I'm physically doing well. I've been keeping up with my exercises, cutting back on soda, and eating smaller meals throughout the day. I honestly feel really good about myself on this. It's only a matter of time before I get to the ideal weight that I want.
However, I have been down on myself a little bit today. I realize that I need to somehow overcome my fears in order to succeed in life. But it's not just any fear... It's the fear of spiders. I either freeze or I run, but either way, I start to hyperventilate every time I see one. Earlier today, there was a full grown wolf spider on my bed, and my brother killed it. Of course, the downside to having my brother kill it is that I usually get scolded like a child for being so afraid. I know it's an irrational fear of mine, and I have been getting better, but every time someone else kills a spider for me, they either scold more or make fun of me. Either way, it makes me feel terrible about myself... I should start spraying the house weekly with bug spray. Maybe that will help keep those spiders out.
On the plus side, I finished the cover to The Lost Doll. I'm honestly proud of myself there because I didn't think I would finish it at first due to my procrastination. However, I pushed myself and got it finished. And, I also edited chapter one for A Secret World.
I guess there's an upside to my flaws... I can be very productive when I need to be. Either way, I think it's time for me to continue facing my fears and staying productive.
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