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So I totally just realized my tan's uneven now. One arms darker than the other. cat_crying Damn Italian festival. cat_rofl

Nah not really. The festival gave me something to do today. I was painting faces cat_xd And I think the sugar's getting to me. I kept eating the candy we were supposed to be giving to the kids when we were done painting their faces. And I totally got a Beanie Baby out of helping out. When we were all packing up the games and face painting I grabbed this Beanie Baby that reminded me of my little baby boy(I had a grey tabby that I would call my little baby boy. He didn't care as long as I fed him) and I went to pay the one dude that was in charge of it since they were prizes and for sale but because they were losing so much money on the event(well the college clubs were) and I had been helping them out so much today he just said keep it.

The funny thing was while I was there I had even said to the one girl that was there for a while that I was probably going to have to turn around because of where the sun was.

Ouch hopefully there wasn't any damage elsewhere.

Yey!!! My laptop's all fixed!!! And I won a new iPod over the weekend!!! Hopefully that means I'll be able to do more online.

Congrats X-Yami-no-Ko-X on the win. Glad to hear your lappy is fixed too.

Thanks guys. And congratz iKill.

I just realized that everyone else in my house has gone to bed. It's only 11:30 and there's usually at least two other people up until midnight and one of my housemates seems to never sleep. But here I am, sitting in the living room all alone while everyone else has retired to their rooms. It's weird and kind of eerie.

Also, I' just opened my mythology book to the homework pages and realized I can relax a little. It;s the Norse mythology section.

This is a rant, so nobody really has to read or reply to this. I just need to get this out.

My car sucks, and it's been having problems for the last few weeks. Namely, stalling out or refusing to acknowledge when the gas pedal is pushed down. Usually, this happens while I'm driving, and I almost get hit.

Since I'm the only one of my friends who's got a license, let alone a car, I'm usually the one who has to drive everyone around when we wanna hang. But because my car's been acting up, we haven't been hanging very much recently. We made plans to hang out on Thursday, because there were some post Halloween sales my friends wanted to hit, and I got permission to get some nice interview clothes.

I was on the way to get my friends when the car began acting up again, and I almost got t-boned. So I turned around and went home (I wasn't far from there, and I wanted to at least be safe at home, rather than stuck on the side of the road somewhere.) I called and let them know that there were car problems, and that we wouldn't be able to hang. I got yelled at, screamed at, and told that I was a jerk, because I had left someone without a ride home from work. Normally, she either rides the bus or gets a ride from her boyfriend. She had an hour before she got off work, and it's not like Dare couldn't have asked someone else to give her mom a ride.

So today, I get a phone call from Duck, and she was "crying" because some guy had been a jerk to her, and she wanted to hang with everyone. I told her I was sorry, but the car was acting up, so I wouldn't be able to. She only said "ok". Didn't say goodbye, or anything else. Just said "ok" and hung up. Found out later that they'd been hanging out all day.

And honestly it's just total crap. I was concerned with their safety, I didn't want us to get stranded and be screwed. But I'm the one who's getting yelled at, and treated like crap. And the worst part is, I have this feeling that they're going to cut me out of our group of friends.

The thing that sucks the most though is that it's my circle. These are my sisters, my best friends, the only people I've been close to for the last 4 years. They're the people I've trusted with almost every secret I have, and now they're doing this. And it hurts, and it sucks, and it feels like a part of my soul is being torn apart. They're my craft members. I've been best friends with Dino since we were 5, and since Duck was 3. They've always been my best friends, and now they aren't even talking to me because of the fact that I canceled plans to ensure our safety. Cause I'd rather be safe then sorry. and now this is how they're treating me? scream crying

Rant over. Just gonna go cry now. crying