dec 19, 2010 8:15 pm
Lady -Wizzard- Karris Nespin Fernagon Lady -Wizzard- Karris It's almost Xmas and I'm staying with my sis, her hubby and their two girls whom I adore as if they were my own. I'm not Xian, and I've always felt that Xmas was more for kids and Xians. I do love this time of year and I've always celebrated the solstice in the past, but this year I just cannot help but feel unloved and depressed. I know my sis would either tell me how much she loves me or try to shake me out of it, but I don't want to put that burden on her. The truth of the matter is that there really is no one I can talk to about this stuff. And that just makes me feel worse and I fall deeper into myself.
I'm finding it really hard to care about anything and I'm wondering why I'm even writing this. Why do I bother with anything these days, I just get kicked and ignored even more. We're not gonna ignore you Karris. And while we might not have great answers all the time, we can at least listen to you talk for what good it does. And who knows? Maybe someone will have that magic bullet that'll solve the problems. Yes, a magic bullet is exactly what I need right now. Well, I don't have a magic bullet, but... ...H-hug? ;3; Song Riter227 I promised myself I wouldn't interfere in my friends' relationships, but I still find myself doing so. I can't help it, I hate guys who hit women, who do they think they are? Roger hit Amie again tonight and I had to leave to go get her and he tried attacking me too. I made sure the threat was eliminated and when I looked at Amie it was apparent by all the bruising she had and the way she was looking at him that he and been abusing her for awhile. It made me furious. I told her to pack a bag and she was staying with me for a few days. Did I make the right decision for stepping in? or am I a an unwanted intruder on a relationship? I'm so confused right now, I can't seem to grasp reality. I'd say you made the right decision. It doesn't matter if you're interfering in a relationship if you're saving someone from chronic abuse.
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Posted: Sun Dec 19, 2010 8:49 pm
I wish I had real problems. I really do. Then maybe I wouldn't feel like I was just wangsting all the time. I'm on the verge of tears right now, but who would care? There's never an actual reason I'm upset, at least never one that makes sense; who in their right mind wouldn't be fed up with it after all this time? Maybe it's time to move on. I'm nothing but a nomad; that's all I'll ever be. My personality just isn't built for long-lasting friendship...
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Posted: Sun Dec 19, 2010 9:00 pm
Foamy made a guy who's been flirting with me jealous. rofl
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Posted: Sun Dec 19, 2010 9:12 pm
Lady -Wizzard- Karris Nespin Fernagon Lady -Wizzard- Karris It's almost Xmas and I'm staying with my sis, her hubby and their two girls whom I adore as if they were my own. I'm not Xian, and I've always felt that Xmas was more for kids and Xians. I do love this time of year and I've always celebrated the solstice in the past, but this year I just cannot help but feel unloved and depressed. I know my sis would either tell me how much she loves me or try to shake me out of it, but I don't want to put that burden on her. The truth of the matter is that there really is no one I can talk to about this stuff. And that just makes me feel worse and I fall deeper into myself.
I'm finding it really hard to care about anything and I'm wondering why I'm even writing this. Why do I bother with anything these days, I just get kicked and ignored even more. We're not gonna ignore you Karris. And while we might not have great answers all the time, we can at least listen to you talk for what good it does. And who knows? Maybe someone will have that magic bullet that'll solve the problems. Yes, a magic bullet is exactly what I need right now.
The blender? I have one of those you could borrow =P
Seriously, though, Karris. It has to get better. Just hang in there, and it'll all be worth it soon enough <3333333333333333333333333
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Posted: Sun Dec 19, 2010 9:19 pm
LabTech Kestin I wish I had real problems. I really do. Then maybe I wouldn't feel like I was just wangsting all the time. I'm on the verge of tears right now, but who would care? There's never an actual reason I'm upset, at least never one that makes sense; who in their right mind wouldn't be fed up with it after all this time? Maybe it's time to move on. I'm nothing but a nomad; that's all I'll ever be. My personality just isn't built for long-lasting friendship... If it's bad enough that you're on the verge of tears, then your problems must be very real. D: Shiori Miko Foamy made a guy who's been flirting with me jealous. rofl ...How the hell'd I do that? XDXD
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Posted: Sun Dec 19, 2010 9:22 pm
Foam-Dome Shiori Miko Foamy made a guy who's been flirting with me jealous. rofl ...How the hell'd I do that? XDXD He saw that I added someone new on facebook. "Who's that guy who just added?" "That's...Foamy, why?" "How do you know him?" "....Are you jealous?" "...Kinda." Which is why according to the world of facebook I'm engaged now. xd
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Posted: Sun Dec 19, 2010 9:24 pm
Shiori Miko Foam-Dome Shiori Miko Foamy made a guy who's been flirting with me jealous. rofl ...How the hell'd I do that? XDXD He saw that I added someone new on facebook. "Who's that guy who just added?" "That's...Foamy, why?" "How do you know him?" "....Are you jealous?" "...Kinda." Which is why according to the world of facebook I'm engaged now. xd ring plz.
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Posted: Sun Dec 19, 2010 9:26 pm
Shiori Miko Foam-Dome Shiori Miko Foamy made a guy who's been flirting with me jealous. rofl ...How the hell'd I do that? XDXD He saw that I added someone new on facebook. "Who's that guy who just added?" "That's...Foamy, why?" "How do you know him?" "....Are you jealous?" "...Kinda." Which is why according to the world of facebook I'm engaged now. xd Wow, that's awesome. XD Didn't know I could do that!
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Posted: Sun Dec 19, 2010 9:27 pm
Kats Kokeshi Doll Shiori Miko Foam-Dome Shiori Miko Foamy made a guy who's been flirting with me jealous. rofl ...How the hell'd I do that? XDXD He saw that I added someone new on facebook. "Who's that guy who just added?" "That's...Foamy, why?" "How do you know him?" "....Are you jealous?" "...Kinda." Which is why according to the world of facebook I'm engaged now. xd ring plz. I'm still waiting for my ring. It has to have the Batman symbol or the engagement is off.
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Posted: Sun Dec 19, 2010 9:36 pm
Shiori Miko Kats Kokeshi Doll Shiori Miko Foam-Dome Shiori Miko Foamy made a guy who's been flirting with me jealous. rofl ...How the hell'd I do that? XDXD He saw that I added someone new on facebook. "Who's that guy who just added?" "That's...Foamy, why?" "How do you know him?" "....Are you jealous?" "...Kinda." Which is why according to the world of facebook I'm engaged now. xd ring plz. I'm still waiting for my ring. It has to have the Batman symbol or the engagement is off. I think I remember hearing about that conversation... XD
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Posted: Sun Dec 19, 2010 10:07 pm
@Foamy: No, it's just another of my little emo-fests. As always. rolleyes I know it, you know it, everyone knows it. Whatever "problems" I have are either too trivial or too abstract to qualify. Nobody ever huggles my posts anymore like I said helps, nor even acknowledges that I've said anything. You're so careful lately to say something to everyone; I was convinced you had me on ignore until just now. Last time I complained about being ignored, I was lectured. When Karris said something similar just now, she was met with a much more positive response. Why? Because she deserves it. Reading about her actual problems makes me want to hug her; reading my pointless whingeing makes me want to roll my eyes, put me on ignore, and fantasize about making something up for a mod to get me banned.
And just to reinforce the fact that the universe ******** hates me (as if the fact that I have so many ******** "problems" and they're all too unquantifiable and ******** stupid to count as anything more than useless wangsting wasn't enough to clue me in), my ******** phone ate my ******** post because I took too ******** long to ******** type it. I had to sneak down here (can't use my laptop like usual because dad's installing my antivirus) and redo it, and if it weren't so fresh in my mind I would have ******** KILLED SOMEONE. ******** YOU, UNIVERSE, ******** EVERYTHING IN YOUR PIECE OF s**t SELF.
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Posted: Sun Dec 19, 2010 10:46 pm
LabTech Kestin @Foamy: No, it's just another of my little emo-fests. As always. rolleyes I know it, you know it, everyone knows it. Whatever "problems" I have are either too trivial or too abstract to qualify. Nobody ever huggles my posts anymore like I said helps, nor even acknowledges that I've said anything. You're so careful lately to say something to everyone; I was convinced you had me on ignore until just now. Last time I complained about being ignored, I was lectured. When Karris said something similar just now, she was met with a much more positive response. Why? Because she deserves it. Reading about her actual problems makes me want to hug her; reading my pointless whingeing makes me want to roll my eyes, put me on ignore, and fantasize about making something up for a mod to get me banned. And just to reinforce the fact that the universe ******** hates me (as if the fact that I have so many ******** "problems" and they're all too unquantifiable and ******** stupid to count as anything more than useless wangsting wasn't enough to clue me in), my ******** phone ate my ******** post because I took too ******** long to ******** type it. I had to sneak down here (can't use my laptop like usual because dad's installing my antivirus) and redo it, and if it weren't so fresh in my mind I would have ******** KILLED SOMEONE. ******** YOU, UNIVERSE, ******** EVERYTHING IN YOUR PIECE OF s**t SELF. I'd never ignore you! D: (Well, I wouldn't put anyone on ignore, but that's beside the point.) Based on what you've said about your parents, it sounds like they're the ones who make you so unhappy. D: The reason why your posts aren't met with more positive responses is because we (or at least I) have been trained to be apprehensive when it comes to giving you words of encouragement. Trust me, I would reply to every single one of your posts in here if I wasn't afraid that you might take it the wrong way or something. ;3; To make a long story short, you're an awesome person and we all care about you, even if it isn't always apparent. And don't try to tell me that I don't know what I'm talking about, because I know I'm telling the truth. ;D
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Posted: Mon Dec 20, 2010 12:02 am
LabTech Kestin @Foamy: No, it's just another of my little emo-fests. As always. rolleyes I know it, you know it, everyone knows it. Whatever "problems" I have are either too trivial or too abstract to qualify. Nobody ever huggles my posts anymore like I said helps, nor even acknowledges that I've said anything. You're so careful lately to say something to everyone; I was convinced you had me on ignore until just now. Last time I complained about being ignored, I was lectured. When Karris said something similar just now, she was met with a much more positive response. Why? Because she deserves it. Reading about her actual problems makes me want to hug her; reading my pointless whingeing makes me want to roll my eyes, put me on ignore, and fantasize about making something up for a mod to get me banned. Nobody replied to my post on the last page. Is it because they don't like me or I'm not worthy? I don't think so. At least, I hope not. The universe may hate you, but it's not just you. It hates me, too. Very, very, very much so. D: -hugpat-
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Posted: Mon Dec 20, 2010 12:36 am
I think I have a serious problem trusting people. I always end up thinking negatively about how people view me. That although I want to be friends with them they probably don't want to be friends with me. And that people don't want to spend time with me, and think I'm a bother. This is probably why I'm always so hesitant to ask people to do stuff, because I'm worried that they'll not want to but feel obligated to because I asked... or something like that. I'm WAY too paranoid.
I'm also always surprised when people actually pay attention to me. It's not something I expect, so it makes me happy when people actually do. SUch as starting to talk to me (instead of the other way around, since if I start the conversation they might feel obligated to reply. But if they start then it shows that they might actually want to talk to me.)
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