Dirty Little Secrets [Announcement 11/8/2023]

Before I go, I've got to know:

Is that what you mean to say?	29.2%	[ 744 ]
Before I rise to my defense,	5.0%	[ 127 ]
Before I speak in hurt or fear,	5.6%	[ 142 ]
Before I build that wall of words,	4.3%	[ 110 ]
Tell me: did I really hear?	10.2%	[ 260 ]
Words are windows, or they're walls,	9.8%	[ 249 ]
They sentence us, or set us free.	6.1%	[ 156 ]
When I speak and when I hear,	2.9%	[ 75 ]
Let the love light shine through me.	26.8%	[ 682 ]
Total Votes:			[ 2545 ]

[Apathetic Cryptid]

You hurt my feelings, you brat sad

[ChipLizard]

Of course, there are small pros to being invisible.
Nobody's nominated me for this ice bucket thing that's viral at the moment.
Nobody's nominated me to reveal a bunch load of things about myself.
But, to be honest, it'll never outweigh the cons.
I just...
I want to be thought about, to be noticed.
It gets incredibly lonely in my head.

[Apathetic Cryptid]

Something I've noticed: People are all too quick to jump in and tell me when they think my relationship is wrong, bad, whatever.

But when I gush about how wonderful it is?
How much better it is than I've ever experienced?
Silence.

People are too negative for their own goods.
See the beauty once in a while and form your opinion around that.
Everyone has issues.
What makes it beautiful is when the goodness completely overwhelms the issues and makes everything worthwhile.

So, in a word?

You can STFU.

[ChipLizard]

The inside of my head is, ultimately, a very lonely place.
One's head is a very personal space by nature.
No two people have had the exact same experiences, because even if the circumstances are the same, the reactions are often different.
You can give people tiny insights, fractional snapshots of what it's like in your head, but other than that, nobody really get it.
It gets very dark in my head, very dangerous, very lonely.
And I'm stuck in there all the time because I'm invisible and forgotten.
I pretend like if I was prettier, thinner, lived in a better area, more sociable, less broken, it would all be okay...
But the truth is it'll never be okay.
I'LL never be okay.

[Apathetic Cryptid]

That.... wow.

I'm glad I saw that.
And I hope I understood it correctly.

Because that just made me very, incredibly happy.
And is also a huge relief.

Thank you.

[gracious faust]

Sinusitis.

*The Sound of Silence playing in the background*

[Misanthropic Majesty]

ChipLizard

It gets very dark in my head, very dangerous, very lonely.
And I'm stuck in there all the time because I'm invisible and forgotten.
I pretend like if I was prettier, thinner, lived in a better area, more sociable, less broken, it would all be okay...
But the truth is it'll never be okay.
I'LL never be okay.

[gracious faust]

I made dinner, and we were planning to have sex, but we just lay down and spent an entire ninety minutes trying to steal kisses quicker than the other, and playing thumb wars.
Which is... not weird for us, but I suppose it's a little unusual. Usually we throw our clothes off, get filthy, and and then do cute stuff after.
But this was different, and it was just really nice.
Mmmmyes happy sighs

[gracious faust]

Result of the evening: I am a lightning-fast kisser.
Champion of kisses.

[gracious faust]

Ah, Christ, this is my seventh year in DLS.
It's funny, how young and little and weird I was when I first came here.
Now I'm old(er) and less little and... still weird.
It's like a scab I keep picking at.

[Madame_Fox]

oh god redface heart what just came over me!?!? O//////O!!!?!?!?!?!
emotion_drool GUSH
redface eeeep

[I Want To Be Your Canary]

this may be the end..

[Jemnu]

Considering smashing my head against my wall or something.
The frustration alone is unreal.
It's unreal..

I burden my friends with this.
On top of it, you show no signs of...anything.

I want to disappear.
I just want to go.

And there's no way out.

[Jemnu]

I feel stupid.
Alone.
Stupid.....stupid.

I'm good for nothing except sex appeal, right?

Probably.

Good for nothing, lazy, boring....

A burden.

[Jemnu]

I've had it.
I've HAD it.
I've ******** had all of it.

I'll never get love back.
I'll never amount..to anything, worthy of future love.
What's the point..