I found this in a past journal entry, and I believe it fits..
I'm in a rut. I feel depressed. I am very lonely and I don't feel as if there's a damn thing I can do about it. I miss my friends from school, and yet I have no interest in seeing them. Jimmy is an a*****e to me, and I can do better. I have to get a job, I don't want a job. I go to an interview tomorrow, and my life as an 'adult' begins. I want romance. I want to cry. I am so incredibly fat and Jimmy will be the only person to ever accept me with the way my body is.
I almost want to die. I feel emo.
I want..
Love.
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