summer m a r s h
considering that I had no medication for a year and had a hard time "coping" w/o it, and slipping slowly back into depression, even though I have a job, a place to live, and a "happy" life i still need meds. I finally after a year decided to go back on medication because it will do good for me because I noticed a difference when I was on them. I will contiune to take medication until i feel the need not to, or until i feel like I've gotten my life in control. But I'm sure you would hate thinking about suicide, or having "depression" every single day, no matter what you do with your life.
Right, but while on medication, and down the line let's say you DO "feel like I've gotten my life in countrol" or "until I feel the need not to" then what happens when you stop the medication? You'd be going right back to where you were without it. Do what I did, figure out what needs to change. I mean, specifically. It can be outrageous, impossible, unrealistic, ridiculous beyond measurement, but just think about what needs to be different. Nobody "just hates" their life. Are you upset about not getting a certain boy? Do your parents abuse you? Are you not getting good enough grades in school? Are your paychecks piss-poor? Don't answer me, just ask yourself these questions and go from there...
Otherwise, when it comes time to feeling like you're ready to be independent, without meds, you won't want to stop them, and you'll live a life of constantly adjusting to different medications... because medicine evolves, gets outdated, just flat-out changes. Life a free life, rather than a train-track life of whatever the pills tell you to. Because that's exactly what they do, they tell you how to think. You'll never have the freedom to be yourself.