- He was no longer sure what to do with himself... he'd finally given up hope of Ayo's return, it had been heartbreaking all over again. Many of his cubs had grown, left the lands and went exploring on their own. The others... well like Ayo, he did not like imagining their fates. Even Mng, who'd been with him through all of his heartache, had travelled from the lands with a light promise that she would be back. But would he? His home held so many bitter sweet memories for him now... perhaps it was time to move on.
He just knew that he'd needed to clear his head... funny how he'd ended up at the swamps. His parents had given birth to their first litter very near to the swamps, from the stories they'd told. But those too held a note of sadness, knowing how it'd all ended... Tamu's sickness, his mother's murder at his paws... the blame all on poor Denahi. And his father too now... he did not think Asi would be with the world much longer, soon he would return to the stars.
He gave a deep sigh, pausing where he was. He'd been moving through the mud, it was amazingly cool and very odd feeling under his paws. He decided to take a moment, focus on the feeling and let his thoughts move to less sad areas of his life. It hadn't been a bad life... wasn't a bad life. He wasn't old! He chuckled to himself though... some might consider him as such. It wasn't his fault his family birthed litters so young or so often though, was it?