I've been on and off of Gaia since May 10th, 2005. I've seen Gaia in many different stages and directly witnessed the transformations that have occurred. I've had numerous accounts, been hacked, accumulated millions of Gold, and invested thousands of hours on Gaia Online. Despite progressing time and sporadic changes, Gaia seemed to become increasingly worse as the many months and years passed since its creation. As I reminisce, my memories of how things used to be oblige nostalgia and longing for what Gaia no longer is. I log in, navigate the website, and can't help but feel that I'm on a different website. I feel a sense of alienation and that the community is much more isolated and spread about in contrast to previous years.
I have strong convictions and aspirations of doing the right thing, and preventing and correcting others when they don't. I plan to finish college and serve among the few and the proud in the United States Marine Corps.
When my service is complete, I will spend my life working to help other people. I'm unsure of what I will do, but I know what I will do. I will make a difference, I will help other people who need help. I will help people make their lives better. I will leave this world much better than how it was before I arrived; No evil or bad intentions will stop me.
Below is my autobiography. It is a mundane wall of text and quite possibly the opposite of exciting. Read at your own discretion.
I'm particularly poor in the concepts and arts of expressing myself, as I either share too little or too much, which is why I generally prefer to share nothing. Primarily, I'm a man of integrity, morality, justice, strong convictions, and equality. Secondly, if any of these significant invaluable components are compromised in the slightest manner, I'm a man of activism. I'm 19 years old, graduated from high school this year, and studying Psychology as well as four other subjects in college. Three things that years ago would've caused me to bet all of my possessions would never occur. My childhood, upbringing, and current lifestyles are far different than anyone else's, for that I can bet my life. I didn't have much of a childhood and was forced to grow up fast. I've seen things I shouldn't have seen and done things I shouldn't have done. I regret my poor decisions, but embrace the wisdom I've gained over the years. I was born in the suburbs, but made in the ghetto. Years back I was very observant of my surroundings and the occurrences of "the 'hood". Living there, it's mandatory to be attentive, there's no choice involved. It becomes second nature. I particularly noticed the gangsters the most, since they had such a prominent effect on our environment. My supervision was non-existent and I seeked to fill the void of not having anyone there. I was infatuated with the lifestyle of a careless cold blooded street urchin. That's where the choice was involved, and luckily I was relocated and pursued other endeavors before the streets could suck me in for good. Once the streets suck you in, there's no liberating them. I was relocated between different states across the country and ultimately suffered the greatest loss I could've. I sank into depression and didn't receive the most miniscule fraction of assistance or attention from anyone, or the fundamentals to even survive high school. I failed miserably due to only being present for twenty five percent of each year and accumulated just enough credit to get by, and it went on like that until I eventually graduated. When I showed up, I did well. I did enough to pass, in the end, but I failed many classes. My grades progressively increased in value, with less F's, with attendance slightly improving by the year. Playing football in Senior year was the best time period for myself and my grades; I was a C+ from getting Honor Roll for the first time since the seventh grade. Looking back on my past, I'm proud of my accomplishments and achievements. To the general population, they're much less than successes, but rather failures. To me, I defeated the unfathomable. In my circumstances, a miniscule, microscopic handful of people can say that. There's a certain kind of feeling you get when you succeed in times of adversity, when due to some miracle, you make it, even when you know you shouldn't and the odds are 100 to 1. When you surpass the unsurpassable; that is when you realize the only limitation which exist are those which you manifest for yourself. Every morning that I wake up, I wake up accomplished in having made it this far, despite my constant obstacles' presence growing and fluctuating. Each passing day is a struggle. Life is like an ocean; "You can ride the wave, but don't get caught up in the tide". Find your passion. Share your knowledge. Help all those that you can. Ask not what the world can do for you; but what can you do for the world. Growth and development. Peace.