Looking back it feels like ages since I last let the morning sun light up my room.
Perhaps it has been.
So many words are flowing through my mind as I find myself in the first solitary moment in months. Peace...Tranquility...Satisfaction.
Although surrounded by those I love, resentment builds up as every waking moment is spent dealing with problems. Only through escape can those be dissolved in the joy of such an easy life to live.
In a bed, needles in my arms...
Helplessly moaning ...groggy with narcotics and steroids
Sitting, watching as those come and go
Mistakes averted and ignorance noted.
Trust is broken and views are formed...and solidified.
It's a wonder what a simple overnight stay can do to alter one's views.
Recently I spent a couple of days in a hospital after getting some orthonatric surgery done. The whole process has left me disheartened about the medical system. My friend who has been very big on alternative medicine has finally broken through to my core. I thought that they would be knowledgeable and attentive. Instead, what I found was negligence and ignorance.
Hospital employees(Nurses) were talking about the health benefits of diet soda over regular soda(Coke in particular). They didn't even know the harmful effects of aspertame and other artificial sweetners on one's body. The nurse laughed when she nearly mixed two medications which she told me to be harmful into the same IV once I told her that she was putting it in the wrong arm noting that "Sometimes in the morning I can't tell my right from my left". Needless to say I was pretty attentive of what they were doing to me from that point on.
There were a number of other things just regarding a simple procedure working up the surgery itself. It seems strange to me though that all this would come to mind at such an early hour. Perhaps because it's pushed. Perhaps because believing in it is betrayal to my family. I most certainly can't say for sure.
And with that I go to cook breakfast and ponder over the phenomina that is the very state of betrayal...and what is and isn't. Can a simple conflict of views be so detremental that it deserves hostile attacks? Does it need to be clearly harmful or just percieved? Oh well I suppose there's plenty of time to think. -Runs off to cook eggs-
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