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 Posted: Sun Dec 19, 2010 12:12 pm
Kamilucis I love to sing when I cook or pretend Im on Iron Chef America! Yes I actually do pick an ingredient from my fridge and do that stance redface
I really really hope people enjoy and find my tournament fun, Hope it helps and provides people with happy fun on zOMG.
I trued really hard to make peoples happy this year, I really hope it help and that people will be able to smileYou make me smile, Kami <3 Just by being you ^^
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Posted: Sun Dec 19, 2010 1:19 pm
Well it looks like the grace period of my mom being understanding and sensitive to the problems I'm working through is up.
I guess it was too good to be true.
Now I don't know how I'm going to get through the rest of this.
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Posted: Sun Dec 19, 2010 1:24 pm
CleoSombra Well it looks like the grace period of my mom being understanding and sensitive to the problems I'm working through is up.
I guess it was too good to be true.
Now I don't know how I'm going to get through the rest of this. Well, Kam is pretty cuddly, so you can hug the crap out of him. I'm very good at writing Poems to make people feel better I haven't much other recommendations
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Posted: Sun Dec 19, 2010 2:08 pm
Why is it so difficult to get peace and quiet?
I'm trying to work. Yeah, sure it's totally okay for you two to play guitar directly behind me.
I'm trying to listen to music, with headphones. So sure, keep turning your speakers up so I can hear yours instead.
I'm trying to sleep. Yeah, it's totally okay for you to blast music from right behind the very thin wall
I just wanted to listen to 5 or 6 minutes of one tv show, and naturally it's right at that point that they decided to argue loudly right next to me. I heard none of it. Great.
I really don't know how much more I can deal with anymore. I never bother to tell them to stop because they don't listen anyway, but every little thing just adds to my already growing pile of irritation. I mean, good grief, I ended up cutting my hair the other day because I got angry when it got in my face. I don't know how to deal with this in a healthy way.
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Posted: Sun Dec 19, 2010 4:05 pm
I'm usually pretty self-aware and can tell how I'm feeling and usually even figure out what's making me feel that way. But today, I'm all over the place. One minute I'm crying my eyes out, and the next minute I'm in a great mood, and I have no idea what's going on. Bad stuff is happening, so the crying makes sense, but why do I keep switching to being happy? And what if I say something mean to Alex when I'm feeling bad and then regret it afterward? I'm so confused. I feel like I should avoid him until I can figure out how I really feel, but I hate being away from him =(
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Posted: Sun Dec 19, 2010 4:27 pm
I hope this doesn't end up being misinterpreted sweatdrop
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Posted: Sun Dec 19, 2010 5:53 pm
Sometimes the words get blocked up. And I have to stop, and carefully sort through my thoughts. But people are noisy when they wait, they either press me to continue or say things like "take your time...take your time..." or, well they always say something...and my mind just goes like fheajklkdajtghqelkasrlkwqegae, and I have to make them stop, but I can't even think straight enough to form a polite way to say it. The words get blocked up, and I have to make them stop talking so I can unblock them, but I can't make them stop unless I say it in a nice way instead of just snapping at them to stop talking or even just following my natural instinct and clutching at my head (that's rude; who knew?), and I can't say it well unless I have the chance to think about how I'm going to say it, but I can't think about that if they won't stop, but I can't get them to stop unless...sldfjj frehoiw szklafsej
...and I have no way to tell people any of this. Not before it happens, at least, which is when it matters so that they know about it.
Just typing all that caused me to start crying, I can't handle this, it's my own brain making life so much worse than it has to be and that results even more issues and that just esitgjdlkh it's all a cycle and I have to make it stop, I have to make it stop!
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Posted: Sun Dec 19, 2010 6:37 pm
Well that certainly didn't go as I hoped. But I'll admit, it certainly could have gone worse.
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Posted: Sun Dec 19, 2010 6:43 pm
Tomorrow I'm going to turn in a paper I'm actually proud of. I'm probably going to fail. or get like a seventy something.
Also, I'm all wintery.
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Posted: Sun Dec 19, 2010 7:53 pm
It's almost Xmas and I'm staying with my sis, her hubby and their two girls whom I adore as if they were my own. I'm not Xian, and I've always felt that Xmas was more for kids and Xians. I do love this time of year and I've always celebrated the solstice in the past, but this year I just cannot help but feel unloved and depressed. I know my sis would either tell me how much she loves me or try to shake me out of it, but I don't want to put that burden on her. The truth of the matter is that there really is no one I can talk to about this stuff. And that just makes me feel worse and I fall deeper into myself.
I'm finding it really hard to care about anything and I'm wondering why I'm even writing this. Why do I bother with anything these days, I just get kicked and ignored even more.
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Posted: Sun Dec 19, 2010 7:55 pm
Lady -Wizzard- Karris It's almost Xmas and I'm staying with my sis, her hubby and their two girls whom I adore as if they were my own. I'm not Xian, and I've always felt that Xmas was more for kids and Xians. I do love this time of year and I've always celebrated the solstice in the past, but this year I just cannot help but feel unloved and depressed. I know my sis would either tell me how much she loves me or try to shake me out of it, but I don't want to put that burden on her. The truth of the matter is that there really is no one I can talk to about this stuff. And that just makes me feel worse and I fall deeper into myself.
I'm finding it really hard to care about anything and I'm wondering why I'm even writing this. Why do I bother with anything these days, I just get kicked and ignored even more.
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Posted: Sun Dec 19, 2010 7:57 pm
Lady -Wizzard- Karris It's almost Xmas and I'm staying with my sis, her hubby and their two girls whom I adore as if they were my own. I'm not Xian, and I've always felt that Xmas was more for kids and Xians. I do love this time of year and I've always celebrated the solstice in the past, but this year I just cannot help but feel unloved and depressed. I know my sis would either tell me how much she loves me or try to shake me out of it, but I don't want to put that burden on her. The truth of the matter is that there really is no one I can talk to about this stuff. And that just makes me feel worse and I fall deeper into myself.
I'm finding it really hard to care about anything and I'm wondering why I'm even writing this. Why do I bother with anything these days, I just get kicked and ignored even more. We're not gonna ignore you Karris. And while we might not have great answers all the time, we can at least listen to you talk for what good it does. And who knows? Maybe someone will have that magic bullet that'll solve the problems.
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Nespin Fernagon Vice Captain
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Posted: Sun Dec 19, 2010 8:09 pm
epic-writer42 Well that certainly didn't go as I hoped. But I'll admit, it certainly could have gone worse. if this is about me being busy after the event...I swear, I did go off to do art for you ninja
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Posted: Sun Dec 19, 2010 8:13 pm
Nespin Fernagon Lady -Wizzard- Karris It's almost Xmas and I'm staying with my sis, her hubby and their two girls whom I adore as if they were my own. I'm not Xian, and I've always felt that Xmas was more for kids and Xians. I do love this time of year and I've always celebrated the solstice in the past, but this year I just cannot help but feel unloved and depressed. I know my sis would either tell me how much she loves me or try to shake me out of it, but I don't want to put that burden on her. The truth of the matter is that there really is no one I can talk to about this stuff. And that just makes me feel worse and I fall deeper into myself.
I'm finding it really hard to care about anything and I'm wondering why I'm even writing this. Why do I bother with anything these days, I just get kicked and ignored even more. We're not gonna ignore you Karris. And while we might not have great answers all the time, we can at least listen to you talk for what good it does. And who knows? Maybe someone will have that magic bullet that'll solve the problems. Yes, a magic bullet is exactly what I need right now.
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Posted: Sun Dec 19, 2010 8:15 pm
I promised myself I wouldn't interfere in my friends' relationships, but I still find myself doing so. I can't help it, I hate guys who hit women, who do they think they are? Roger hit Amie again tonight and I had to leave to go get her and he tried attacking me too. I made sure the threat was eliminated and when I looked at Amie it was apparent by all the bruising she had and the way she was looking at him that he and been abusing her for awhile. It made me furious. I told her to pack a bag and she was staying with me for a few days. Did I make the right decision for stepping in? or am I a an unwanted intruder on a relationship? I'm so confused right now, I can't seem to grasp reality.
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