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 Posted: Sun Aug 30, 2020 3:15 am
I wonder if I am getting worse or that I have just gotten better enough that depression, anxiety, and the sorry state of the world hit harder. When you're totally ******** up, it's just what you are. But as you get better, things start becoming "unfair" because you can see that your depression is something you should not have to endure, your anxiety is something that is a toxic roll of the dice in your brain chemistry, and that the world is constantly moving towards something that is truly anathema to you.
The funny thing is that I actually thought at times as of late I was being strong. I am struggling. I am getting one foot in front of the other. My progress is almost nothing. But I kept clawing. But that's really not enough to be strong. I am a p***y for not doing more. When you can barely manage a step, not running a marathon up the side of a mountain is a failure.
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Posted: Tue Sep 01, 2020 2:27 am
Hey hey, I'm hopefully reading that correctly, I'm glad you might be starting to get better. I'm sorry things are looking darker. Improvement is never a failure, and taking things one sludgy feeling step at a time is progress. ^-^ I hope if you and your partner are still on good terms, that you're still always at least playing around with the idea of visiting them. May you find the thing you need to get you there, be it a bus ride, boat ride, plane ride, or even courage. Darkest before the dawn as they say. If this response is an over reach, or makes you uncomfy, or is terrible, I'm sorry I can delete it. o.o (side note, I forgot I could turn into a tiny, cute jackalope!) ^-^
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Posted: Tue Sep 01, 2020 2:32 am
Hey off brand CB
We've got a hospital visit tomorrow, wish is luck emotion_bigheart
Almost to gold rank in Apex
Located my drawing tablet
Died my hair light pink ^-^
That is all for now, I'll try to have more interesting things to discuss tomorrow. Thanks and luck in your ventures, see you tomorrow ^-^
yum_coffee yum_donut yum_coffee
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Posted: Tue Sep 01, 2020 2:37 am
Inedible_Animals Hey hey, I'm hopefully reading that correctly, I'm glad you might be starting to get better. I'm sorry things are looking darker. Improvement is never a failure, and taking things one sludgy feeling step at a time is progress. ^-^ I do not know if it is improvement. My best friend drove me into a very dark place... Said I did not deserve my partner... I was made to feel like a failure for not accomplishing something that is outside my ability right now. Inedible_Animals I hope if you and your partner are still on good terms, that you're still always at least playing around with the idea of visiting them. May you find the thing you need to get you there, be it a bus ride, boat ride, plane ride, or even courage. What I need is either this covid nightmare to be over or for Alaska/Nevada to get on the same page for letting me go there. Inedible_Animals Darkest before the dawn as they say. Not a sunrise, but a galaxyrise, a world of a hundred billion stars. Inedible_Animals If this response is an over reach, or makes you uncomfy, or is terrible, I'm sorry I can delete it. o.o No, you're a friend, it is exactly the appropriate amount of reach. Inedible_Animals (side note, I forgot I could turn into a tiny, cute jackalope!) ^-^ Superior spifferosity.
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Posted: Tue Sep 01, 2020 2:48 am
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Posted: Tue Sep 01, 2020 11:31 am
I don't know your beat friend, and I know they can't see me, buuut I'm giving them a very dirty look right now. o.O You do not deserve such shade. The second seems a bit more likely. My state just became a red zone, and has the highest number of new cases in the country I have been told. .-. A galaxy rise sounds breath taking. I was a little worried, but glad it wasn't too much @_@ *Giggles* yes! "Superior Spifferosity" I love it! I also love the adorable jackalope avi! It's perfect! ^-^
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Posted: Tue Sep 01, 2020 4:33 pm
Inedible_Animals I don't know your beat friend, and I know they can't see me, buuut I'm giving them a very dirty look right now. o.O You do not deserve such shade. Most days I should not have him in my life. Inedible_Animals The second seems a bit more likely. My state just became a red zone, and has the highest number of new cases in the country I have been told. .-. And they're now saying that it is a full-blown aerosol. So they will likely double and triple down on making it worse. LinkInedible_Animals A galaxy rise sounds breath taking. Inedible_Animals *Giggles* yes! "Superior Spifferosity" I love it! I also love the adorable jackalope avi! It's perfect! ^-^ Thank you.
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Posted: Thu Sep 03, 2020 1:48 am
Well that's unfortunate. I'mma keep giving them the stink eye. Aerosol now? Lovely, I hate people. ._. Seriously, if folks just wore masks and stayed inside when this started we would be much closer to getting through this... But no, can't do that, gotta have parties, eat at restaurants, and get mad about masks, and now everything is a mess. Everyone that survives 2020 deserves a medal. o.o A shiny one! Fantastic video and breath taking indeed. Though folks can barely handle earth, regular humans in space would be scary similar to that hbo series Avenue 5. @_@ I switched to my cake outfit again, I donno exactly what I'm going for xD Ooo, what do you call your current look? It's spooky ^-^
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Posted: Thu Sep 03, 2020 2:08 am
Inedible_Animals Ooo, what do you call your current look? It's spooky ^-^ I was going for a somewhat regal lich.
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Posted: Thu Sep 03, 2020 8:55 am
Exxos Inedible_Animals Ooo, what do you call your current look? It's spooky ^-^ I was going for a somewhat regal lich. Well it was regal and spooky ^-^ Love this new one! ^-^
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Posted: Thu Sep 03, 2020 8:30 pm
Inedible_Animals Exxos Inedible_Animals Ooo, what do you call your current look? It's spooky ^-^ I was going for a somewhat regal lich. Well it was regal and spooky ^-^ Love this new one! ^-^ Thank you.
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Posted: Thu Sep 03, 2020 8:50 pm
Exxos Inedible_Animals Exxos Inedible_Animals Ooo, what do you call your current look? It's spooky ^-^ I was going for a somewhat regal lich. Well it was regal and spooky ^-^ Love this new one! ^-^ Thank you. Check it out it's my avi if spiderverse character ^-^
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Posted: Fri Sep 04, 2020 12:12 am
Inedible_Animals Exxos Inedible_Animals Exxos Inedible_Animals Ooo, what do you call your current look? It's spooky ^-^ I was going for a somewhat regal lich. Well it was regal and spooky ^-^ Love this new one! ^-^ Thank you. Check it out it's my avi if spiderverse character ^-^ Superior spifferosity. :thumbsup:
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Posted: Fri Sep 04, 2020 7:11 pm
And now it's a cat-tacular ansomble, nice ^-^ Started watching The Boys Season 2 there's a character who drenched his arms in hand sanitizer. I was like that's 2020 right there xD
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Posted: Fri Sep 04, 2020 11:13 pm
Inedible_Animals And now it's a cat-tacular ensemble, nice ^-^ Thanks. I am going through my saved outfits.
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