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I just feel uncomfortable. It's like the layer right under my outermost layer is going stir crazy. It's under my skin and I feel like there isn't anything I can do about it. It feels like a scratch you can't find, but it's not a scratch feeling, it's almost like a "something is coming" kind of feeling, but not as in impending doom. I've never been the best at explaining myself. Maybe this isn't even the right forum.
If you have any suggestions, advice, or theories, I'd love to hear them.
Well, Bashful Strawberry, IMO, your post is not an easy one to address. I don't know how old you are, or anything about your background so I don't know enough about you to even begin to answer your issue, even though I have been through something similar in the past. Could you be suffering from angst? So many people do suffer from it to one degree or another.
Angst is a feeling of anxiety or dread. Certainly the world is messed up enough for any or all of us to be suffering from some degree of angst. If you add the stresses of everyday life which you go through personally, it makes the possibility of angst being present in your life even more possible. angst can start small, and grow as the pressures of life mount and one might not necessarily be aware of it until it reaches a certain pitch where it can't be ignored or overlooked anymore.
By the time one is aware of this feeling it is hard to trace it back to it's beginning because it has been growing slowly over time while one was not aware of it, not until it became strong enough to break through into one's consciousness. If you have a feeling of foreboding it might possibly be due to angst; but, that is not at all the only possibility, please understand that.
The only thing I can tell you that you can do is, Breathe. Breathe deeply and know that no matter what comes, you are not the only one who will be affected by it. Maybe if something does happen you and those you know who are affected can get together and do something constructive about it to make your lives better. Trust in those you love and a personal willingness to do something about an event or issue are fine antidotes to what you describe you are feeling.
Have you tried talking to someone close to you that you trust? That alone might make you feel better. Who knows, there may be other people you know who feel the same way. Even as general as this post is, I hope it helps.