~Operation Beautiful~

What do you love the most about yourself?

My body	3.8%	[ 64 ]
My brain	16.3%	[ 274 ]
My personality	27.5%	[ 463 ]
Everything!	21.1%	[ 356 ]
Nothing	21.6%	[ 364 ]
Other	9.7%	[ 163 ]
Total Votes:			[ 1684 ]

[Starlurk]

BlackRoseKeeper

We've come a long long way together, Through the hard times and the good,
I have to celebrate you baby,I have to praise you like I should

☆═━┈┈━═☆

I went to the emergency room yesterday. I felt like a
waste of space and oxygen and couldn't take it anymore, and started thinking of the easiest, yet
most creative ways to kill myself. I've been on suicide watch for over 24 hours. The bright side is, I
got a shiny new yellow bracelet. I'm gonna start seeing a psychiatrist and a therapist
specializing with rape victims survivors.

*hugs* I'm really happy that you're still around. I'm also happy that you found a therapist who'll understand what you've gone through.

[Neme-Goddess-of-Death]

We've come a long long way together, Through the hard times and the good,
I have to celebrate you baby,I have to praise you like I should

☆═━┈┈━═☆

Well as soon as I told them I'd been raped, they
called the YWCA and they sent over an advocate for rape survivors to kinda help talk for me and
guide me through everything. They have free therapy, and the psychiatrist at the ER referred me to
a psychiatry clinic. The awesome part is, I got away with telling a cop to go ******** himself last night.
^__^ I liked my advocate. She was really nice, and even though the door was open and I had
someone in uniform waiting to restrain me if I tried to hurt myself or someone else, (i should
have hurt the cop, that's what he gets for kicking out my advocate and closing the door after I
told him not to), she sat there and talked to me about everything under the sun like my kids and
parties we'd both been to and stupid s**t we'd done in high school. Anything to get my mind off
why I was there in the first place. She was awesome, and I really think I'm gonna send her a
thank you card.

[Starlurk]

BlackRoseKeeper

We've come a long long way together, Through the hard times and the good,
I have to celebrate you baby,I have to praise you like I should

☆═━┈┈━═☆

Well as soon as I told them I'd been raped, they
called the YWCA and they sent over an advocate for rape survivors to kinda help talk for me and
guide me through everything. They have free therapy, and the psychiatrist at the ER referred me to
a psychiatry clinic. The awesome part is, I got away with telling a cop to go ******** himself last night.
^__^ I liked my advocate. She was really nice, and even though the door was open and I had
someone in uniform waiting to restrain me if I tried to hurt myself or someone else, (i should
have hurt the cop, that's what he gets for kicking out my advocate and closing the door after I
told him not to), she sat there and talked to me about everything under the sun like my kids and
parties we'd both been to and stupid s**t we'd done in high school. Anything to get my mind off
why I was there in the first place. She was awesome, and I really think I'm gonna send her a
thank you card.

I'm so happy that there was someone like that there for you biggrin I wish I could tell a cop to ******** himself T___T

[Starlurk]

Hey guys, we get off topic a whole lot in this thread. That wouldn't be so bad but threads in LD get moved/deleted for going off topic if a mod sees it.

So tomorrow I'm gonna make a hang out OB thread in Chatterbox. It'll look just like this one only you can talk about whatever you want.

This thread will go back to being just about OB, self-esteem, cheering each other up, etc.

I view this as a positive thing though, it gives us a reason to reach out to LDers and Chatterboxers. 3nodding

Until I make that thread, don't worry about being off-topic or anything, I figure we can get away with it for one more night. xd

[Kendaki]

I currently live in the SF dorms here on base. I have to tell cops to ******** off on a regular basis stressed

[Neme-Goddess-of-Death]

We've come a long long way together, Through the hard times and the good,
I have to celebrate you baby,I have to praise you like I should

☆═━┈┈━═☆

He was a complete d**k to me. I told him I wanted
my advocate in the room, and he said no. I told him to leave the door open when he came in, and
he said no. I seriously thought I was about to get raped AGAIN. I haven't trusted men alone with
me since the fact. By the end of our conversation, I was yelling at him that he could go ********
himself with a big hard cold stick and to get the ******** out. I think I even threw a few tear and snot
soaked tissues at him. (There was nothing else to throw at him besides my bottle of vitamin water
and I wasn't done with that.) I shoulda punched him in his face so I could get the chick in
uniform outside the room to come charging in and shoulda started screaming that he tried to
put his hands on me. The only man I've trusted so far alone with me is my father in law and the
only reason for that is that he is BEYOND flaming gay.


EDIT:: I figured this was a pretty good somewhat on topic topic at the moment cos y'all are just
being so awesome and showing me so much love and it really is helping me cope.

[Kendaki]

BlackRoseKeeper

We've come a long long way together, Through the hard times and the good,
I have to celebrate you baby,I have to praise you like I should

☆═━┈┈━═☆

He was a complete d**k to me. I told him I wanted
my advocate in the room, and he said no. I told him to leave the door open when he came in, and
he said no. I seriously thought I was about to get raped AGAIN. I haven't trusted men alone with
me since the fact. By the end of our conversation, I was yelling at him that he could go ********
himself with a big hard cold stick and to get the ******** out. I think I even threw a few tear and snot
soaked tissues at him. (There was nothing else to throw at him besides my bottle of vitamin water
and I wasn't done with that.) I shoulda punched him in his face so I could get the chick in
uniform outside the room to come charging in and shoulda started screaming that he tried to
put his hands on me. The only man I've trusted so far alone with me is my father in law and the
only reason for that is that he is BEYOND flaming gay.


EDIT:: I figured this was a pretty good somewhat on topic topic at the moment cos y'all are just
being so awesome and showing me so much love and it really is helping me cope.

At that point I would have told him to get his supervisor on the phone or to give you the number to his dispatch. He has no right to deny you the requests that you made, especially without explanation.

[Starlurk]

BlackRoseKeeper

We've come a long long way together, Through the hard times and the good,
I have to celebrate you baby,I have to praise you like I should

☆═━┈┈━═☆

He was a complete d**k to me. I told him I wanted
my advocate in the room, and he said no. I told him to leave the door open when he came in, and
he said no. I seriously thought I was about to get raped AGAIN. I haven't trusted men alone with
me since the fact. By the end of our conversation, I was yelling at him that he could go ********
himself with a big hard cold stick and to get the ******** out. I think I even threw a few tear and snot
soaked tissues at him. (There was nothing else to throw at him besides my bottle of vitamin water
and I wasn't done with that.) I shoulda punched him in his face so I could get the chick in
uniform outside the room to come charging in and shoulda started screaming that he tried to
put his hands on me. The only man I've trusted so far alone with me is my father in law and the
only reason for that is that he is BEYOND flaming gay.


EDIT:: I figured this was a pretty good somewhat on topic topic at the moment cos y'all are just
being so awesome and showing me so much love and it really is helping me cope.

No no, I figure the least we can do for each other is support each other so this sort of thing is on topic. Ugh, I know cops are supposed to protect us but frig, you'd think he would have known better than to do that to you.

[Neme-Goddess-of-Death]

We've come a long long way together, Through the hard times and the good,
I have to celebrate you baby,I have to praise you like I should

☆═━┈┈━═☆

Thus why he got tear and snot soaked tissues
thrown at him as well as language that made a few sailors blush. My advocate said she'd get it
taken care of for me after he left and she saw what kind of state he'd gotten me back into after
she'd gotten me totally zen. As soon as I told him I'd been hanging out with a stripper prior to the
fact he didn't even bother to write s**t down.

[Starlurk]

BlackRoseKeeper

We've come a long long way together, Through the hard times and the good,
I have to celebrate you baby,I have to praise you like I should

☆═━┈┈━═☆

Thus why he got tear and snot soaked tissues
thrown at him as well as language that made a few sailors blush. My advocate said she'd get it
taken care of for me after he left and she saw what kind of state he'd gotten me back into after
she'd gotten me totally zen. As soon as I told him I'd been hanging out with a stripper prior to the
fact he didn't even bother to write s**t down.

Wtf that blows >___<

[Kendaki]

BlackRoseKeeper

We've come a long long way together, Through the hard times and the good,
I have to celebrate you baby,I have to praise you like I should

☆═━┈┈━═☆

Thus why he got tear and snot soaked tissues
thrown at him as well as language that made a few sailors blush. My advocate said she'd get it
taken care of for me after he left and she saw what kind of state he'd gotten me back into after
she'd gotten me totally zen. As soon as I told him I'd been hanging out with a stripper prior to the
fact he didn't even bother to write s**t down.

Probably a new guy AKA a moron. I'm a maintainer but even in my SF augmentie training we were told to take note of everything. Even if we didn't think it was worth writing down providing the illusion of writing it would make the person at least feel like what they were saying mattered.

[Emo Kuromi Nui]

Whats this I hear about a cop?

[Neme-Goddess-of-Death]

We've come a long long way together, Through the hard times and the good,
I have to celebrate you baby,I have to praise you like I should

☆═━┈┈━═☆

I met her and her girlfriend through a friend that
lives across the street from them. She was invited to dance a private party and she needed a
ride. I said I'd be glad to take her and her girlfriend to said party so long as I got boozed up for
free and got a little gas money. The party thrower was happy to oblige. -shrugs- Are strippers
not allowed to have friends? I almost got arrested for smoking pot last night too, cos I was
honest about it, but I told the narcotics officer it was "stupid s**t I picked up cos I got
depressed and it won't happen again." He let me go and took my blunt roller, grinder, and my
package of papers, all s**t I never use anymore, and left. Just told me he wouldn't let it go next
time. Yup Kendaki, he was a moron, cos the way he treated me almost got me smashing his
face into the linoleum.

Emo:: I dealt with cops last night at the ER.

[Kendaki]

*shakes head* Oi, new guys.

[Emo Kuromi Nui]

BlackRoseKeeper

We've come a long long way together, Through the hard times and the good,
I have to celebrate you baby,I have to praise you like I should

☆═━┈┈━═☆

I met her and her girlfriend through a friend that
lives across the street from them. She was invited to dance a private party and she needed a
ride. I said I'd be glad to take her and her girlfriend to said party so long as I got boozed up for
free and got a little gas money. The party thrower was happy to oblige. -shrugs- Are strippers
not allowed to have friends? I almost got arrested for smoking pot last night too, cos I was
honest about it, but I told the narcotics officer it was "stupid s**t I picked up cos I got
depressed and it won't happen again." He let me go and took my blunt roller, grinder, and my
package of papers, all s**t I never use anymore, and left. Just told me he wouldn't let it go next
time. Yup Kendaki, he was a moron, cos the way he treated me almost got me smashing his
face into the linoleum.

Emo:: I dealt with cops last night at the ER.

*Hugs and high fives for the cop thing =3