Oh my goddddd. Long rant to follow.
So I decided to take a year off before law school and work so I could reapply, since I got a higher score on the LSAT in June. My dad finds this legal assistant job at Google. I do the application (even though I wasn't remotely qualified), and he throws a fit because he didn't get to read the cover letter before I send it off.
"With that kind of attitude, you'll get nowhere." Really? What attitude? The "I don't need my parent to babysit me during the job application process" attitude?
And he left for a weekend trip to Minnesota, taking the Internet modem with him. So I won't be able to access much this weekend (I'm using my phone, but we have a limited data plan), even though he
already takes it with him to work and the weekends are the only times I get to actually get online for extended periods of time. And it's because I pointed out that a) I didn't think Google was going to hire someone with zero experience and b) Google was probably looking for people who applied on their own initiative, not people who needed to have their hands held while applying. He's passive-aggressively trying to say, "If you think you don't need me, well, I pay for the Internet, and you need that."
It's all bullshit, too, because how are you going to yell at me about my "attitude" and how I won't go anywhere, and then...make it so that I actually can't go anywhere? Something similar happened when I asked to get my license--he was like, "It's my money, you can buy your own car, get your license some other way" and REFUSED TO ACKNOWLEDGE THE FACT THAT THE REASON WHY I AM 21 AND STILL DON'T HAVE A LICENSE WAS BECAUSE
HE EXPRESSLY REFUSED TO LET ME GET ONE IN HIGH SCHOOL. IT WASN'T BECAUSE I DIDN'T TRY TO GET ONE. YOU CANNOT THEN BLAME ME FOR NOT GETTING IT EARLIER IF
YOU WERE THE REASON I DIDN'T GET IT.
Classic sign of a controlling parent: anything you do without their input is considered useless, because you are intrinsically worthless if you can't be controlled.
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And besides, the whole "you can't do anything without me" is utterly laughable, because I went to the library today and submitted my resume to 13 law firms and got a request for an interview within an hour. (Imagine how much more I would've gotten done if I was actually able to do it from home and didn't have only an hour to apply for jobs.) I didn't need his help to get a scholarship for college. I didn't need his help in graduating a year early. I didn't need his help in getting into law school. Also, when I had his "help" in applying as an undergraduate, he ******** up my application and uploaded the wrong essay and I only got into my safety (out of 10 schools), which only looked at grades and GPA and didn't need an essay.
I need to get out of this house. x.x I've been trying so hard to leave, but every time I try he makes it damn near impossible. I'm constantly angry and upset and depressed, and everything I do seems to be even more futile because all he does is try to control me even more.
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