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Posted: Thu Nov 03, 2011 9:23 pm
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Apries couldn't stop his eyes from constantly roving over his surroundings, and breathing deep lungfuls of air. There was an odd aching sensation in his chest coupled with a slightly bitter taste in his mouth, and an odd stinging in his eyes that he was pretty sure had nothing to do with the wind.
It had been a long time since Apries had last seem this land, his birthplace and home. It was inevitable that every place he'd been to on his journey would to compared to this, and no matter what the outcome of this particular trip he would probably always think of these lands as home. Oh, he'd missed it so!
A tingle of fear tainted what would have otherwise been an enjoyable trip for him, a fear that would have sent him running in the opposite direction had he been his younger self.
He was still a juvenile the last time he'd set paw on these lands, barely grown out of kithood and still just as meek. Apries wasn't sure why he'd had such a servile nature, and it honestly could have been from such a number of things that he'd stopped trying to guess long ago. He knew consciously now what he'd subconsciously thought back then, that he was still not ready for all the expectations of him and wouldn't be until he found his courage on his own terms.
Of course he'd taken it to a bit of an extreme, leaving the tribe and running off on his own. 'I didn't even have my piercing or tattoos or shawl at the time,' he thought, self-consciously tugging the blue material around his neck a bit straighter. In hindsight he could have stayed behind and roughed it in the wilder parts of the territory Kemet claimed, or done something else of a similar nature to gain the courage and independance he'd been seeking.
'But if I hadn't left, I'd have never met Lani-Ai,' his mental voice countered, 'And there's no telling if that would have worked anyway, when you knew the tribe was still nearby.' Apries sighed. Yes, he'd finally found what he'd been looking for and didn't regret the journey. He just wished...
'No good to think that. If wishes were stars then the sky would never be dark. Wishing won't change a thing. I'll just have to accept the consequences.'
Apries paused for a moment to rest, letting his eyes roam the land and reflecting on all that he'd gathered about his old home from his travels. 'An official tribe now. Everyone must be so proud! They even attracted a Guardian! I heard a couple others have been joining, so I'll bet that means more couples. Wonder if those two permas are still there? And how many new members are Phims?' Apries cocked an eye to the sky at that thought, then got up and resumed walked.
'Wonder if Horus is a proper Elder now. He must be if Kemet's official now. Wonder if that growth spurt hurts, or if they do it gradually.'
On Apries' mind went, turning over questions in an attempt to distract himself from his fear and gathering his courage for the meeting to come. This trip had a purpose, and though he was a little afraid of how others (Especially his family!) would recieve him he refused to let his hard-won determination waver.
He actually did have a plan, for all he seemed to be marching along until he hit something. When he was a kit he'd found some very good hiding spots, secluded little places that, if they'd all been found, probably wouldn't be used for much anyway. He was going to the best hidden, for it was still on Kemet lands but close enough to the fringe where the risk of being spotted was low. Assuming someone didn't find him and report him first, Apries had a feeling that Horus would know he was there. It might have been hubris to even consider it for it would mean he thought himself special, but wouldn't the Deities be watching and let their chosen know what was afoot?
'I'd be a fool to assume what the Deities are going to do,' Apries thought, casting a mental apology just in case he was practicing hubris. Well this was just his first plan, since it seemed least likely to stir things up. It was still morning, so if Horus didn't find him by dawn of the next day then Apries would just march into the tribe itself, or as far as he could before he was discovered. Kemet wasn't a hositle tribe, but for the sake of his nerves Apries was really hoping the first plan would work.
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Posted: Thu Nov 03, 2011 10:30 pm
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Apries had gotten settled into his hiding place and resigned himself to wait. It wasn't all that hard to do; he might not have the years of experience of sitting in one place like his mate had, but he was still very patient and it was no great thing to stay in one spot for a day.
He'd expected it would take a good part of the day and possibly even into the night; assuming Horus did get the message and location, he still had to travel and he might be busy. Therefore it was something of a shock for Apries when, about an hour later, there came soft sound of something big walking up. Whatever it was wasn't trying to hide itself, otherwise Apries doubted he'd hear anything at all.
When whoever it was came into view, Apries got something of a shock. He certainly looked like Horus, but Apries apparently hadn't really been thinking of his old Elder actually looking like an Elder. As if that wasn't enough he near jumped out of his skin when Horus greeted him, not even really looking at him and continuing to walk as though he had other things on his mind.
After that initial shot of startlement Apries firmly clamped down on his emotions. 'Come on, he won't eat you. You came here for a reason, don't blow it,' he mentally chided. Taking a deep breath and steeling himself, Apries stepped out from his shelter. He held firm and refused to allow himself to cringe as sunlight struck him, giving black fur a blue halo, red fur shining like wet blood, and orange glowing like coals. Amazing really, how the sun could bring out such intense glows yet bleach colors at the same time.
The color distraction was enough to relax him a bit further though, and when Apries spoke he was proud to hear how calm and steady it sounded. "Hello, Elder Horus," he said, bowing his head in respect.
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Posted: Thu Nov 03, 2011 11:08 pm
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Posted: Thu Nov 03, 2011 11:33 pm
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Apries struggled internally. No formalities? The Horus that he remembered had be a normal. One with a presence of command, but it just served to make him look more like a paternal figure for their entire group. Elders went through much to achieve their bodies, which were built to be impressive and regal by fox standards. They didn't even have to consciously think about their power anymore, it just was.
Well, what he had to say right now didn't involve titles, so for now Apries tried to push the concern to the side.
"I-I'm here for-... It's...hard to explain," he said, looking down at the ground for a moment before he forced himself to meet Horus' gaze again. You-You were heading somewhere before I stopped you," he observed diffidently. "Perhaps we could walk and I...I can explain it as we go. It's something of a long tale." For a moment he felt like the shy little kit he'd been; that part of him might never change, but at least now he knew that he could stand under pressure, rather than wilt.
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Posted: Fri Nov 04, 2011 2:18 pm
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Posted: Fri Nov 04, 2011 3:09 pm
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Apries nodded and broke into a ground-eating lope that covered the most distance while costing the least amount of energy. The energy part probably didn't matter much; Horus wasn't that far away, and they would be walking once he reached him. It was just the run he broke into by habit now.
He slowed the last few yards, and came up shyly next to Horus at a walk. As if by unspoken signal the two turned in the direction Horus had been taking before Apries interrupted, and began walking side-by-side.
Apries gave Horus a brief version of what he'd been up to since he left the tribe. This was his first time returning, and he had to quash a little stirring of guilt that he hadn't at least tried to visit.
Some of it, like, "I traveled north and west for quite some time," wasn't much more than filler meant to give a sense of direction. He cut out the little things he'd seen and done that had no major sense of purpose to his tale, since they were frivolous little things that he count relate later to anyone interested. He told Horus of the challenges he'd faced; that wolf-pack he'd had to flee from, fighting and hiding in turns. The lands to the north where snow lay on the grounds all year, where there were few shelters and even less to eat, where storms of snow reigned and hit with more frequency that storms of sand did here. The time he'd been seriously hurt in a fall in a strange land and had to use what knowledge he had of healing from his father to figure out which plants could help him.
"I had returned south from the snowy lands and struck west, traveling through a forest. The air began taking on a strange smell, and when I finally broke the trees I saw the ocean." There was wonder in Apries' voice; Kemet lived within traveling distance of an ocean, but Apries himself had never seen it.
"It was amazing, Horus! And that's where I met Lani-Ai." He blushed a bit, then launched into the story of how he'd met the vixen, and the days he'd spent with her on the cliffs by the sea. How they fell in love, and when he had to leave she had come with him. It was only recently that they'd decided to officially take the title lifemates, for both wanted to take things slow and make sure it wasn't a moment of infatuation. Lani deserved that kind of consideration in Apries' mind, and if it had been a brief romance on her part then better they learn it before shackling themselves to each other.
For a moment Apries was lost in a dreamy haze with a lovestruck look on his face while he considered his mate. Then he blinked, blushing in embarassment and looking back up at Horus with a little cough.
"Well after that we began heading in this direction, traveling slowly and taking our time. I wanted to be sure..." Apries trailed off, trying to find words to continue. It was difficult to straighten out the complicated flavor of emotions inside of him, and he had the feeling that no matter what words he used they wouldn't be enough to fully convey everything.
"I had always meant to return someday," he said quietly, deciding to let the words drift out on their own and not overthink them to death. "When I found my strength and determination, I always planned on coming back." He glanced at Horus out of the corner of his eye, wondering what the Elder thought of everything he'd told him, and what he'd said just now.
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Posted: Sat Nov 05, 2011 9:45 pm
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Posted: Sun Nov 06, 2011 1:00 pm
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Posted: Sun Nov 06, 2011 5:02 pm
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Posted: Tue Nov 08, 2011 3:53 pm
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Posted: Tue Nov 08, 2011 4:09 pm
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Posted: Tue Nov 29, 2011 3:11 am
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Apries shook his head ruefully. "I suppose I really shouldn't be so surprised. Marius was always so bold and energetic when we were kits, ready to take on the world. Always the first of us to try anything." Apries was fell silent for a moment, wondering how much of his thoughts, if any, he should share. He looked out over the desert, trying to frame his words so that they came out neutral.
"I wonder at times, if the first and cruelest trick ever played on Brother was that he was born second."
Apries oftened wondered at the strength of Marius' soul, that it never feel into darkness. All the bold traits of a first-born yet born second, having to defend his timid excuse of an older brother who clung to daddy's tail. Then said brother just walks away from the tribe, throwing away the honor and responsibilities of the first-born like worthless trash. It surely must have seemed that way, no matter how noble his intentions. Apries didn't know if Marius had envied him his birth rank, but if he had it would have made his walking away that much worse in his eyes. And now...
Well, he didn't really know what to expect. Would he be expected to step back under that mantle of responsiblity he'd cast off long ago, or had Marius already taken it up? Would it be seen as presumptuous hubris if he did, as though he had never left the family, or would it be seen that way if he didn't? These thoughts chased each other round and round. Apries shook his head, trying to settle his mind.
"I would like to speak with Brother and Father," he said quietly. "The decision is ultimately yours whether myself and my mate are welcome into the tribe, but......they are ones whoes acceptance I seek most for I feel they are the ones who might most resent my return."
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Posted: Sun Dec 04, 2011 10:20 pm
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Posted: Wed Dec 07, 2011 1:20 pm
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Apries didn't answer immediately, still absorbing and mulling over Horus' words. It still seemed like part of his theory applied, for even if Marius didn't mind being born second if he had been born first he wouldn't have felt like he had to step into the place his brother had left.
As for having someone to look up to, well he could sympathize. It was just so odd to think that way about Marius; he's always seemed so confident and sure, it was part of the reason why Apries left in the first place. He'd wanted something like that for himself.
Finally he did pull free of his thoughts, and realized the question Horus had asked him. "Oh! Um, well...," Apries paused, thinking, then started up again. "I would like to see both of them eventually, but maybe I should talk to them one-on-one? I think, perhaps, Marius first." A small smile crossed his face. "Father is always so enigmatic with his thoughts and feelings, I don't know think I'd know what, or even if, he thinks of my returning."
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