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I get along pretty badly with my family.

My friends have adapted well to my bipolarity. They're used to it, so it changes nothing.

I cant stay with a guy for very long. I start hating them for no reason. The I get all depressed. And with my family, when I get angry my dad freaks out.

It drives my parents nuts, because they don't want to believe it, but my friends are really good about it.

I times I have been dumped, its because they cant handle my depression...

I'm not sure it's part of being bipolar, but I've begun to really want my personal space when it comes to being around members of my family. My friends though... that's a different story. I could cling to some of my friends all day if they'd let me. XD

I actually think the discomfort I feel when my mom or brothers get too close to me is part of my Asperger's syndrome... but what is definitly caused by the bipolarness is my mood swings. sweatdrop

I can't count how many times I've accidently snapped at both my friends and my family, and I really do regret it.

Ah.. affected a lot, affected a little. My dad couldn't handle me at all (he wouldn't let me on medication, he wouldn't help around the house setting limits so I didn't go totally crazy ((I suppose it doesn't help that I have OCD on top of this)), he wouldn't do anything except yell when whatever it was he decided needed to be done wasn't done - and then he'd blame my mom for not enforcing the rules that HE laid out, not her), school didn't know what to do with me half the time, as I'd either be really loud, hyper, not paying attention or quiet, scared and ready to answer questions in an inaudible tone.
Every relationship I've had eventually gets sick of me and my moodswings - significant others and just plain friends. In the past few years my friends have gotten more accepting but being bipolar I have a tendency to attract unhappy people as well since they'll see me in an upswing but I understand their saddness.. but never prepared for my downswings which are usually violent, paranoid and mean. So they dump me for someone nicer and then feel bad when they discover that OOPS calling me a whore put me in the hosipital OOPS hating me for no reason other then you want my boyfriend puts more cuts on my arms and hated glares from me (which I'm very skilled at) :D!)
Boyfriends I've had swore they hated me because I would be so different one minute from the next.. I'd be accusing and mean and evil and uncaring one minute the next sobbing and crying and doing bad things and begging for forgiveness..
I dunno.
I'd say it affects relationships a lot xp .


BUT it has helped; in the past years when I've actually been able to seek treatment i've gotten closer with my mom.. which she likes because she's old and had no friends (since she did all the work around the house as well as was president of the PTO etc) and now a divorcee~ lala.


... wow I typed a lot sweatdrop