Dirty Little Secrets [Announcement 11/8/2023]

Before I go, I've got to know:

Is that what you mean to say?	29.2%	[ 744 ]
Before I rise to my defense,	5.0%	[ 127 ]
Before I speak in hurt or fear,	5.6%	[ 142 ]
Before I build that wall of words,	4.3%	[ 110 ]
Tell me: did I really hear?	10.2%	[ 260 ]
Words are windows, or they're walls,	9.8%	[ 249 ]
They sentence us, or set us free.	6.1%	[ 156 ]
When I speak and when I hear,	2.9%	[ 75 ]
Let the love light shine through me.	26.8%	[ 682 ]
Total Votes:			[ 2545 ]

[Grimm le Fay]

I wouldn't be surprised if they forgot I was here.

[Rainier Silke]

Feelings are hurt. Don't want to talk at all really.

[Suicide Salvation]

Ella and A have called me a 'heartbreaker' more than once, hah.
I guess I truly won't stand for s**t I don't deserve? Idk.

[tempest in a teacup]

all my past mistakes and voices of people i've lost echo the loudest on sundays.
ive got to keep it together. in the end there is no one else but me.
but you told me you'd be here and i believed it.
and i see you in faces passing by and i can hear your voice sometimes when it's really quiet.
and im sad. im so incredibly sad because when i realize they're not you...
they very easily could have been.
we could have been.
but all i got now are ashes and pitiful wounds i've got to lick clean.

let this sunday evening pass quickly.

[Rainier Silke]

When I think about you I go numb. All the happiness inside me rots away and you eat away at my flesh like a disease. You used to be so much more to me. But you kind of just push yourself away because I'm not one of your other friends. I'm some b***h from gaia. I care too much about someone who hardly even gives a s**t about me.

[spica dvir]

I want to apply for some culinary classes


but I have no idea where to start

[Dork Of Your Dreams]

feeling disgusted with myself again,
cool.

the feeling will pass, but it will always manage to make it's way back.

[mynameisprenn]

Dork Of Your Dreams

feeling disgusted with myself again,
cool.

the feeling will pass, but it will always manage to make it's way back.

[mewkittyy]

ahh. almost in the 30's.

(:

[[Stained in Satin]]

Hahah, I asked V if we can go to SDCC together someday and she immediately started hyperventilating. I think she's pretty set on us going together next year. I think we're gonna cosplay as Mikasa/Hanji and Tina/Louise. I might also wear a Pikachu onesie and she wants to be Ash, rofl. Omg. I dunno how set we are on this plan just yet but it'd be pretty awesome if it worked.

[Tantalizingly]

it hurts me to think that you won't be around for my graduation, or when I get married, or meet my kids, or see all the things I accomplish in life because the thing I want most is for you to be there.
Truthfully I'd even want to talk to you for just 5 minutes to just see how you are and tell you how much I miss you and how horrible it's been without you in my life. I think about you the moment I wake up, all day until I go to bed. I don't think I'll ever forget how it felt to see you how sick you were, and inside knowing it was the last time I'd ever talk to you again. I want to cry even just writing about it. Sometimes I listen to the videos on my phone with your voice in them and it makes me cry, but I can't stop listening to them and I'm torturing myself by doing so. None of my friends even talk to me anymore since I moved and they're all starting to forget about me. Online school can get pretty lonely. Austin's going back home in a month and truthfully, I don't know what I'll do.
I guess I'm just going to try my hardest and get my grades up when school starts, get a job, do some volunteer work so I can get into a good college, and try my best to make you proud of me even though you're not here. I hope somehow, some way you can watch me from wherever you are, as well as Tyler and Logan. I know Tyler misses you a lot too, Mom. He writes about you at school. But whenever anyone talks to him about it he is silent. He doesn't eat much now. I haven't seen him in almost a year. I hate how things ******** turned out. I hate the way life screwed everything over. Why did you have to go? Why couldn't some a*****e get cancer and not you?

This almost hurts too much to write down. I can feel the lump in my throat get bigger as I write it, so maybe I should stop.. but all I know is I miss you, I love you, and I think about you all the time.

I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
"I wish I could talk to you for awhile"
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by
And it's true that you've reached a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And I'm right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say bye bye

[Jemnu]

nnerp

Dork Of Your Dreams

feeling disgusted with myself again,
cool.

the feeling will pass, but it will always manage to make it's way back.

[Jemnu]

I mean, I'm okay.
I just feel so disoriented and unorganized.
People worrying for me doesn't exactly help, but I appreciate it.
And listening to my mom rant /all/ night is not what I want.
So..

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I know. Take it slow.
/sigh

[Grimm le Fay]

I've been pushing off tears the whole evening.
I'll go home and pretend I have friends.
I want to tell him I'm not a part of this world and he should understand if I want to leave. Things don't work that way.

[Honey M Tea]

❝

You were really sweet today. I need to do something for you~

❞