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So I was at school standing in the lunch line behind one of my good friends. He was generally a talkative, relatively happy guy, but today, he was super quiet. Immediately, when I went to go talk to him, I guess you'd call it his aura, or energy surrounding him felt funny. We didn't carry on a super long conversation, but eventually, I asked if he was sad, and he confirmed it.
So he wouldn't tell me what was wrong, and I respected that, perhaps he needed to keep it to himself. though he did tell me it was a relationship thing. As we're progressing through the line to get food, I was getting sadder and sadder. I told him he was giving off a lot of sad energy and he said "I know. Just don't look at my eyes, it'll probably get worse." He was right. Just about everything about him was sad, especially his eyes, he looked like he was about to cry. We figured when we got out of line to go to sit at our own tables, that feeling would probably go away. I told him to "feel better", though I wish I could've said something better, since I know it was probably easier said than done. He just responded "Yeah..~" and we went to go sit at our own tables after getting our food.
As I sat down, while I didn't feel better immediately, the pressure that that I seemed to have felt in the lunch line was gone. I figured he was probably REALLY having it rough...He must have really had strong feelings for his girl...I hope they'll be alright.
When I went back to class, I recorded it down in one of my journals I keep (It's a portion of my book of shadows). I was recording what went on in the lunch line regarding his emotions and how projective he was about them without even saying anything at all. (though body language also suggested that he wasn't feeling too good) A lot of times when we were being silent, it really seemed like he wanted to speak, so he did, they were on and off conversations about bands, because he likes music...
So as I was recording the event, I felt like I was on the brink of crying. In fact, as I write it here, I still get sort of choked up, even though I have no idea what his situation was. It was, and still is, so weird. Though, when I was writing it out, I was SERIOUSLY about to cry.
I don't know what made me so receptive of his energy today. Perhaps he was more projective than he told me. Since normally, I don't think much of myself possibly being an empath, because this doesn't always happen. To me, there's a difference between knowing how people feel based on your inferences from body language, speech, etc.
Then there's just. Straight empathy, you KNOW how that person feels. Even though I'm sure I couldn't have quite felt his pain, I knew it was there because it felt literally like pressure, physically, in my head and chest.
I was thinking about talking to him about it, since he's generally a very understanding person, but I don't know...I'm hesitant and I'm not entirely sure if it's exactly something I should speak to him about, or bring up. I've only known him for my senior year since I transferred there.
Then again, it's my last year of high school, and I doubt I'll see him again after I graduate...
What do you guys make of this? It might be useful to know that I don't have any feelings for this guy, though. Am I just worried for my friend? Or was that some serious empathy reading? I know that some of you guys are empaths, and I'd like some input from you, or really, anybody.
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