↳。✶⋆The life of a clown wasn't all it was cut out to be. Clowns were supposed to be cheerful, funny creatures. Instead, outside of the popular Cirque Du Soleil acts, they were just another laughing stock. Working festivals, small parties, or even restaurants where they could walk around and make balloon animals. Those who scared people in fright houses were simply actors, soiling the true art of a clown. There was a passion one needed to have to be able to keep children smiling and avoid looking like they would eat the children. It was hard work trying to put a smile on someone's face this way, but it kept alive that last bit of passion one clown had for performing.
The clown stared at the heavy makeup in the mirror; her eyes lifeless and exhausted. The pale makeup and glossy red cheeks that were shaped into cheeky hearts and dark eye makeup that made her lashes far longer than ones should be remained perfectly plastered to her face. Her blue wig was slightly messy, and her dress was merely stained with some soda a kid had dropped on her, far better than the usual eggs of edge lord middle schoolers whose only job was to avoid doing their homework and claiming that as "fighting the power." Siri adored kids before working as a clown, and while she still has a soft spot for really young kids, she didn't want anything to do with middle schoolers or high schoolers for the time being.
Not feeling the need to take off her makeup or attire just yet, she trailed to her room. Her eyes solemnly glazed the emptiness of it, fixating on the poster of Dralion that was hung foolishly on the wall. She wanted to rip it down like all the others, but the nostalgia held her back. It brought back bittersweet memories of all the dance classes and performances, but was also a reminder of everything she couldn't do now. Her eyes then traced back to her book shelf which used to act more like a display case for her collection. The only remnants of the cluttered shelf was a few masques from shows she had performed in or attended as a child. There was one small trophy with the name "Siri" engraved on its platform and a ballerina at the top, and next to it was a picture of her as a nine years ago with her puppy, Verakai. The rest was beginning to fill with books from her studies of English literature in preparation of becoming a future teacher. But who was she to full? Siri wasn't cut out to be an English teacher. She could hardly motivate herself to get out of bed in the morning, and while she could occasionally motivate her friends when she decided to spend time with them, she knew she lost most of that skill. The only thing waking her up was knowing her old dog Verakai needed her daily dose of attention. Even though it was a barky little thing that was spooked by her own shadow and was especially frightened of Siri's costumes, she loved that dog more than anything.
Her eyes went back to the lone poster, decision plagued her the longer she lingered. Then with a sudden burst of bitter eagerness, the poster was ripped from the wall. The corners which had it pinned down tore off and it crumpled in her grip. Rolling up the poster, she was going to toss it into the small bin beside her bed, but she couldn't let go. Instead, regret seeped in. She laid herself onto her bed, hugging the poster to her chest as tightly as possible. 'I wish something would change.' She thought back to the tree that she and her friends had made wishes of love on; a reminder of how foolish it was to make a wish. They never came true. Yet she found herself once again making a wish to the tree stating to herself it was to mock its power, but there was some hope, 'Oh, mighty tree of love, if you can't find love for me in this world, then find me in another.' Siri toyed with the thought of another world, one like the fantasy Cirque provided. An adventure, something away from all these reminders, was what she needed. But she didn't have the funds to get out of the quaint, little town. The idea of traveling again brought a smile to her face, Clinging to her poster, she accidentally drifted to sleep with the idea of leaving home.
The sound of something breathing made Siri jolt up. Shivers rushed down her spine as frantic eyes glazed over the room. Everything was different, even the air felt lighter. Her head pulsed and her stomach churned, her heart tried to bounce out of her chest. Then she heard the breathing again, it wasn't necessarily a snore but a heavy sigh. She turned her head towards a mountain of blankets. With the low lighting she could hardly make out what was underneath it. A person? A bead? She couldn't resist the urge to poke the breathing beast. There was no reaction from it, so she carefully got on her knees and tried to lean over it to catch a glimpse of its face, if it had one. Her body ached as it tried to lean across the mountain of blankets, her limp leg in particular throbbed with a sharp pain. As she almost caught a glimpse of it, it decided to move. It's sheer bulk sent the stiff girl face planting into the creature.
Now it really began to move and Siri knew she needed to escape. Her eyes locked to the nearest door and she scurried herself over to it, the pain from before was practically none existent due to the adrenaline rushing through her veins. Stepping past the door, she realized she made a grave mistake. Whatever kind of dream this was, she didn't want to be in it. She crashed about the walls of the new cage, weird textures rubbing against her skin and falling on top of her, constantly shaking off the foreign leeches and stomping on them with her bare feet like they were bugs. A glass breaking shriek forced out of her lungs as a heavy and scratchy object fell onto her. She froze, the panic of banging wall to wall and stomping had stopped as she accepting her fate to the monster that had decided to take her victim. You were supposed to wake up once you died in a dream, so she waited for the monster to consume her. As much as she wanted to believe none of this was happening, everything felt far too real.