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Posted: Sun Apr 17, 2016 5:39 am
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It wasn't really stalking, not in the same way he couldn't help but pursue America, but since he'd run off into the jungle Lawrence had been following Rodney now and then as he went on his way about the island, already aware of his routines more or less from living with him. Melvin he couldn't afford to risk, the other man too prone to aggressive questioning and potentially capture tactics but Rodney was different, Rodney was calm and passive.
It was the bag which had prompted him to come and wait for the man on his morning jog. It had had so many blessedly required things, including toothpaste which he had badly, badly wanted since finding himself in his state of self-ostracism.
Leaning against a tree he watched the sky overhead, knowing it was around the time when he would show and hoping that today wasn't a day where he had some kind of duty or mission to attend. He hadn't slept much at all that night, constantly jarred awake by sounds and the lingering thought that there were shadowlings nearby. On previous nights he'd had to fight a few of the things so they were out there and a danger which was not about to go away even as he strength slowly did.
He was still dressed in the loose overalls, scruffy looking but like a man who was still paddling somewhere around the surface of clean through sheer effort. He looked older than his age and was lapsing back into the shallow gauntness of when they'd first addressed his problems. Everything about him frankly looked tired other than his still bright blue eyes.
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Posted: Sun Apr 17, 2016 5:53 am
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Rodney didn't jog, before he came to the island. He had done a lot of hauling, first working for the Tennessee Marble Company, and then later for Jesse's exhibitions. He liked walks, and went on ghost tours and urban exploration adventures armed with a camera.
Seven was the one who liked to run. The gargoyle named strange, alien rock types as they went, like listing old friends. Rodney was only sorry that his partner had lost their legs. He didn't mind lending his. At first it had been unbearable, and he'd been short of breath after the first couple laps. But it got easier with time, and now they both enjoyed the time together. He would have preferred additional company (he never much cared for being alone), but Seven was a welcome (if gruff) friend. He chatted to them softly through the circuit. He usually didn't go down all the way to the beach, since it was hard on the knees, and stayed closer to campus.
He was surprised to see a lean figure waiting along the edge of the path.
Rodney shook himself out of the haze of momentum, slowing and catching his breath. He rested his hands on his knees.
"Hi," was all he said, although worry was written on his features.
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Posted: Sun Apr 17, 2016 6:04 am
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Posted: Sun Apr 17, 2016 6:15 am
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Posted: Sun Apr 17, 2016 6:28 am
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Posted: Sun Apr 17, 2016 7:30 am
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Posted: Sun Apr 17, 2016 7:40 am
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Rodney got a long despairing look for his question. The subject of love was one that they had discussed many many times and which he still didn't understand at all. When Rodney referred to love he seemed to refer to something separate from the intangible and impossible to grasp emotion which Lawrence knew he had never experienced in the same way everyone else did. It was supposed to be something which happened like arousal without much warning or control, or so he'd heard. It happened to people in his experience when you were nice to them for a while, but even when people were pleasant to him he didn't feel the same way. Rodney didn't buy this, he talked about love as an act, as a commitment which was made daily in actions and support. It distressed Lawrence because by that very definition he had been doing everything he could to love Maja and yet had still failed. Rodney had to be wrong, it had to be inexperience talking more than anything else, because it didn't work.
"Not quite." he said. "It is..complex." he rubbed his cheek with his hand, hating to discuss the arrangement of his mind but figuring that he owed Rodney it. "If I look a certain way, if I am dressed a certain way sometimes it becomes too easy to ...method act. To the point I almost end up trapped. Jan is a...less prominent role?" he tried couching it in acting terms. "Now. So it means if I look like a previous role, i.e the me who was crafted specifically for a normal human life I will end up trapped there. I would be forced into all the weaknesses that I experienced then, all the attempts to simulate grief and hurt and yes, perhaps love also."
He gestured with his hand in the direction of the facility in the distance. "It is no use here. I will die. I cannot put that costume back on."
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Posted: Sun Apr 17, 2016 8:03 am
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Posted: Sun Apr 17, 2016 8:12 am
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Posted: Sun Apr 17, 2016 8:23 am
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Posted: Sun Apr 17, 2016 8:36 am
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Posted: Sun Apr 17, 2016 1:34 pm
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Posted: Sun Apr 17, 2016 1:48 pm
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Posted: Sun Apr 17, 2016 2:10 pm
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Posted: Sun Apr 17, 2016 2:20 pm
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