Struggling with being lonely and gay

[Delzebub]

Hey-o.

I'm a trans guy. And gay. I'm currently in the process of breaking up/separating from my girlfriend after we both realized that we're both quite gay, and not really into each other romantically or sexually. It's been hard because we're both trans, and we felt like we needed that support in each other, but it just hasn't panned out.

I'm still early in my transition. I know I'm gay. I just... I struggle with this vision of my future, which is to be happy and in a beautiful, loving relationship with some awesome guy, and I just feel hopeless, like it will never happen. Like I'll never meet that person. Because.. Well, they have to be okay with me being trans, and I don't even know where I would meet the perfect guy. I'm in a small town and though I'm fixing up a van and looking to travel around and live in it, it's just.. Ugh.

Idk, I just needed to vent somewhere. Love is difficult.  

[TheStarlessSkye]

I'm sorry to hear that you feel that way

I struggle being single, too. But I keep telling myself I need to be single for a good while. Work on myself etc
Which is frustrating because all my friends are in relationships.

My experience with dating in the gay community isn't a good one. The dating pool is deep with shallow arsewipes. Or they have peter pan syndrome and can''t commit, grow up or be reliable... it goes on... I want love and romance, not a hook up which is only satisfying for two hours.
ugh