Jaudaran
That's really sweet, and means a lot, thank you...
Aaaaugh curse my low self-esteem and fear of ******** up and embarrassing myself...I should not be stressing out about this so much. But that was the other thing that kinda happened, before that forum I tried to RP on died (or part of the process of it dying, I suppose)--I was always terrified of doing things wrong and being a bad RPer, like probably a lot more than anyone should be, because I'm so self-conscious all the time about everything anyway...and one day I log into the forum's chatroom, and see in the backlog that one of the mods that was always nice to me had made a nasty comment about the character I had just apped (which pissed me off too, because the thing she complained about was the character being immortal, in a setting where immortals were allowed just rare, and before I apped the character I SPECIFICALLY ASKED HER if the concept was alright...and she said she liked it and it was totally fine).
That was kind of the last straw that made me leave, and other people were leaving too (most because the admin and that mod I just mentioned had just started dating IRL, and started ignoring the forum and the admin only logged on to the chatroom to talk about how long they had made out that day and didn't pay attention to the RP or even NOTICE the new character I had submitted that had been approved by the other mod like three days before and aaaaugh drama), and suddenly the admin shut down the whole site with no warning or chance for people to back up their profiles and writing. But the person talking behind my back like that kind of...reinforced, this fear I have of people thinking I suck? I dunno...I might give it another try and try to relax a little bit.
Well, from your description of your last forum, it does sound like to me that saying it was in "the process of dying" was a fair statement. And while I don't want to speculate on the maturity of parties I haven't met, activities like gossiping behind players' backs and discontinuing activity without notifying contributing parties are juvenile at best. But! Try not to let it get to you. I know it's difficult to step back and evaluate when it is and isn't, in fact, our fault when something bad happens, but it is necessary to keep from going crazy.
Now, some heavily opinionated advice:
First, something that I think is similar between tabletop RP and text-based RP is its flexibility. If I forget that my character isn't at an event that I suddenly start talking in, people would probably say something like "Lol, when did you get here?" and I would be like "Wat? Oh yeah, sorry! Um, I do X, X and X then. And X, for spite.
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And second, you should try to be as confident RPing as you are with your prose. It's basically the same thing. You are confident in your writing right? You should be. When I read through all of the entries, I found your world and character INCREDIBLY creative and interesting (mimic hat
eek ) and hoped to at some point work up the courage to talk to you about them, and see if the story was possibly published somewhere online to read. (Would you guess I have a little self-confidence issue too? It took me forever to write up my first response.
"I don't want to sound bossy.. what if I somehow insult her?"
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Give it some time, but I hope you do. Yours was one of the ones I really hoped to meet ^^
