Sigh... I'd faced the fact that nowadays, it hard to find "REAL" friends. It's way a lot harder if you're a type of person who is kind of a gullible because people might really teak advantage of you. I admit, for too much of a nice guy, I am pretty gullible because of too much concern for peers. My social life is like a “fishing sport”, luring all kinds of people and trying to know more, hang out and get along with them. Like other people who plays the sport, they let the fishes go when they are not satisfied. That’s what I did to those people who said “Wala lang trip lang kasi kitang maging kaibigan” (Oh just nothing, I just had a trip to he your friend), “Eh kasi nakita ko yung cellphone number mo sa friendster eh..” (It’s because I got your mobile number in friendster) or “Kasi ang cute/gwapo mo eh! Type kasi kita” (You look very cute/handsome plus you’re my type of guy) for a reason to be my friend. Does Friendship really do exists if a person who is just interested to you looks? Friendship for me is really a big deal. It’s not a thing to be wasted, it should be earned. It’s really a total turn off for me if that is the only objective to be my friend.
“Finally I caught a fish that I‘m satisfied,” what I meant was I finally found a person whom I can rely on and can be qualified to be called a friend. It’s far better than what I had expected because this friend of mine is whom I consider now as my sibling. I call him “Utol” or sometimes “Utoltoo” (he calls me “Utolwan”). I cant believe that with in a short span of time, it’s like I already know him for a long time realizing how open we are to all out problems specially to our own family, friends and specially to girls. He knows my darkest secrets and the heaviest of my burdens that I’m currently carrying. Surprisingly, we are literally like brothers because we have some resemblance in our physical features, we have many thing in common and he can really relate to my dilemmas. That’s why I call him “Utol”. Like me he’s a typical guy having typical problems but it seems our destiny of problems we are tackling have resemblance. He really understands how I feel at what is my point of view in life.
He’s a nice dude and a sweet guy (how awkward for me to say), that’s why he has many friends. Simplicity rules him and he is never an airhead. At one point I still don't understand him yet because behind all the nice traits he posses, he still seems to be a loner, sometimes melancholic but never the less I always try to lift up his spirits. Although he’s a bit naive but still intelligent. He always say that he is a “weakling” but I doubt it. I know he possesses greater strength than anyone I know. He also sometimes think of himself as a “mistake” but little did he know and he really yet doesn’t see the things that he did to others which corrected their lives. This reason proves he is not a mistake after all, his purpose is very vital he can straight peoples’ lives.
I think he tackles heavier burdens than me, that’s why I see him often lonely and bothered. He lacks his confidence but he has a strong sense of being just in any instances. He often dislikes fights that’s why sometimes he just tells both sides in the argument that it’s his fault just to finish an argument, a real icon of being heroic. He has a personality of kind of being reckless to oneself but very caring for the sake of others.
He may consider himself as a mistake, my be one sided at times and reckless to oneself for the sake of others. He is still my number one “UTOL” and that’s not going to change.