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THERE'S FOREIGN ******** FLOATING IN THE AIR. THEY PERMEATE, PENETRATE. I SUFFER THIS HATE, GRUNTING RAPE. THE VIBRATIONS, EACH RADIATE, POUND AGAINST MY SKIN. TEETH GRITTING, I CLENCH TIGHT IN AN EFFORT TO ABATE THE SPILL OF SLUDGE THROUGH MY BEING. ANGER OSMOSIS. DRAWN IN.
ashamed, i hide behind shower curtains, washing away the violation with hops and barley, scrubbing clean the fury. don't see my anger. see the rash of alcohol scraping. recognize the tinge as clothing rubs against the raw. sideways glances seeking an escape only to find the ANGER RETURN. SOMETHING IN THE AIR ********. WITH ME AND IMPREGNATES ME WITH GASPS OF RAGE. and I drink to forget, only to be scarred by the depressant.

Metal Silence.

I need the pounding drums of a metal heartbeat. The shrill of guitar riffs, indecipherable in their distortion. Each bass line thumes through the mass of my mind and silences the thoughts. I listen to metal so I don't listen to myself.

Self Deprecation.

There's a flaw. I bite and gnaw. Chewing, sawing, ripping, clawing.
Pull on imperfections until I am meat. Perfect in my sinews.