Dirty Little Secrets [Announcement 11/8/2023]

Before I go, I've got to know:

Is that what you mean to say?	29.2%	[ 744 ]
Before I rise to my defense,	5.0%	[ 127 ]
Before I speak in hurt or fear,	5.6%	[ 142 ]
Before I build that wall of words,	4.3%	[ 110 ]
Tell me: did I really hear?	10.2%	[ 260 ]
Words are windows, or they're walls,	9.8%	[ 250 ]
They sentence us, or set us free.	6.1%	[ 156 ]
When I speak and when I hear,	2.9%	[ 75 ]
Let the love light shine through me.	26.8%	[ 682 ]
Total Votes:			[ 2546 ]

[Hellodies]

My system hates me for consuming meds... but I gotta take them either way.
I'm too tired to focus, and I didn't really study my lines for tomorrow.

Was busy taking care of my mother half the time, cooking for her and getting things.
Also had to babysit my nephew, so I got tired out to do anything.
Called off work because the boss owes me for staying till 3am last night cleaning the bar area.

Drank a monster and consumed a slice of cake before I left for morning class.
It did help.... right until 4th block rolled in and I passed out for an hour till Ky. tried to shove me from my chair to wake me up, lucky I grabbed his arms right on time and stared at him...

Man, male friends... lol

- - - - - -

-sigh- Night love,
wherever you currently are...

I miss you... badly.

[mewkittyy]

i feel like i'm a terrible person, just because i want to feel like i matter.

just shows how i really don't matter to anyone but my mom.
i wish that was a surprise to me.

i've known it all along, i was just hoping you'd prove me wrong.

[kaijuhime]

what a different creature you are

[bcuzno]

How do you mend a person's broken heart when yours ia breaking from that same person? :/

[Dim Eyed Boy]

[Stained in Satin]

So much on my mind as of late and I wish I could just sit down with someone and talk and talk and talk and probably also cry at some point and sniffle and be really weak and gross and ugly and just have it be okay and for them to just listen the whole time and then finally hug me when I'm done and then ask me where I want to go and eat afterward.

That's all I want.

[Dim Eyed Boy]

I ruled the world
With these hands I shook the heavens to the ground
I laid the gods to rest.
I held the key to the kingdom
Lions guarding castle walls.
Hail the king of death.

Then I lost it all
Dead and broken
My back's against the wall.
Cut me open
I'm just trying to breathe,
Just trying to figure it out
Because I built these walls to watch them crumbling down.
I said, "Then I lost it all."
And who can save me now?

[Rainier Silke]

He actually cheered me up. What is this?
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I love Sonata No.14. It's beautiful.

[qwke]

frequent thoughts of suicide

[Draugma]

I'm tired, and sore.

Too tired and sore to even masterbate.
Ughhhhh.
******** my life.

[Polysemy]

You are such a total b***h.

[a n a l a i g h]

Triggers triggers triggers triggers.
I'm a hot mess.

[mewkittyy]

and just like that. heart 4laugh

[Dim Eyed Boy]

I did a dumb thing but a dumb good thing??? I'm all freaked out over it but ******** it I'm nothing if I'm not as subtlety courageous as a kitten.

[Everyday Arson Man]

They loved The Light and the Glass. And The Best Deceptions. I was super conscientious about those, but they were a HIT. I'unno. I put myself out there by doing songs I had to be loud and aggressive, and really feel. And, man. The crowd ate it up. It made me happy like NOBODY knows.

Even with all the other, real talent here. The people who deserve the applause, haha. They still let me pretend, every once in a while. It's great.



ALSO. I met a dude there who wants to jam, and he has a loop pedal and crazy-awesome technique. I'm super excited to get things rolling, holy crap.

[VermiIion]

some things are just not cutting it for me.