I am just so sad. I convinced my rents to visit two of my friends, and it ends up we cannot go. My mother sits me down after he called me and tells me the news. I try to hold back my tears, until she tells me that we can try again next year. I broke out in tears as I looked at her. "It's selfishness to make you go only to meet him" I'm selfish....I'm selfish because I really want to meet him. WE planned it. WE made it all work out. and now this. My heart was torn as I finally let go of all my emotions. She calls my dad and tells him I broke down. Great, like I needed that. "We'll try" I know what that means. No. Can't I be selfish...just this once? For me? Something I desire.... Maybe even the most. I raised his hopes and my own. How am I to tell him I can't? There's no way I can.... Not without crying. We've came such a long way.... It's torturing me. I don't wanna tell him.... I want to cling to hope....but that's wrong. My sister found it amusing to see me like this... I can't believe she gets kicks out of it.....
The Fire Angel · Tue Apr 18, 2006 @ 12:13am · 0 Comments |