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Posted: Mon Jun 07, 2010 7:07 pm
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I love my mate dearly, he's great to me, but he always seems so tormented. He says it's because of the path he follows, but he doesn't usually go into detail about it. Part of it is because he can't find the words to articulate it correctly and part is because he's been so hurt throughout life that he doesn't know if he can trust me with too much information. Idk what to do. Well, ok, I guess the obvious answer is to just stop asking, but it's frustrating. Frustrating to see that he's always in pain and there's nothing I, or anyone else can do about it. The only thing I know about his path is that he says he follows a goddess of death and that he seems to feel that it's responsibility to take care of the few people he actually cares about in life. I'm mated to a business man who's a geek and seems to have multiple personalities and follows a goddess of death. He gets periods when he goes so cold it's like I can't find him anywhere inside, even when I look in his eyes. Like he's not there anymore, it's something else entirely. This can last anywhere from a few moments to a few days. Then it's like he's the greatest man in the world. Is he crazy or am I just thinking too much about it? Grr, I'm having trouble articulating my own thoughts right now. Sorry if a lot of this doesn't make sense.
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Posted: Mon Jun 07, 2010 7:17 pm
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Posted: Mon Jun 07, 2010 7:31 pm
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Posted: Mon Jun 07, 2010 7:51 pm
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Posted: Mon Jun 07, 2010 7:52 pm
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Posted: Mon Jun 07, 2010 7:57 pm
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Posted: Mon Jun 07, 2010 7:58 pm
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ShadowCatSoul I don't fear for my life and I don't think he's really crazy or anything. If there is no concern for mental illness, would you be willing to avoid hyperbole that degrades those who do suffer out of respect please?
ShadowCatSoul I believe that he has a seperate set of beliefs than I do but isn't sure how to discuss it with me and I do believe that he has issues from his past that he has problems dealing with to this day. When he "goes cold" he's like a different person all together. It's like he has no emotion, no care for anyone or anything. I know he wouldn't hurt me, but in those periods I'm afraid that if I say or do the wrong thing it might mean the end of our relationship.
Please understand, my observations aren't a diagnosis, but it sounds a great deal like either disassociation or emotional withholding. Perhaps even a combination of the two.
ShadowCatSoul He's more precise, more literal, quick tempered in that state. He has like 2 or 3 sides to him and he goes through those "changes" so fast sometimes it's like whiplash trying to sort them out and determine which one's which and how to handle each seperate one. I love him and I love being with him, but I've never been in a relationship with a man like this before and it takes some getting used to. I don't think suggesting mental help would be healthy for the relationship. Especially since he was forced into a mental hospital when he was only 15. He has problems with his hair being pulled and bondage because of it. Not that I think he needs it anyway. I feel bad for him sometimes.
Unfortunately, while people can suffer bad experiences upon being institutionalized, that does not mean that therapy isn't a valid and even necessary form of treatment- and part of a healthy relationship is the commitment from both parties to do what is needed to maintain it. If action isn't taken, those frustrations you feel are going to fester until the emotional backlash from both of you destroys the relationship at best- at worst, someone could be seriously injured.
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Posted: Mon Jun 07, 2010 8:02 pm
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Posted: Mon Jun 07, 2010 8:03 pm
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Brass Bell Doll ShadowCatSoul I don't fear for my life and I don't think he's really crazy or anything. If there is no concern for mental illness, would you be willing to avoid hyperbole that degrades those who do suffer out of respect please? ShadowCatSoul I believe that he has a seperate set of beliefs than I do but isn't sure how to discuss it with me and I do believe that he has issues from his past that he has problems dealing with to this day. When he "goes cold" he's like a different person all together. It's like he has no emotion, no care for anyone or anything. I know he wouldn't hurt me, but in those periods I'm afraid that if I say or do the wrong thing it might mean the end of our relationship. Please understand, my observations aren't a diagnosis, but it sounds a great deal like either disassociation or emotional withholding. Perhaps even a combination of the two. ShadowCatSoul He's more precise, more literal, quick tempered in that state. He has like 2 or 3 sides to him and he goes through those "changes" so fast sometimes it's like whiplash trying to sort them out and determine which one's which and how to handle each seperate one. I love him and I love being with him, but I've never been in a relationship with a man like this before and it takes some getting used to. I don't think suggesting mental help would be healthy for the relationship. Especially since he was forced into a mental hospital when he was only 15. He has problems with his hair being pulled and bondage because of it. Not that I think he needs it anyway. I feel bad for him sometimes. Unfortunately, while people can suffer bad experiences upon being institutionalized, that does not mean that therapy isn't a valid and even necessary form of treatment- and part of a healthy relationship is the commitment from both parties to do what is needed to maintain it. If action isn't taken, those frustrations you feel are going to fester until the emotional backlash from both of you destroys the relationship at best- at worst, someone could be seriously injured.
There's no risk for anyone being seriously injured, he has too much self control and techniques for that. I believe that counseling would be an insult to him because of his past, and in any case I'm against it anyway. I'm not worried for myself, I'm worried about how to better communicate with him. I want to know how I can get him to open up better to me.
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Posted: Mon Jun 07, 2010 8:14 pm
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Posted: Mon Jun 07, 2010 10:01 pm
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Posted: Tue Jun 08, 2010 6:42 am
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Posted: Tue Jun 08, 2010 7:08 am
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Posted: Tue Jun 08, 2010 11:15 am
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Posted: Tue Jun 08, 2010 11:32 am
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