This journal entry would more appropriately be called "stepping down", but I've always been a rather optimistic person so... here goes.
I'm stepping down from moderating, at least for the time being. This is an indeterminate amount of time, as I cannot guarantee I will ever go back. However, I consider myself to be "stepping up", because I'm stepping up to real life. Recent events in real life give me a lot of satisfaction and joy to announce - I'm VERY likely getting a boyfriend. A serious one. One that I like a whole SHITLOAD.
People might be wondering, "Why would a boyfriend prevent you from being on Gaia too?" That's not the point entirely though. I enjoyed moderating for the short period that I did it (a little over a month?) and while it did stress me out once in awhile, this was never unbearable.
What is making me step down is the fact that summer has begun. I've finished my first year of university, and I need to get a job for the summer. I also want to spend my summer not in front of my computer - but out and about. I want to go outside and tan. I want to hang out with friends regularly. I want to find the time to hang out with this hopefully soon-to-be boyfriend as much as I can.
All of these real life things bring me a great deal more satisfaction than helping Gaia in the limited way I can. I love Gaia. I will always love Gaia. I will remember the assholes, the trolls, the prommies, and of course the amazing people above all. Gaia was a huge part of my life for a number of years, with a few breaks in between. Right now though - I feel like my life is moving on.
I like the direction life is taking, and even if it doesn't work out - I think being social in that way will offer me a lot more as a person than moderating Gaia. That's not to say that it's completely unrewarding or unfulfilling - but for me, I need to grow in other directions.
Almost everyone who matters to me on Gaia has either added me offline (whether on facebook, AIM, MSN or Skype) - and if not, we've had some fantastic conversations through PMs, I'm sure. If anyone who happens to read this (honestly, I have to repeat - who actually reads this stuff?) does want to contact me, PM me. I'm sure I'm still attached to Gaia enough to want to check my PMs and all regularly enough.
I just... I wanted some sort of semi-formal goodbye. I can never take these things seriously, even when I want to try and sound eloquent. Either way, I did want to clarify that it wasn't the modding that got in the way - it was real life taking a turn for the good. In saying goodbye to Gaia, I'm embracing better things for me as an individual.
I hope everything works out for everyone though. (Yes, even the trolls. Maybe a social life will find you one day, and you'll realize that all your trolling was for naught!) I'm sure I'll be around Gaia - just not in the same way.
Because I'm horrible at ending things, and I don't want to leave this on a super sappy note (which I couldn't pull off anyway), I'm just going to go out in STYLE. cool
DIS IS A SHOUTOUT 2 ALL MI HOMES FROM DA GAIAZ:
FENFENMERUAKANEMOONYDIGINIFIMELKENNY&EVERY1ELSE.
I know I forgot people. Though, for the record, this isn't name-dropping. (I just knew that Meru would want her name in lights somehow and this is the best I could do.)
heart It's been a shitload of fun.
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