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A Rant:

Ever felt the need to just b***h about something?

Darkslider
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Posted: Sun Dec 04, 2005 @ 09:39am

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	A Fear. I am afraid to talk to her. I am afraid to tell her of my fears. I know that she enjoys going out and spending time with people but I have a hard time doing that. Anxiety overrules enjoyment. I don't like large groups of people. Especially when I don't know them. I might feel comfortable if I am already with a group of people I am comfortable with. Agoraphobia. . . I hate it. I hate the way it makes me feel. I hate its effects on other people. Especially those I am in relationships with. But at the same time, I am afraid to talk about it. It is like admitting that I have a weakness. I don't like having a weakness. It is like admiting that I am not the pinnacle of perfection as I know it. It isn't an ego thing, it is just. . . I don't know. Maybe it is just pride. I don't know. Mostly, I guess, it is fear.

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Lorathan
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Commented on: Sun Dec 04, 2005 @ 04:34pm

Commented on: Thu Dec 08, 2005 @ 07:55am


	So, you're afraid of panicing? Of not having control of a situation? That seems mighty out of character for you.

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Darkslider
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Commented on: Thu Dec 08, 2005 @ 04:54pm


	I know. Believe me. I know. But, I think that I compensate for it online. Hrmmm. That deserves some pondering.

Commented on: Thu Dec 08, 2005 @ 05:18pm


	Online, you don't need to look anyone in the face. Their reactions aren't seen, felt, or to be honest, needed. You are your own strength because you have the protection of the computer. Then again, that's also one of my theories.

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Keene Maverick
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Commented on: Wed Dec 21, 2005 @ 11:12am


	You don't care about a weakness and you know it, a. Now get off your **** a, put away your pride, and find out what you're REALLY scared of. And then... Take a look at your recent actions, thoughts, and feelings. Notice just how much fear did control you. Funny thing... If you keep hiding from what you fear, it will come into fruition.

Commented on: Fri Dec 23, 2005 @ 11:18pm


	Your definition describes several types of anxiety. Have you cross-referenced?

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