KyaKonami
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- Posted: Fri, 09 Jan 2015 01:43:25 +0000
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Alana was still trying to get Anko scarce when there was a knock on the door. Sighing, she managed to get her into the closet with the door closed, hoping she would stay silent. The last thing she needed was for the redhead to make Sai completely distrust her motive with this. Since she still was a bit concerned about what exactly the girl was up to with that clone, and because of what she had said right as they had met up again before the meeting, the blonde didn't want to take the chance.
Opening the door, she stepped aside and allowed him to come in. Even then, she barely gave him a glance. Before he had a chance to even get started though, she held her hand up in front of her. "I know you said you had some things to say as well, but I have to get this out or I may convince myself not to..." she told him. Lowering her hand after that, she looked directly at him this time, but had to look away again, turning her back to him. She just couldn't look him directly in the face at this moment, not without the urge to get way too emotional and clingy and needy than she should be.
There was silence for a couple of minutes, then she let out a sigh. "........I waited for you.....After that battle with Ilfang. I had been around after it was over with long enough to hear them harass that guy...the black swordsman...when they started calling is beaters. I left before I wound up turning my blade on that idiot...anyway I went to the next floor, and this NPC gave me this..." she pulled up her items, and equipped the golden, ornated sword she had received, turning slightly towards him now, showing it to Sai. "I didn't think much of it at the time....And I haven't used it..it's just never felt like the time to....odd I guess.." she said. "But still...I stuck around there for weeks, thinking that once you were done helping out the Town of Beginnings, you would show up at that entrance. I didn't try to go down because well, what sense was there getting in the way. I had gone my way already, and the other front liners needed my help. I started out soloing for a while, but then I met this group..." she paused again, her body stiffening slightly at the memory. "Anyway I joined them, and we helped the front line and went on quests together. I kept checking up on others, you included. I thought as long as none if those names grayed out I could do this...that I could keep going.."
"....I got close to one of them...but, not in the same way he felt close to me...I had someone else on my mind..." Alana glanced at Sai briefly before staring off at the wall, her chin trembling slightly. "He talked me into going to find you. He....He said I couldn't keep worrying about if I was going to be a hindrance or a liability anymore. He was going to help me....." her voice shook, and she took a deep intake of breath before continuing. "We decided that the day before we were going to do something else; planned on setting out the day after. I thought we can handle exploring part of a dungeon...." Her fists clenched tightly around the hilt of the blade that was still in her hand, her teeth gritting a bit as she tried to contain her emotions. "They died...all three of them, because I foolishly led them to believe we could do anything!..."
"I couldn't get out....there were too many monsters...and...the one thing I regretted....the one thing I wanted....was to see you one last time..." a tear rolled down her cheek, and she wiped it away quickly. "Wasn't my day though. A friend got there and helped me. And after that.....I decided I wasn't going to bother.....That I couldn't bother and lead anyone else down that path. I couldn't let someone else die because of me!....Let's just say I pushed everyone away then unless it was necessary to interact with them.....
"I became focused solely on clearing this game and getting out of here, getting back to the real world...I didn't even bother with checking on anyone....The girl you knew, that entered this game...she's dead..." her tone was deadpan, and after a few more seconds she looked straight at him. There was no malice in the stare, just seriousness. "The person who saved me, was the woman in that shop. Before you hate me, just know she was only supposed to be confirming what I already figured out. Anything that she does outside of that at this point is her own business. But I'm not going to be a spy, and I'm not going to try and find out anything she plans. I don't want to know. What I know is that she's the one closest friend I have, she saved my life and I will never not be grateful to her for it." After that, she turned away from him again, stepping away further from him.
"I'm not an idiot. I knew everything was different the moment you called her kitten....I thought when I saw you in that cafe that I might be able to be that girl from before again, but I'm not and I can't...." Alana's voice started to falter again. "I told myself that wanting to be closer was selfish, that I needed to let you do what you had to do, that I needed to make sure I didn't become a liability that you had to risk yourself to protect, to keep anyone from being able to use me against you because I...." her words had sped up slightly as they left her, her voice raising until it cut off and let out a small sob, tears rolling down her face. "I'm in love with you....." she finally said. She let the silence hang there, and whether he tried to speak or not she would start to laugh after a few moments. "That was an absolute shout into the void; oblivion is inevitable.." she turned her head just slightly towards him, tears still falling down her face. "You had some things to tell me....so go ahead..."
╭♥With: Anko
╭♥Mood: Down, determined
╭♥Gear: Silver Warrior's Armor +30 Defense, Victor's Gauntlets +20 attack, Brave Warrior's Underarmor(top and bottom)+20 defense, +15 agility, Angelic Greaves(light armor) +25 agility, Heaven's Wrath(Ring) +20 attack
Alana
Female
Married to: Single
Lvl. 68
HP: 16,000/16,000
Weapon: Silver Warrior's Rapier +50attack, +48 Dexterity, +35 Agility
Party Members: None
OOC:
Female
Married to: Single
Lvl. 68
HP: 16,000/16,000
Weapon: Silver Warrior's Rapier +50attack, +48 Dexterity, +35 Agility
Party Members: None
OOC: