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 Posted: Sat Nov 06, 2010 10:30 pm
Calling Shenanigans Such a Catastrophe I'm getting really mad/upset easily right now. And it takes next to nothing to make me cry. Baby hormones suck. Have the husband create a stockpile of all your favorite foods? I hear that works pretty well. XD When my friend's wife was pregnant, he made sure she didn't do any work at all. XD He took care of all the housework and cooking, and he made sure she was always happy. XD She only had one violent mood swing, I think. XD It was while she was watching TV. Calling Shenanigans I can. I actually really love my online friends. I need people in real life too, though. I wish we could help with that. D:
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Posted: Sat Nov 06, 2010 10:54 pm
Being productive with my blind LP is tough, especially since it takes over 30 minutes to upload each 15 min parts to youtube. Luckily tonight I get an extra hour to work towards that. =w= Then I can move the most recent recording I've done and rip and upload that, then I can do another recording. Yes I'm venting about that...I took a month off from it so now I'm paying the price.
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Posted: Sat Nov 06, 2010 10:57 pm
Yes, a restoration job! permanent marker in the 90's must've sucked. edit: duuuuude I love cleaning  Before, After
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Posted: Sat Nov 06, 2010 11:11 pm
I'm definitely going crazy now. gonk I looked at the clock a few minutes ago and noticed it was almost 2 AM. Now it's 1:10. I've never had hallucinations from sleep deprivation before...?
EDIT: Uh. The timestamp on this post says 2:11. Now I'm even more confused. crying
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Posted: Sat Nov 06, 2010 11:13 pm
LabTech Kestin I'm definitely going crazy now. gonk I looked at the clock a few minutes ago and noticed it was almost 2 AM. Now it's 1:10. I've never had hallucinations from sleep deprivation before...? Clocks are turning back an hour. Your not going crazy kestin.
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Posted: Sat Nov 06, 2010 11:24 pm
LabTech Kestin I'm definitely going crazy now. gonk I looked at the clock a few minutes ago and noticed it was almost 2 AM. Now it's 1:10. I've never had hallucinations from sleep deprivation before...? EDIT: Uh. The timestamp on this post says 2:11. Now I'm even more confused. crying Yeah, I've been cleaning this computer for NEGATIVE 27 minutes, WIN divided by zero...yup
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Posted: Sun Nov 07, 2010 12:59 am
Foam-Dome Calling Shenanigans Such a Catastrophe I'm getting really mad/upset easily right now. And it takes next to nothing to make me cry. Baby hormones suck. Have the husband create a stockpile of all your favorite foods? I hear that works pretty well. XD When my friend's wife was pregnant, he made sure she didn't do any work at all. XD He took care of all the housework and cooking, and he made sure she was always happy. XD She only had one violent mood swing, I think. XD It was while she was watching TV. That doesn't really seem feasible for me. He travels for work. I've been dealing with all of the life stuff by myself pretty much since we found out.
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Posted: Sun Nov 07, 2010 1:11 am
Such a Catastrophe Foam-Dome Calling Shenanigans Such a Catastrophe I'm getting really mad/upset easily right now. And it takes next to nothing to make me cry. Baby hormones suck. Have the husband create a stockpile of all your favorite foods? I hear that works pretty well. XD When my friend's wife was pregnant, he made sure she didn't do any work at all. XD He took care of all the housework and cooking, and he made sure she was always happy. XD She only had one violent mood swing, I think. XD It was while she was watching TV. That doesn't really seem feasible for me. He travels for work. I've been dealing with all of the life stuff by myself pretty much since we found out. Yeah, that seems problematic. My friend knew that he planned on having kids, so he settled down and found a local full-time job. Unfortunately, he later discovered that they intended to make him travel on occasion... He was tasked to fly to Tokyo, and he had known for months in advance. He kept saying, "I just know they're gonna be born while I'm gone. I'm calling it right now." Lo and behold, after he arrived in Japan, his wife went into labor.
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Posted: Sun Nov 07, 2010 7:37 am
epic-writer42 LabTech Kestin I'm definitely going crazy now. gonk I looked at the clock a few minutes ago and noticed it was almost 2 AM. Now it's 1:10. I've never had hallucinations from sleep deprivation before...? Clocks are turning back an hour. Your not going crazy kestin. Ohhhh, right! xd
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Posted: Sun Nov 07, 2010 8:21 am
What a b***h, what a b***h, what a b***h, what a b***h.
When you visit to provide moral support to a sick woman, don't make life hell for everyone and everything. We're holding back the urge to maim you.
confused
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Posted: Sun Nov 07, 2010 9:11 am
I was right. But then, I knew that already.
Now I just wish I'd been wrong. I wish it weren't true...
My life is falling apart. The world is impossibly bleak.
Is it so wrong to want to be liked by more than one person? Or should I just get over it and be grateful for what I do have? :/
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Posted: Sun Nov 07, 2010 12:21 pm
Jack obsessed server hopping monkeys will pay
Im soo close and its the final day
I will have my badge and my revenge stressed scream
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Posted: Sun Nov 07, 2010 1:27 pm
LabTech Kestin
Is it so wrong to want to be liked by more than one person? :/ 
I'm pretty sure that's normal
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Posted: Sun Nov 07, 2010 1:38 pm
I should really watch what I say these days. So many dirty minds. mad
First one was with the "coming" business with Jack. And then another just now when my sister and I were talking about all these weirdoes that end up sneezing or touching their crotch before giving you money at the cash register etc. So I end up saying "yeah, I avoid touching myself when I'm around in public cos of the germs, and not knowing where people's hands have been."... I DIDN'T MEAN IT THAT WAY D:< Why does no one have innocent minds these days? D:>
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Posted: Sun Nov 07, 2010 2:06 pm
My name is Louie. I am 17 and a half, and I have a story to tell.
Yesterday, I went with my friend to go meet up with his new girlfriend at a school I used to go to, and I went as his wingman, to offset the likelihood of him having to deal with his girlfriend's friends. I watched as he expressed love to this girl, and I felt a little jealous inside. Not over him, mind you. I felt jealous of what they had. They felt affection, and dare I say it, Love. I had never seen him be this open to anyone. Ever.
But I remained silent and stalwart, occasionally making small talk with my friend, and letting him enjoy his time with his girlfriend. Throughout the day, I met a wide and diverse group of people who I may have befriended if not for my wallowing. I remained shut off almost till the very end, when I decided to relax and let myself go. I had fun, and I became okay.
One thing that I decided to do was to talk to a friend of the girlfriend, and I began to open up a bit more. She seemed cool. Played the Uke, sang, and had a voice that made angels sing praise. I felt a connection, but I'm not sure if it would work. I guess it was a way to try to replicate the way my friend was feeling with his girlfriend. Not much happened, but when it was time that my friend and I had to go, I felt a twinge on my heartstrings that I thought was mere heartburn over the chili I ate earlier.
So we left, and on the ride home, I began thinking about my relationships. Broken hearts, rejection, hate, closure, and unrequited desires were common themes of my lovelife. Then, I began thinking about my friend, who was sleeping in the backseat, on the opposite side. I know very little about what he thinks or how he feels, but I know that he's also gone through things that are similar to me. He's also damaged goods. But unlike me, he never wears his heart on his sleeve. He remained strong, uncaring, and adamant against the world, silently carrying rage that could break the world if released. He told my why he carries that rage, and I could understand.
Today, I contemplated about the afternoon/night before, along with what could have happened had I opened up and been myself. I now understand him. I truly understand why his rage is so pent up, and why his heart is so hidden. And at the same time, I realize what I also have not understood about myself for the longest time.
To love someone is to give them the power to hurt you terribly... and hoping that they don't. Because of that, we never trust anyone as easily as we did the first time.
Some of us wear hearts on our sleeves like purple hearts, and some roll them up, hoping that they disappear.
Which one are you, ZCB?
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