Dirty Little Secrets [Announcement 11/8/2023]

Before I go, I've got to know:

Is that what you mean to say?	29.2%	[ 744 ]
Before I rise to my defense,	5.0%	[ 127 ]
Before I speak in hurt or fear,	5.6%	[ 142 ]
Before I build that wall of words,	4.3%	[ 110 ]
Tell me: did I really hear?	10.2%	[ 260 ]
Words are windows, or they're walls,	9.8%	[ 249 ]
They sentence us, or set us free.	6.1%	[ 156 ]
When I speak and when I hear,	2.9%	[ 75 ]
Let the love light shine through me.	26.8%	[ 682 ]
Total Votes:			[ 2545 ]

[mewkittyy]

Finally I'll be able to finish the house tomorrow. Another 50 bucks! 4laugh

[NovocaineNebula]

Wow, I actually feel like I look pretty today...for once.
This is such a rare ******** feeling, and it's awesome when it happens.
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Hey, hey you, the one I haven't talked to all week?
TEXT ME BACK.
Thanks.

[mewkittyy]

Now that I'm registered and accepted with PCC, I wish I didn't have to wait until the Summer term. But the Computer Systems program sounds like something I want to focus on. Career training would definitely be helpful. At least I would finally be able to get a decent paying job. Being proficient in something like that doesn't mean much without proven skill and/or credibility. It's a start, a good start.

[Smoking Daffodils]

I'm so glad I get to live off peanuts and whatever I can find around the house, which is pretty much nothing for the next two weeks
buying cigarettes is more important to him than buying food

I ******** hate this
he gets to eat at drill
I'm ******** stuck here with NOTHING
I hate this

[deer dears]

we are kinda adorable i have to say.
cutest married couple i know. emotion_bigheart
i think originally we were just going to be very formal about this only because we don't want to make anything big or official until our wedding.
but honestly we've kinda really become fond of the idea that we're now legally married.
how silly.

[Jemnu]

okaaay, i just got tricked into gifting someone for a second time because this girl quoted me and told me she liked my avi. then she was like "you skipped me"...wtf....i replied to you??? i didnt know i was signing up for gifting you too. i gifted someone a pretty nice item and left the thread, and she quotes me.....so i just gave her a nice hair item worth 3 bil and left it at that. i mean, seriously? in all, i just gave 7 bil away in that thread. and didnt really get much in return, despite it being a "gift the person above you" thread.

weird....thats kinda irritating.... :/ and it sucks when you gift someone something nice and someone gifts you something crappy....wtf. at least the last gift i got from that thread was the halo i wanted for 1 bil.

eh s**t happens. but i try to donate and just be nice with items.

[Misses Indie]

what a c**t.

[La Cantarella]

Wild Sweet Oranges

Versatile Lunatic

Helreginn

I procrastinate far more than what is healthy.

[Smoking Daffodils]

On a plus side I guess I'll lose weight the next few weeks
I mean ******** when I had to live off nothing but ramen for almost 8 months straight I was maybe 98lbs
and trust me that wasn't by choice either
maybe now I can drop this weight

it's not like work is going to pick up
it hasn't picked up once since ******** november
I mean there really is no point at all in even trying

I just don't ******** care anymore
I really don't

and yet again I have to ask my mom for help when I really don't want too
I'm so sick of asking her for help
I'm a ******** adult and I can't even take care of myself
I'm ******** useless

[CasseeCandows]

I think I finally hit my breakdown point. im starting to feel mentally unstable..

[mewkittyy]

chills run through my whole body.

[Jemnu]

i wish i could find more charities on gaia that would just give me stuffs....
man, thats kinda selfish though, but ive donated a lot in the past....blegh, whatever. everyone wants gifts. who doesnt?

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im becoming more and more irritated...just in general. at everything anyone says and every noise.

my back pain is KILLING me right now.....and im close to tears.

i just want everything to stfu and leave me alone.

im so ******** upset. im in so much pain, i wanna die. ******** tramadol, this barely TOUCHES my pain.

[shiny spoink]

She's gonna be here any time now.
Can't wait

[Jemnu]

i love how my ******** docotr is so AFRAID of me becoming "dependent" on opiates.
this is how people OD on medicine, lady.
because you're giving me s**t.
and vicodin is the only thing that helps.
and tramadol barely touches my pain.
and i feel like ODing on it just to make the pain go AWAY.

this is how people OD. because you're not helping anyone who's in chronic pain, are you?

if you know of another medicine or another dosage of tramadol that would help, PLEASE, ffs, tell me. this chronic pain is killing me. this fibro is killing me. making everything nearly impossible for me to do. but vicodin actually helped, and i'd NEVER abuse it, and you KNOW IT. you just dont wanna have your stupid name on any of my bottles. you dont wanna be "responsible" in case i end up getting high on it or some s**t.

im in legit pain. you dont take me seriously at all.

******** you.