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 Posted: Sat Dec 21, 2013 8:26 pm
micperson Rowan Riddle micperson Honestly, I didn't think my attraction to girls meant anything. I thought maybe it was just me really wanted to be their friend or admiring them. Then, in seventh grade I became really close with this girl and I started to think about kissing her... but I immediately brushed it off because I just knew I wasn't gay. We all have random thought about kissing our friends...right? Throughout high school I kept having these strange attractions to girls, but thought nothing of it and just kept looking at guys...or trying to at least. I kept noticing that I wasn't attracted to the same guys that my friends were gawking at. When my friends started dating, I felt pressured to get a boyfriend. I thought I was pretty pathetic for never having my first kiss or anything so I started seeking one out. My junior year, I flirted with and dated a couple of guys and while I thought they were cute and nice, it always seemed like I had to force myself to be flirty and it always felt really silly and awkward for me. At the same time, I had this massive crush on a girl in my Digital Media class...that pixie haircut still gets me sometimes. redface It was sometime during my Junior year that I seriously started questioning my sexuality. The summer before my senior year, I got my first "official" boyfriend and my first kiss...which led to more than a few make out sessions. All of which felt completely and utterly wrong. I kept thinking, "What the ********, Sydney. How can you not like making out? Everyone likes making out. Is he just bad at it? No, he seems to know what he's doing." I ended up breaking up with him and spent the next month or so seriously reflecting on myself. TL;DR I always sort of knew but never admitted to myself that I might be gay until this past year. I'm still somewhat questioning myself but I'm about 90% sure now. It's been kinda tough for me. sweatdrop I find it's the one's who've questioned themselves to be of the most fabulous. Aha, thanks I suppose. I dunno, I've just always been incredibly analytical about things. Instead of just going with my gut, I second guess myself. Maybe I just need to face the facts. :S My wife had to do that. c:
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Posted: Sat Dec 21, 2013 8:42 pm
I have always kinda new that I was into girls. But I pushed it off until I was a junior in high school. But I totally figured it out in 9th grade. But I was scared my family wouldn't except me so I hid who I was and dated men to keep ppl happy. But my family is very supportive and loves me for me and I couldn't be happier.
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Posted: Sun Dec 22, 2013 10:18 am
to be totally honest...
I think it started in junior high. My circle of friends were kind of non existent so i started hanging out with this girl from my neighborhood. No one really liked her and she was always getting in fights. I felt bad cause when I would go to her house she would always cry and tell me how she didn't understand how everyone just hated her when they didn't even know her. She had a really hard life. Her mom was a stripper and her dad left when she was a baby. Her mom brought home alot of men who weren't so savory. drunks and druggies mostly. I think the first time i really knew i liked girls was when i spent the night. Her mom left for the weekend and I spent the night since I only live a few feet away it was okay with my mom. I feel like such a perv now but I was only 12 or 13 when i just sort of stared at her and thought "jeez...shes really beautiful...all that smooth white skin..." >///< she kinda noticed and we spent the night talking about it and we even kissed a little. I think she was my first love really...
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Posted: Sun Dec 22, 2013 10:42 am
Rowan Riddle micperson Rowan Riddle micperson Honestly, I didn't think my attraction to girls meant anything. I thought maybe it was just me really wanted to be their friend or admiring them. Then, in seventh grade I became really close with this girl and I started to think about kissing her... but I immediately brushed it off because I just knew I wasn't gay. We all have random thought about kissing our friends...right? Throughout high school I kept having these strange attractions to girls, but thought nothing of it and just kept looking at guys...or trying to at least. I kept noticing that I wasn't attracted to the same guys that my friends were gawking at. When my friends started dating, I felt pressured to get a boyfriend. I thought I was pretty pathetic for never having my first kiss or anything so I started seeking one out. My junior year, I flirted with and dated a couple of guys and while I thought they were cute and nice, it always seemed like I had to force myself to be flirty and it always felt really silly and awkward for me. At the same time, I had this massive crush on a girl in my Digital Media class...that pixie haircut still gets me sometimes. redface It was sometime during my Junior year that I seriously started questioning my sexuality. The summer before my senior year, I got my first "official" boyfriend and my first kiss...which led to more than a few make out sessions. All of which felt completely and utterly wrong. I kept thinking, "What the ********, Sydney. How can you not like making out? Everyone likes making out. Is he just bad at it? No, he seems to know what he's doing." I ended up breaking up with him and spent the next month or so seriously reflecting on myself. TL;DR I always sort of knew but never admitted to myself that I might be gay until this past year. I'm still somewhat questioning myself but I'm about 90% sure now. It's been kinda tough for me. sweatdrop I find it's the one's who've questioned themselves to be of the most fabulous. Aha, thanks I suppose. I dunno, I've just always been incredibly analytical about things. Instead of just going with my gut, I second guess myself. Maybe I just need to face the facts. :S My wife had to do that. c: Your wife should teach me her ways. xD
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Posted: Sun Dec 22, 2013 12:31 pm
micperson Rowan Riddle micperson Rowan Riddle micperson Honestly, I didn't think my attraction to girls meant anything. I thought maybe it was just me really wanted to be their friend or admiring them. Then, in seventh grade I became really close with this girl and I started to think about kissing her... but I immediately brushed it off because I just knew I wasn't gay. We all have random thought about kissing our friends...right? Throughout high school I kept having these strange attractions to girls, but thought nothing of it and just kept looking at guys...or trying to at least. I kept noticing that I wasn't attracted to the same guys that my friends were gawking at. When my friends started dating, I felt pressured to get a boyfriend. I thought I was pretty pathetic for never having my first kiss or anything so I started seeking one out. My junior year, I flirted with and dated a couple of guys and while I thought they were cute and nice, it always seemed like I had to force myself to be flirty and it always felt really silly and awkward for me. At the same time, I had this massive crush on a girl in my Digital Media class...that pixie haircut still gets me sometimes. redface It was sometime during my Junior year that I seriously started questioning my sexuality. The summer before my senior year, I got my first "official" boyfriend and my first kiss...which led to more than a few make out sessions. All of which felt completely and utterly wrong. I kept thinking, "What the ********, Sydney. How can you not like making out? Everyone likes making out. Is he just bad at it? No, he seems to know what he's doing." I ended up breaking up with him and spent the next month or so seriously reflecting on myself. TL;DR I always sort of knew but never admitted to myself that I might be gay until this past year. I'm still somewhat questioning myself but I'm about 90% sure now. It's been kinda tough for me. sweatdrop I find it's the one's who've questioned themselves to be of the most fabulous. Aha, thanks I suppose. I dunno, I've just always been incredibly analytical about things. Instead of just going with my gut, I second guess myself. Maybe I just need to face the facts. :S My wife had to do that. c: Your wife should teach me her ways. xD Her response "I figured it out when I fell in love" She's kinda lame c: .
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Posted: Sun Dec 22, 2013 12:59 pm
Rowan Riddle Her response "I figured it out when I fell in love" She's kinda lame c: . She sounds crazy awesome. You're lucky. ^-^
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Posted: Sun Dec 22, 2013 7:04 pm
micperson Rowan Riddle Her response "I figured it out when I fell in love" She's kinda lame c: . She sounds crazy awesome. You're lucky. ^-^ Thanks dude. You'll find yours one day. I promise promise.
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Posted: Sun Dec 22, 2013 8:00 pm
Rowan Riddle micperson Rowan Riddle Her response "I figured it out when I fell in love" She's kinda lame c: . She sounds crazy awesome. You're lucky. ^-^ Thanks dude. You'll find yours one day. I promise promise. Thanks. :3
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Posted: Sun Dec 22, 2013 9:06 pm
Hmm... I'd have to say at a very young age. I was in private school and had a crush on my best friend whom I'd known since 2nd grade. Of course I knew I was somewhat different when I had thoughts about doing things with her. It wouldn't be till I was 19 and out of high school that those fantasies between her and I were realized.
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Posted: Sun Dec 22, 2013 9:43 pm
Treya Gravehart Hmm... I'd have to say at a very young age. I was in private school and had a crush on my best friend whom I'd known since 2nd grade. Of course I knew I was somewhat different when I had thoughts about doing things with her. It wouldn't be till I was 19 and out of high school that those fantasies between her and I were realized. Did you do something about it?
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Posted: Sun Dec 22, 2013 9:51 pm
Rowan Riddle Treya Gravehart Hmm... I'd have to say at a very young age. I was in private school and had a crush on my best friend whom I'd known since 2nd grade. Of course I knew I was somewhat different when I had thoughts about doing things with her. It wouldn't be till I was 19 and out of high school that those fantasies between her and I were realized. Did you do something about it? Yeah of course. I came out to myself and family right around 19, when I was in the middle of fooling around with my best friend.
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Posted: Mon Jan 06, 2014 8:00 am
I kinda realize that I was into girl when I was 15 my good friend ask "are you into girls" and I say "no im not" and it was till I was a in the 10th grade when I started dating girls
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Posted: Wed Feb 26, 2014 1:34 pm
it all started when I was introduced (Shown or was bored and decided to watch) to certain anime's... sweatdrop (Soul Eater, High School of the dead, Bleach, Naruto, etc. )
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Posted: Tue Mar 04, 2014 12:27 am
I think I might of always been attracted to girls but it wasn't till I really started talking on gaia last year. I realized it was even an option my family is extremely religious [To the point that my mother goes out actively to protest gay weddings and other sorts of events.] Even after friends helped me understand how it was okay and stuff. I still kind of feared it for a while. wasn't till last October I came to acceptance that I am only attracted to girls. I tried to like make out with a guy >.> I felt disgusted by it and uncomfortable. even just a friendly silly kiss with a girl felt like 100x better. I still get feelings of doubt constantly and feel scared at times. but I'm working on getting comfortable with it. Though I haven't told a single person in real life I'm way to scared of my mom finding out or something.
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