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Ricin
I have split personality. I've managed to almost completely cut off one half, but it's still there and shows up from time to time. I get confused sometimes... not sure which one is me and which is the other, or if they're both me? I'm currently living as "the other half", but I'm not telling you who is who. ^_~
So yes, I live a double life every day. Sometimes it's a struggle, but in the end it's just me.
O wow i like ur like last sentence =). It is just who you are and that's the best we can do. Love me or hate me right? lol
Oh, sorry. I forgot about this thread.
It's not a "love me/hate me" type thing. It's more like I give up fighting with myself. The other part is still part of me, and I'll just accept it. Sometimes I'll be one, other times I'll be the other. Suppressing one part has gotten me nowhere.
I'm fully aware of both personalities. I remember everything that happens within both personalities. Sometimes when I'm the submissive personality I couldn't believe I acted while I was the dominant, and vice versa. Until now the submissive personality has been my main personality, while the dominant personality was strictly kept online [my only escape and form of suppression]. It kept me out of trouble. But now the dominant personality wants out and I'm tired of fighting it. Even though they're as opposite as night and day, to me, they're still both me and I'm perfectly willing to accept it now. Most people will perceive it as supreme mood swings, but really it's a personality shift. Hopefully, with time, they will both merge and I won't have to live a double life anymore.
Although, at this point I'm not sure if I'd be able to handle that. I've lived a double life my entire life. I doubt I couldn't not live as one.... or two? XD
