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Posted: Wed Nov 14, 2012 2:38 pm
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Posted: Thu Nov 15, 2012 6:19 pm
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Kimi'Hakan was young. Very young still, but able to meander on her own to the slates that were not far from the keep where the other cubs were. But she didn't feel like she belonged, no, she didn't feel like she was a part of them. Something felt off, not right, and her ears were drawn close to her head, her head drooping down, she looked back and forth at the sands. No, no monsters. But a bird, she peered at the sky and for a moment her silver eyes gleamed as the kestrel bird Kessek flew overhead watching, Her sun-colored sister would keep a watch on them, that was her bird.
Yes, her bird.
Not Kimi's, she felt alone.
Like something was missing.
She knew who to look for, she had heard some stories, but there seemed to be much sadness, grief, she thought they called it, she was unsure why. Her paws dug into the sand as she pushed forward towards the slates, there she would see her.
It appeared she was already late.
Markings, not the same color as hers, they were almost reversed, mirror, she heard used as a word once so far, but not exact. But the same - broken.
It was how the cub felt..broken, pieces missing.
She crept up, belly close to the ground, and huddled by a stone she was taken to by an older brother for a brief moment. Mwako'Damu was his name, very big, gruff, very old, he seemed sort of silly. But he showed her a picture, an image, and now Kimi'Hakan huddled close to it, looking towards the dark female who seemed to have the sadness.
In the softest whisper, barely audible, her voice stretched out, trying to get the older one's attention.
"Mother?"
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Posted: Fri Nov 16, 2012 9:03 am
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Posted: Sat Nov 17, 2012 7:03 am
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She was still so small, so young yet, and those words hurt her. She pursed her lips, eyes gleaming from the almost immediate tears that welled in her eyes. Even she would dismiss her? "But-" her voice still so quiet. Kimi'Hakan went to step forward, her tiny paw fitting into a large empty sand hole where this female has stepped and swiped away the sand. She was so tiny, so small, what difference could she make to make others listen?
No, no, she was stronger than that.
This had to be a test.
Right?
"No," she said softly, taking a step forward, and then, in a rash decision, ran for the female's leg and hit her forehead against the nearest forearm, thinking her small weight could make this older one listen.
"Why don't you want me? Everyone else is so sad, big brother brought me here and showed me your picture. Isn't that you?" she said pointing feebly with awkward paws to a shape on a close slate. The figure was fading, barely visible against the stone, but there was black, and red, broken pieces.
Kimi'hakan was sure it was this female...her mother. It had to be!
"He said you were away, I haven't seen you, but that is you, your picture, your my mother." She sat back into the sand, back hunched, looking at the sand below her.
"Why don't you want me?" she held up a forearm, the black markings contrasting against orange, "am I too broken?" she asked, referring to the markings. "Big brother doesn't like to look at me," though the child did not know, it was because of the wing marking that reminded Mwako'Damu of their lost mother to the lands.
"We are both broken," she said, looking to the markings on the dark female, her supposed-mother, before her, "so why don't you want me?"
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Posted: Sun Nov 18, 2012 12:32 pm
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Posted: Sun Nov 18, 2012 5:23 pm
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"Why is he broken? He won't look at me, big sister won't either, she doesn't look like anyone else, like this sand," she picked some up in her paw and threw it down. "I break others....they become sad looking at me," she said with tears in her eyes.
When the female, mother...no, Fia, kept saying no, it hurt, and she tried not to cry, but it was inevitable.
"Why did she go away, no one tells me, that fading image looks like you, I can barely see her, she looks like you," Kimi'Hakan mumbled, flopping to the sand, pushing her paws against it as if some small brute force would make things better.
"No one sees me just like she is gone," she said into her paws.
"Just like you," she huffed.
"I want to fix it, but it hurts, I feel broken," she looked to Fia, She did not appear as a medic, and perhaps none of the medics could fix her either. She had a broken family, no mother, she had gone away...but where? Why? Too naive and young to understand.
"Did I do something wrong, that I don't know, I didn't mean to," she said on the brink of more tears.
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Posted: Wed Nov 21, 2012 1:47 pm
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Posted: Wed Nov 21, 2012 7:15 pm
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Kimi'hakan looked to Fia and listened, her ears back. She huffed, puffed her cheeks out as she blew out a hrash breath. Died, what did, dieded mean...not coming back, stop breathing? Kimi tried to hold her breath, but spat out and took an influx of air quickly. How would that happen? Her mother didn't want to...the monsters her brother spoke of.
"The monsters took her away, didn't they?" her voice asked, she slumped into the sand, near Fia, and pushed sand in Fia's direction. "I woulda helped her," but she didn't remember any monsters. "I'd fight them good," she said with a little naive confidence.
She peered to the pictogram of her mother, faded, and got up, walked to the slate and looked at it. She looked to the colors that were not far up, and took a step towards Fia.
"I did not mean to make you have sadness too," she said looking at the ground.
"Can you help me, help me fix it?"
She placed a paw on the stone again, but could not reach up to where her mother's faded image was. "She is gone, I won't know my mother, but she is not gone either, I don't want it to go away completely, so she can still be here...so I can see her," though Kimi knew, though it was a strange sadness, hurt feeling, she'd never really see her mother.
She'd never really hear her voice.
"Please?"
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Posted: Thu Nov 22, 2012 1:32 pm
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Posted: Thu Nov 22, 2012 7:48 pm
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Kimi'Hakan looked to Fia, and when Fia said she did not make Fia sad, she had a half smile upon her face. Half happy, for making no sadness here, but half sad, for having sadness of no mother to return home.
As Fia said she would fetch colors, Kimi'Hakan's eyes shone bright in the suniight. Bright silver, as her mother's and she looked to Fia as she walked, and back to the stone, reaching up.
Even now, she could not touch her...she never truly would. But the features on the cub's face softened.
"She will help me see you mother," she said, leaning her head against the stone, closing her eyes. "We will not forget."
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