Depression took my good friend away... venting I guess.

[Uranus Skies]

I hope none of you mind that I have decided to talk about this here. However, it's a very important subject in everyone's lives at some point and I wanted to touch base on it a little bit as I recently lost a very important friend because of the impact depression can have on a person as a mental illness. I'm not talking about those random moments when we feel sad for one reason or another, but rather when it's a constant thing that we struggle to deal with on a long-term basis.

My friend was not someone that I had ever met in real life. She and I had actually met online when I happened to stumble across an old website she had made for an RP she'd been working on with a good friend. As you can probably guess, her character was based upon one from the Sailor Moon fandom. He was actually an alternate version of Seiya who was part of a rock band and led an ordinary life, free of powers and other such things. Anyway, I'm getting of topic a little. But I invented an AU version of Yaten to RP alongside her and soon enough, we became close.

4 years I had known her. We used to talk on skype all the time about our problems and general goings on in life. She supported me through the rough times, the pregnancy with my daughter, my custody battle, anything really. We supported each other on an emotional level.... and I thought that she was doing okay. I wish now that I had seen the signs...

A fight with her husband led to her making a split second decision that ultimately sealed her fate. The feelings of anguish and depression clouded her judgement and she ended up over-dosing on her heart medication.... When she realized what she had done, she managed to drive herself to the hospital and told them what she had done, right before passing out. They hooked her up to machines and tried to save her life, but it was already too late.... Within an hour, she went into organ failure and passed away... She never woke up....

I'm not telling this story because I want to make anyone upset. I just know that she would want people to be aware of what depression can cause if you don't seek help for it. She was a special person, one of the sweetest and funniest women I know. She was also older than me by a good 10 years.... I guess I feel like Yaten would in real life, if Taiki or Seiya were to pass away... I miss her terribly... At the same time, losing her has made me all the more determined to continue my battle with depression by continuing to see the specialists and take the medication to help me become better....
I guess really... I just needed to vent... Feel free to comment, share your own experiences.... or even ask me questions about her if you want... Just please, don't flame...

Thanks... *Bows respectfully*  

[Crystal Sailor Pluto]

We've all lost someone...I am so sorry, Haruka.

You're already honoring her memory by sharing her story with others. Your friend sounds like an amazing person, and I bet that wherever she is, she is smiling at you.

I'm not sure what else to say, other than that...we're here for you.

 

[Uranus Skies]

Thank you for your kind words, Setsuna.

It just means the world to me knowing that someone has at least read my post and that her story will continue. She really was an amazing person and her children too, her son and her daughter are both two of the most amazing teenagers I have ever had the honor of speaking to.

I'm still grieving her loss and probably will be for a while. We used to talk nearly all the time, so I miss her terribly as well and have been keeping away from the computer to avoid getting too emotional. But I know I will be okay, I just need time to recover from it all.  

[Toshiro Yuki]

I'm sorry for your loss. I can't say I've experienced explicitly what you're going through, so I won't pretend to be able to relate...but I can empathize.