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 Posted: Mon Jul 08, 2013 11:49 am
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Posted: Mon Jul 08, 2013 12:14 pm
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xxxxDetermined ;; When I put my mind to something, it will get done, regardless of how long it takes me to get it done. I will stop at nothing to finis what I have started. It’s part of the problem with my fatal flaw as well.
xxxxBrave ;; I don’t mean to sound vain, but there are quite a few people who have told me that I’m one of the bravest people they have ever met, most of these being other orphans who only say that because I didn’t die within the first year of life while being blind. I’m also not afraid of taking on a challenge.
xxxxFriendly ;; I like to give people the benefit of a doubt. Although, at times it’s hard to be friends with the campers in the first cohort, at least, the ones that I know look down on the fifth cohort. I don’t see what they see is wrong with us. I don’t need anyone to tell me my worth in the world.
xxxxLoyal ;; Once you are my friend, it will take a lot for me to turn my back on you. It hasn’t happened yet, but I am open-minded to the possibility. I will stand behind you in all of your decisions, and give you the best advice that I possibly can.
xxxxAggressive ;; I’ve never been in a place that I feel as though I can truly trust everyone around me. It wasn’t pleasant being in the orphanage, we often fought, even trying to spend most of my time quietly in the corner I got into arguments and fights with other kids. I’ve always been known to be a fighter and a little rough on the edges. I tend to push people away from me on instinct, it’s my defense mechanism.
xxxxJudgmental ;; So many people have spent their time around me judging me and deciding what I’m like based on my disability. It’s like they think I can’t understand what they are saying just because I can’t see. There is a difference between being blind and deaf. Through all of this, I have become judgmental myself. If you’re around me, expect me to be deciding in my head what I think about you from the moment we meet.
xxxxImpulsive ;; I tend to do things on impulse. I don’t’ think about how things are going to turn out. I never have really had to think about this. The nuns at the orphanage didn’t care what happened to us. If one of us disappeared, then they would pretend to worry for about a day, and then give up and pretend as though the person never existed. Even at Camp Jupiter I don’t think about what will happen when I do things, just taking whatever punishment comes my way.
xxxxJealous ;; In the orphanage we always had to fight for attention for the nuns. Now that I’m at camp, I feel as though there are people here that actually care that I’m here, and if they begin to spend time with other campers I become somewhat jealous of them. I also become jealous once campers start talking about their plans for when they leave the legion. I want their plans to always include me.
xxxxListening ;; I guess you could also call this eavesdropping at times, but I enjoy sitting quietly and listening to what others are talking about. It doesn’t have to be people though. In fact, when I’m stressed out I often find myself sitting in a field listening to the breeze move through the grass. There’s a lot a little listening can tell you.
xxxxPrecipitation ;; My favorite time to be outside is when there is any sort of precipitation falling outside. Even if it’s hail, I like the feeling of it falling against my skin. I think snow is possibly my favorite out of all of the kinds.
xxxxSpicy Foods ;; I’ve always loved eating foods with heat. I’m not exactly sure why, but they’ve always been my favorite. Anything with a zing to it is great for me. When I was with my orphanage in California, we got to eat buffalo wings, and from that day on they were my favorite food.
xxxxFifth Cohort ;; When I joined them, it was the first time that I really got along with people, and felt as though I was part of a family. Even though we’re seen as the lowest of the low in the camp, I get along with almost all of the cohorts in the fifth, and would stand up for any of them any day.
xxxxCats ;; I’ve always liked cats. There were always a lot of cats around the orphanage. I spent all of my time outside, playing with them and enjoying their company. From what I have learned about them, I look up to them. I know that’s strange to look up to a cat, but they do whatever they want, whenever they want. And they don’t let anything stop them.
xxxxThe Stables ;; Perhaps this only makes the list because I’m forced to live beside them. Imagine that you have to wake up to the smell of the stables every morning, and smell it every night before to go to sleep. Now imagine that you have a greater sense of smell than most of those around you, it’s not a pleasant smell to have around you constantly.
xxxxFirst Cohort ;; As said, I don’t see why they think they are above everyone else. There are the few exceptions, but for the most part I feel as though they think the members of the fifth cohort are worthless when they shouldn’t even be able to weigh someone’s worth in the first place..
xxxxMy Parents ;; Sometimes I still wonder if they still think it was the right choice to give me up simply because I was blind. Since I’m a legacy of Mars I figure they have to know that they were part of this world. It makes me wonder if they think I wouldn’t last through Lupa and the Twelfth Legion. The only thing I could give them my gratitude for would be that they pushed me more in life and camp to survive and prove their decision wrong.
xxxxFish ;; Whether it’s eating them or feeling them or being around them in general. I don’t like anything to do with them. They are slimy, smell bad, taste bad, and it’s not as though I can enjoy what they look like. Although, sitting watching fish swim back and forth in a tank does not sound like fun to me
xxxxDancing ;; Considering I can’t see where I’m going when I’m walking let alone dancing, I usually just end up stepping on my dance partner’s toes. It’s not the most fun to spend the entire time stepping on them and then having to apologize for doing it. It becomes rather frustrating actually.
xxxxBeing Without People Who Care For Me ;; The worst part about being at the orphanage is waking up every morning to remember that no one cares enough about you to take you into their home and feed and care for you. Now that I’m at camp, I have found a place that I feel right for me to be in. I worry that once I leave the legion I will be back to square one with nowhere to turn.
xxxxNever Finding Someone That Loves Me ;; It’s not as though I’m going to be judging them based upon their looks. However I’ve never met someone who has any interest in me, other than making me do things for them. I worry that I will never find someone that will care for me. I’m eighteen years old and never been kissed. The last time I held hands with a boy was back at the orphanage, when I was five and was holding hands with another boy to walk across the street.
xxxxMeeting My Parents ;; I hate my parents, and I don’t know what I would say to them if I saw them. I worry that I wouldn’t be able to stand up to them, and I would break down with all of the anger and sadness that I have brought on by them. They gave me up as a child, and I don’t see any reason for me to know them now.
xxxxHearing and Smell ;; Some people think that I have enhanced hearing and smell, but I just focus more on these two senses. Whereas most people put their focus on their sight, I have to rely on my ears and nose to tell me what’s going on around me.
xxxxFighting ;; It doesn’t really matter what type of fight it is. I love to fight. I’m not too vocal about my frustrations, and I keep a lot of things pent up. When I am fighting I get to let out all of the stress that I have kept inside of me, from the start of my life of being given up.
xxxxCooking ;; I think it’s probably because of my sense of taste being good, but I have been told that I’m great with cooking. At least, the tasting part and fixing what needs to be fixed int eh food.
xxxxPiano ;; Upon arriving to Camp Jupiter, one of the first people I met was Olivia Groves. Even though she was in a different cohort, she was interested in talking with me. I think me being blind is what attracted her to me. Which is strange since it usually has the opposite effect. Not long after the first time she talked to me, she told me that she wanted to teach me how to play the piano. She told me that there were many blind people in the world that were talented musicians. She sat me down in front of her keyboard and began giving me lessons. We continue to do lessons, and I play often in my free time. She even talked her mother into buying me my own keyboard.
xxxxIndividuality ;; I don’t need anyone’s help to get things done. I’m sick and tired of people thinking that just because I’m blind I can’t excel in everything that they are able to do. If they want me to prove that I can handle myself, then I will every day of my life I will prove to them that I can do any and everything that I need to do, by myself.
xxxxWar Cry ;; I think the first official time that I used this power was when I was back at the orphanage. The boys there often thought they were better than the girls, and would cause little fights to break out between the two genders. I generally avoided the fighting, and the boys avoided me because they thought I’d be more likely to rat on them than the other girls. There was one time, which a boy thought it would be funny to pull out a chunk of a four year old girl’s hair. That’s when I had enough and rallied the girls together to get back at the males. I led the small war inside of the orphanage and caused a bit of a scare of the boys and the girls did well on making them suffer for a bit. I also used this power when I was training with Lupa and her wolves as well as during my first Siege.
xxxxAura of Anger ;; Maybe it’s just because I think fighting, either mentally or physically is rather fun. I am the type of girl who would rough house with anyone, which surprises a lot of people, for obvious reasons. I never really noticed it at the orphanage, because there were often fights and arguments between kids there. However, when I got to camp I realized that being around me sometimes caused fights to break out. I first noticed it when campers in the fifth cohort would start arguing over stupid things.
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Posted: Mon Jul 08, 2013 12:20 pm
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 xxx xxx It'll Go Down in History
IN WHICH CHOICES ARE MADE
For as long as I can remember, the orphanage has continued to tell me that my parents were killed in a car accident when I was a newborn, that I was the only survivor for the wreck. I think they believe that because I’m blind, I won’t know when they are lying to me. Like many people I have come in contact with, they are wrong about me. It wasn’t hard to figure out that my parents weren’t dead, and even if they were they it probably wasn’t their untimely deaths that decided I was an orphan. It was clearly the fact that I’m one hundred percent blind, always have been, always will be.
IN WHICH I DEAL WITH THE HAND I’VE BEEN DEALT
Growing up, I spent most of my time being the laughing stalk of all of the other orphans. They always want someone to look down upon so they don’t feel as though they are the ones on the bottom of the totem pole. I spent most of my days in the back corner of the room listening to all of the sounds around me. I heard almost every conversation that went on in the room, and I knew when the older girls had snuck perfume into the orphanage before they had even used it once. I became known for my sense of hearing and smell. Since I’m blind I have always relied on my other sense ten fold.
IN WHICH WE TRAVEL HALF WAY ACROSS THE WORLD
When I turned ten years old, my orphanage was given money to take us on a trip, the workers decided we’d go to visit the United States of America. We were supposed to spend a week there, and then return. Everyone inside of the orphanage was excited to hear about the trip. It was the chance of a lifetime for all of us. We spent most of the week before packing, even though none of us had much to take with us, we had to pack five orphans to a suitcase. We didn’t have very many suitcases to take with us. When we were all finished packing, and the day of the trip came, we headed off to the airport and handed in our tickets that took us to the States.
IN WHICH THE TRUTH COMES OUT
When we landed in California, we were first taken to our hotel, and then set off to explore the city. There were plenty of orphans who stole from each of the stores that they walked into. They were always the ones to watch out for inside the orphanage as well, couldn’t keep their hands off anything. After the first three days, we went on a hike in the woods. When we took a break to eat lunch, I went to find somewhere to use the restroom. That’s when I ran into Lupa for the first time. I knew instantly that I wasn’t dealing with another human as she approached. I was worried about coyotes and hadn’t even thought of the possibility of wolves. She told me the truth about my life, and that I was a legacy of a Roman god. She then told me to fulfill my destiny I must leave behind the orphanage and train alongside her.
IN WHICH I EARN MY RIGHT
I spent a year out in the wild with Lupa, training with her to prove that I was able to take another step forward in my journey. There were things that came easy to me, and others that didn’t. Tasks that had to do with listening and being aware of my surrounds, I excelled in. Yet, when she tested my physical strength I was far below par. It took me a long time to grow stronger, but eventually I was able to hold my ground when fighting with her wolves. Eventually she decided that I was strong enough to move on to Camp Jupiter.
IN WHICH I HAVE TO PROVE MYSELF AGAIN
When I arrived at Camp Jupiter, people seemed to not believe that Lupa had passed me through to the camp. I understand that being blind causes some difficulties, but campers here clearly thought I was worthless, at least the ones that I interacted with when I first arrived. I was placed into the fifth cohort, since I didn’t have a recommendation and no one wished to stand for me. I didn’t mind, throughout my life I had learned time and time again that I would never be taken seriously until I proved that others should. During my first Siege, I was the first person in the fifth cohort to make it over the wall. In training, I showed I could hold my ground, and even cause some children of Mars to back down from duels. However, it wasn’t until my second Siege that I was taken off Probatio. That happened when one of my fellow fifth cohort members was injured, and I fought off two first cohort members to protect them. My act was seen as heroic, and I was placed as a full member of the legion.
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Posted: Mon Jul 08, 2013 12:22 pm
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Posted: Mon Jul 08, 2013 12:23 pm
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Posted: Wed Jul 10, 2013 8:39 pm
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Posted: Tue Oct 22, 2013 9:59 pm
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