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 Posted: Sat Dec 18, 2010 9:22 pm
I think I've lost my mind slightly....better than a panic attack though.
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Posted: Sat Dec 18, 2010 9:27 pm
epic-writer42 keito melfina I have to be a peer leader for a christian retreat. I know that the "card board thingy" (write one trouble in your life, and then how you were saved) would come up again. I'm kinda scared, since last year a girl said she was saved from her bisexuality (well apparently some of the audience members were in disbelief or shocked). That was when I officially came out, thinking that I needed to be saved because of all the stress thinking about it. Anyways, I'm kinda scared. I'm not the "ideal" peer leader since a) slim skinny = weak b) i haven't really prayed much c) i don't know if I could handle a weekend w/ other teens. I just wonder if I'm taken seriously, and even dreamed of a clash in case of "bible verse throwing". I hope all goes well Dx If skinny equals weak. I should be able to move a mountain. But I can't sadly. And if bisexuality is an inherently bad thing (and being "saved" from it is possible), I'm the Queen of Switzerland.
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Posted: Sat Dec 18, 2010 9:46 pm
Being saying they're "OCD about" things are really starting to bug me. D:
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Posted: Sat Dec 18, 2010 9:49 pm
I really resent the fact that sex ed was mandatory. I have such a major squick, and I would give anything to erase it all from my memory. *shudders* Cannot unlearn. And oh, how I want to unlearn...
(I am one hundred and fifty percent serious. Just so we're clear. I honestly cannot even put into words just how much I hate having had to learn all that.)
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Posted: Sat Dec 18, 2010 10:05 pm
Just talking to each member of my family today makes me remember why I wished I was adopted as one of my birthday/Christmas wishes every other year.
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Posted: Sat Dec 18, 2010 11:32 pm
I feel very powerful at the moment. Jimmy and I aren't dating because he was confused about other girls in his life, which is why I tried to stay just friends. He wasn't even sure how he felt about me, so kept asking to do little things like kiss. I kept saying no. He asked why I didn't want to try and I said I didn't want to be on a list of possible girlfriends. If I met another guy while Jimmy was still confused, I shouldn't say no because of a maybe. So while Jimmy and I are still friends but I told him to stop thinking about me in a romantic sense. I'm pretty firm in my "just friends" position while he seemed seriously upset about it.
Everyone told me I shouldn't get involved with him because I knew what his last relationship was like, that he was gonna hurt me, etc. I told them I'm nothing like his ex. I feel like I just proved that.
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Posted: Sun Dec 19, 2010 12:31 am
I'm a cutter. And that may seem bad, but it's actually one of my MUCH lesser problems.
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Posted: Sun Dec 19, 2010 12:41 am
epic-writer42 I think I've lost my mind slightly....better than a panic attack though. I lost my mind ages ago xd
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Posted: Sun Dec 19, 2010 12:42 am
LabTech Kestin epic-writer42 keito melfina I have to be a peer leader for a christian retreat. I know that the "card board thingy" (write one trouble in your life, and then how you were saved) would come up again. I'm kinda scared, since last year a girl said she was saved from her bisexuality (well apparently some of the audience members were in disbelief or shocked). That was when I officially came out, thinking that I needed to be saved because of all the stress thinking about it. Anyways, I'm kinda scared. I'm not the "ideal" peer leader since a) slim skinny = weak b) i haven't really prayed much c) i don't know if I could handle a weekend w/ other teens. I just wonder if I'm taken seriously, and even dreamed of a clash in case of "bible verse throwing". I hope all goes well Dx If skinny equals weak. I should be able to move a mountain. But I can't sadly. And if bisexuality is an inherently bad thing (and being "saved" from it is possible), I'm the Queen of Switzerland. This^
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Posted: Sun Dec 19, 2010 12:42 am
Aneyana epic-writer42 I think I've lost my mind slightly....better than a panic attack though. I lost my mind ages ago xd And also this ^
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Posted: Sun Dec 19, 2010 2:59 am
Kestin's avatar makes me squee. XD @Love topic a couple pages ago: It took me over a year to feel the way I do about my not-girlfriend. X3 I know I've said this before, but after not seeing her for over a week, I realized how much I missed her. I also realized that I was happy just to talk to her. I fear that I might be "Forever Friend Zone" now, though. emo CleoSombra Being saying they're "OCD about" things are really starting to bug me. D: Can I say it? Since I actually have OCD? o3o
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Posted: Sun Dec 19, 2010 3:01 am
Forever friend zone sucks.
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Posted: Sun Dec 19, 2010 4:29 am
Foam-Dome Kestin's avatar makes me squee. XD @Love topic a couple pages ago: It took me over a year to feel the way I do about my not-girlfriend. X3 I know I've said this before, but after not seeing her for over a week, I realized how much I missed her. I also realized that I was happy just to talk to her. I fear that I might be "Forever Friend Zone" now, though. emo 
Some people probably wouldn't call that love, they'd call that obsession.
Not that I would call it obsession. I don't mean to insult you or anything. I'm just saying that love is such a subjective concept, and everybody has their own interpretation of what it feels like, that I think I have good reason to doubt its existence.
And yeah, my brother has OCD. I can tell from secondhand experience that OCD is far worse than most people probably think it is. O.o
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Posted: Sun Dec 19, 2010 4:54 am
Today makes day 4 of not drinking any Coca-Cola.
If I see Coca Cola I get the initial craving, but it seems to have become manageable by ******** my head hurts. xp
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Posted: Sun Dec 19, 2010 5:26 am
Jedi Sasquatch Foam-Dome Kestin's avatar makes me squee. XD @Love topic a couple pages ago: It took me over a year to feel the way I do about my not-girlfriend. X3 I know I've said this before, but after not seeing her for over a week, I realized how much I missed her. I also realized that I was happy just to talk to her. I fear that I might be "Forever Friend Zone" now, though. emo
Some people probably wouldn't call that love, they'd call that obsession.
Not that I would call it obsession. I don't mean to insult you or anything. I'm just saying that love is such a subjective concept, and everybody has their own interpretation of what it feels like, that I think I have good reason to doubt its existence.
And yeah, my brother has OCD. I can tell from secondhand experience that OCD is far worse than most people probably think it is. O.o
Why would you call that obsession...? Because I have OCD?
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