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[Rai Risque]

okay. so page 89 explains why we're all on gaia XD

[meiperfectneina19]

oh well... *sits on floor*

[Rai Risque]

sorry i said i was going to leave, my laptop was getting rlly slow

[meiperfectneina19]

it's ok Rai. ^^

[Rai Risque]

oh my gosh, when i went back and looked through my posts i realised i had full slots and overflow sweatdrop sweatdrop
and i haven't seen rina lately sweatdrop

[meiperfectneina19]

I think I saw her around today or yesterday.

[Rai Risque]

she hasnt posted in the employee forum.. usually she does and updates me with whatever shes working on but she hasnt really let me know lately lol. i think shes taking a break but my shop is busier then ever
idk when i can color ur art or anyone elses for that matter, my lazer mouse died and all i have is a ball roller that doesnt do what i want it to. and my laptop im not sure how do do all that stuff on a touchpad
and i have my paper to do.. emeralds been helping me catch up with my online courses but my life is soo hectic
on top of everything, my mom wants me to go out and get a job, and if i don't she'll kick me out on the street but i'm so tired of getting rejected
and its hard for me to find a job cause i dont have a high school diploma
once i graduate nobody will know the difference
but if I go to a job nao theyre like, oh you cant work during the day, because you must be in school
and if im like, nu im in nightschool, theyre like, oh uhm a drop out?
*throws application in trash* sweatdrop
sweatdrop
I only dropped out to watch my sis
and I feel like she's my daughter cause I raised her, and I cant just abandon her to go get a job and college
and my mom is sick, she has fibro something and i watch her getting more frail everyday, crying in pain because of her joints and i don't think she'll be able to be the mother she thinks she can be, but it would hurt her pride to admit that.
plus my best friend sleeps around to have some control over her life cause her parents are too strict and she got pregnant by a less then substantial guy and now wants him to marry her because he's joining the military, leaving her with a kid and nowhere to go, so she wants to marry him but his parents are against it..if they get married shes moving to georgia. and i'll never see her again..granted she causes alot of drama so it could be a good thing.. but we've either loved or hated eacother for a course of 4 years and we know eachother good enough to say eachothers thoughts and stuff.. all of our friends assume we slept together because we're so close.(we didnt but find it funny that its an assumption) lol she even lived with me for 5 months. and its all changing..
Sorry for unloading but i've had so much to deal with lately,
gaia is the only socializing i get and thus, my sanity
so yeah, u guys being my friends means ALOT lol

[meiperfectneina19]

*hugs Rai* don't worry about the coloring lol just be on gaia to relax not to get more stressed, k? Concentrate on finishing your paper, cause I am guessing that is the closest deadline you have. After that you can take everything step by step. A job is hard to find for everyone now a days, and if you don't have a HS diploma it is pretty much impossible. Uhm... guessing you will need to find a part time, but uhm... I don't know much about them. Tried fast food joints? They usually have spaces at different hours. (or so I think) sweatdrop

And you know, it is a great thing what you are doing for your lil sis. *hugs*

[emerald tornado]

cuts a slice a pie for us both and sets it on the table with some ice cream* I'm sure things will get better for you. I'll always be here to help in any way I can, even though I know I cna't be there on a personal level I can at least do what I can to help on a spiritual level. And yeah finding a job can be tough because dickheads are so judgmental about people anymore that it kinda sickens me (thas my view). But I wish you the best

[Sarin-nade]

Fibromyalgia is a tough diesaes and its terrible that your mother has the illness, i think that is what she has. It is tough to manage when there is so much going on in your life and with some many responsibilites. As for your friend, it will be tough but she has to decide if that guy is the best for her. Because alot of guys are dip-sh!ts and know nothing about being a man. The best thing she can do is look for a guy who can be a man, and make the other guy pay alimony.

it is good to unload some of the time, even if there is physcally nothing we electrons can do for you other then being supportive and talk. And when things get heavy, talking is the best remedy. Feeling alone is the worst illness. All I can say is that we are here to help if you need it, and we are willing to talk if you need someone to talk with, but its really more like typing and not talking and...oh what ever. we are here.

[Rai Risque]

i was out of my mind bawling this morning and i thought my laptop was gone which sent me over the edge.. thank god i have aim forwarded to my fone, emerald cheered me up. sighs.. i can't remember ever being this stressed, and its only going to get worse as i go into college. and my mom doesnt seem to get that the whole subject freaks me out, and CONSTANTLY brings it up,
which is basically why im horrified of turning 18.

did i mention that on my birthday i'll be home alone?
I almost invited my ex to sleep over so i wouldnt be lonely but i know what he'll want.
and almost everyone wants that from me. its sooo frustrating, because
ive changed alot im not immature and ...well slutty anymore lol.
(not saying i have a horrible past but ive been naughty a few times)
but nobody believes ive changed and they're all trying to pressure me into
saying that i haven't changed. ugh. just because guys are horny doesnt mean i have to be *flails*
*hits all men in forheads*

but yeah.
its my 18th birthday
i should be out clubbing or something
but im going to be forced to face my fears head on, alone.
soooo
i'll probably be on gaia.

[Rai Risque]

aw i love u guys ^^

[Sarin-nade]

*rubs forehead*
Yeah....men are mean. Most have only one thing on their mind and it isn't commitment.
There are a few good guys out there, its just a needle in the hay stack.

[Rai Risque]

edit: hits all men who focus on nothing but sex *knowing all the guys on my thread are rounded characters with emotions and interests in subcultures and such*

[meiperfectneina19]

ah Rai we will have a great party here!