4 shots

[SkywardConductor]

I had 4 shots of vodka the minute I got home. It's eerie just how calming it is, hearing it slurp down my throat. A sick-selfpitying calm. Four straight shots. One right after the other. I forget. Just for the moment.

Just.... how ******** miserable I am.

[Azure Dragoon Paris]

MiseryMuse

I had 4 shots of vodka the minute I got home. It's eerie just how calming it is, hearing it slurp down my throat. A sick-selfpitying calm. Four straight shots. One right after the other. I forget. Just for the moment.

Just.... how ******** miserable I am.

That is a very poetic way to ask for help.. You worded it pretty well. If you didnt mean to its unintentional poetry.. but seeing what your avatar is named.. it might just be intentional.

[SkywardConductor]

I didn't mean to be. Poetic. That is.

I admit... I'm an attention-seeking freak. I feel so lonely I resort to these methods. I'm so nice and polite in real life. So I explode online in front of strangers.

[SkywardConductor]

Perhaps identity is meaningless.
I search for it like an adolescent
A single word
Or place to define me
A corroding complexity
Disgusting crevices
Trading one rotten wood
For canvassed flesh
Why do I need to be defined
The self is an illusion
I am not a word
Or a place
Or a box
I just exist