How do I know...Judged Contest

How I feel? I feel lost … and scared … and happy.
Why am I so sure I’d rather be this than everything I was supposed to be?
And that I’d rather do this than everything I was supposed to do?
The first time I heard these words I cried. I immediately watched the episode another three times and cried. I went to bed and cried, got up and cried. At some point I probably even sang and cried.
No words spoken on TV ever hit me so hard as these four lines right here. It was everything I was thinking and everything I was feeling summed up better than I could ever have said it.
But the words are vague. They could mean so many things.
I started this fellow for the pride event but was unable to finish him in time. Today Mind kindly finished him up for me so we could include him in this small give away.
If you want him step into his shoes for a moment and tell me a story... What do those words mean to him? How is that reflected in his domain?
How I feel? I feel...
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