This might be the deepest entry about myself. I would never share this to anyone so i guess you the first i believe. Im not like any other girl . - im different, i have flaws, accidents,mistakes & much others. I'll tell you one of my differences,only one, that stick out most.
1.) My teeth
They arent straight . at all. not even close. My two front teeth- one is big & one is small,
One of them didnt come out since the 1st grade & its been hard between then & now.Its not easy to talk to people without knowing what they are literally think about my teeth. Like "Why is her teeth like that?" or "Her nickname is gonna be Big Smalls."-( you will get it later) . Sometimes, i think it happened on purpose . You know? yeahh..
The words people call me, i play it off like it doesnt hurt but on the inside, i swear,it hurts so f u c k i n g bad I get so mad at myself for it , i take my anger out on people i love most. At times, i cry so much i go to sleep & wake up with puffy eyes. I have my moodiness bottle up so much that i just spill it out . anywhere, everyone at anyone. I wouldnt dare to talk about this to my family & friends because they wont understand what it feels like to be me .
But now i learned that im not PERFECT. Im IMPERFECT . im not a beautiful girl ,im okay looking . Im not change that. Why ? because you have to love me for who i am not who you want me to be. If i do then im a barbie doll, full of f u c k i n g s h i t & im going to be fake. I am all natural & ordinary . Scratch that. Im ExtraOrdinary. - there will never be someone like me .
You know what i mean now? Okay. Im happy with who i am & who i will become some day . You dont like it? There is a line with people waiting for me to give a two flying f u c k s , go stand in it . Whalee im done . Buh Bye !
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