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The xam... Dude we are more alike then you think trust me... I too have screwed up many peoples lives only to have it turn around and backfire on me. The only differences I see between us is that yours was over your one true love while mine has been many other people, also the other difference is you cut, but can't take your life while I try any mean to escape the damnation I have brought upon myself. While you may be older than me I have a lot of knowledge for a kid my age and have gone through a lot more than I should of in my years so far, I have brought everything around me from it's once decent state of being to it's now chaotic nightmare that I try to put on a show on for. I only put on a mask for others and dance a little dance so that they leave me be, but I'm really just trying to be back to when I was like 11 since around that time was the best of my life. All I really known is anger, sadness, pain, and how to cause others pain by any means. I have lost all faith in myself to the point that I really don't give a damn anymore how my life turns out as long as I am away from certain people. I have given up all my religious beliefs I held so dear to me so long ago after my life start to act like a janga block set. Now I'm just a former shell of my once glorious self that only trys to make it through the day without getting caught doing something like smoking a cig or drinking. I'm only 15 right now and in a few years I hope they get better, but the way my mind is working out things and events that are happening it really doesn't look like my future will be to bright, but be more of a wet match in a dark cave.

I'm not telling you to want to live just at least try and calm down bout it. Just at least try to live and try to find someone else with all your might, hell go to AA or NA to get of the drugs and alcohol cause my dad was an alcoholic and did cocaine and he is now in jail again... My dad I haven't seen really that much cause he has been in and out of jail and I don't want that to happen to you. I seen what this kind of stuff can do to a man after he lets himself hang in either of our state of being for to long of a time. Well I'm of to take a shower and try and get my mind of this, but first a cig. You should go lay down now and do something beside cutting to get your mind off the subject. Just so you know from my personal experience with drugs and alcohol, it is only a temporary way out of life, but it goes away quicker than you think, so I found a way to get away from everything through my music or video games so I say you should try something else too. Just a little advice from a concern kid... Well peace dude and just chill out.

Goodnight Vanessa, and goodnight BC. The best of everything for all of you.

~Rigs up a screen and projector. Starts a repeating slideshow of obese people and walks out.~

Okay.

~Points a remote at you and clicks the supersize button, making Thanatos a massively obese guy with ginormous man titties.~

You asked for it.

*pat* It might become a little more obvious in the next couple posts of the fight 3nodding

I'm too busy being a part of the best thread of Gaia to really pay much attention here. Weheee!

And I replied about sixteen minutes later. Your turn. Enjoy.