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This'll be my final journal entry before I leave for Joint Readiness Training Center in Louisiana in March. That's where I'll be getting situational training to prepare for my expected deployment to Iraq in June, between the second and twelfth. I'll be there for fifteen months, and if I do come back and depending on how it went, I will reup to go back to that country, for personal issues that I'll talk about in a bit. So this may well be my final journal entry and appearance on this website.
Since I've been on this website back when I joined on my very first account in 2004, I have made a lot of friends and to this day, I am still friends with them. Some of them are Veg, Mael, and Snot Foster. Those three had helped me more then they expected with our times back in the O / M. God, how I do miss those times, the times before idiots and noobs had invaded the once sacred battlegrounds of KCAB vs. All. I had to leave Gaia for an extended period of time for personal issues involving money for bills. Sadly, the internet wasn't important enough for me. And I just wanted to thank those three for being some of the most bad a** people I've ever met, cept for Snot, cause he's an Aussie. Come to the US Snot, become a true bad a** in a country that most of the world hates.
Now, I want to talk about a few things as to why I want to stay away from the country that I've sworn my life protect as well as the people that populate it. The first is my family, because I know they've supported me all the way from when I first told them when I was 13 that I wanted to be in the military, and I'm going on twenty-two now, that's nine years that they've been by my side in every decision I've made as a teenager and young adult. Now that I'm officially and adult and I've been making decisions the whole time, sure they've helped, but it's been solely my choice, I want to live the life of that of a soldier. For the last seven months I've been training and training to do my job, and now I want to stay somewhere where I'll be doing my job, and sadly that doesn't involve them.
Now that brings me on to my second reason to stay there away from the everyday problems of life here in the states and that is a girl. Some will most likely think that it is the most pathetic thing in the world, but she's by far one of the most important people in my life. Now here's a story for you all to laugh at, since most people on this site are immature, we met last year in May about six weeks before I left home to venture into the life of a soldier in the United States Army. The two of us had met in a topic on this website in Towns, and this is my opinion, something clicked and we've been talking to each other ever since. We talked daily up until I left for basic training and once I got the chance to jump back on to a computer and talk to her, she treated me the same way she had back before I left for twenty some odd weeks. Now that meant a lot to me, and eventually I figured out my cell phone could surf the net and we started talking to each other through profile comments. You can check my profile and you'll see them, they are sporadic but hey, my life is busy. Well today it had dawned on me that when she told me that she would be late for her volleyball practice just to talk to me. To be honest, I've never met someone over the internet who was willing to blow off things they needed to do in their lives just to sit in front of their computer to talk to someone. Over the months, and this may sound retarded to some, I've grown feelings for her because she is one of the most amazing people I've ever met and just the thought of getting home after a day of work to talk to her again has been my motivator ever since I had a way to stay in touch with her. Hell, even through basic, I had a bunch of pictures of my family, and a few of her and those few pictures alone had motivated me through basic. So thank you Mikaela, you're everything a woman should be and some lucky guy will be happy with you. I know this much, it won't be me unfortunately since we live in two different countries, and I wouldn't want her to give up her citizenship for me, and I would gladly give up my citizenship for her.
My last reason to stay overseas is that it'll help my career out a helluva lot more then staying in this country would. I'll be able to earn so many different awards, skills, training, certificates, and promotion points while I'm gone, and it'll help me get through the ranks and eventually become something better then I have ever dreamed of, whether it be a senior NCO or an officer, all I know is I'll earn it quicker over seas. Plus, I'll be able to work on my skills as a life saver. Because I'm not about killing the other guy, I'd rather patch up the wounds for both sides. That's where I've belonged, and I've been dreaming of the moment when I'd go overseas ever since I wanted to join the Army. I don't belong here, I don't have an urge to make a family anymore, I would rather die single then make someone a widow. But I'm not going over there to die, I'm going over there to protect the lives of the people in this country and in that country. I may not even stay there, there are numerous areas that are being discussed daily of who our country will go to war with next, and I don't care if I wind up there either. All I know is that I want to be there more then anything right now. Sure I'll be coming home every so often, I want to stay somewhere where I'll be in constant danger and have to move on a moment's notice to go help someone, and sadly, the EMS system here in the states can't offer that to me, plus, I could never do that since I've got paramedic skills and I'm only a basic, it'd piss me off, that and I am not going to school to further my education in medical.
Well, I don't really have much more to say, comment if you feel like it. I don't care what kind of comments you leave, say whatever is on your mind, don't worry about censoring yourself. I won't report any comments that are made because I don't think that someone should get in trouble for speaking their mind. I mean, it's a part of the constitution, Freedom of Speech. So use this right and tell me what YOU think.
 Supine · Fri Feb 22, 2008 @ 04:43am · 10 Comments |
That was very long, your font was too small, and the background color of your journal hurts my eyes. D<