Ello ello :] I suppose your wondering how it is you've come to be on my profile. Wish i could tell you, but im afraid I can't. Dont worry. I'm sure if you just close your eyes and tap ur little red slippers together you'll be back home in no time. Or, you could stay a while, and take a little trip to a place you never thought existed. This is MY profile. MY life, MY stories, and your one way ticket to the darker, and slightly more excentric side of life. But dont worry. I forgive you if you choose to leave. After all, it is in all human nature for people to be afraid of what they cannot, and probably will not understand.
~THE INTRO TO NICOLE~
Okies, I guess i should introduce myself. My name is Nicole Marie, and I am who I am. Not a punk, emo, goth, prep...just me :] Take it or leave it. I'm not your typical 19 year old Canadian girl. Oh no. I'm something so much more complicated than that. Something I'm afraid I will never be able to define or even begin to explain. But dont worry, i'm not an evil girl biggrin
Please dont be letting my appearance decieve you. We all have our image to the universe; mine just happens to be a little more..umm.. 'different' xD Please feel free to say hello! Nicole doesnt bite (much) heart
As you can see in my above pics...I guess I'm not the most average apple on the tree. I see my skin as a piece of white paper, not because it's pale, but because it was born blank..and the only way to add colour, is to be myself, and let my unique colours paint the picture that is my life. And as you can see with the purple and blonde streaks in my hair...I see my hair as a blank painter's canvass; it's your life...be vibrant and unique! Add all the colour you want to express yourself and the world will surely only respect you and admire your diversity and ability to colour your own world! Dont worry about what the world see's on you...because they have no idea of the beautiful colours that lie inside your heart. Dare to be different! =)
~SOME OTHER RANDOM FACTS ABOUT NICOLE MARIE~
- I go to therapy for bipolar disorder. If you are unfamiliar with that word, plz ask. Dont go assuming that I'm a cutter or a crazed heroine shooter if you have never heard of the term bipolar.
-I have some of the greatest most unimaginable friends in this entire world. Danny,Georgie,Vanj,Andy,Annie,Colton..
- I am a camera whore. I admit I'm a HUGE fan of photography and freelance imagry. I especially love black & white settings <3
- My dream is to meet my guitar hero... Mr. Joshua Third! heart
- I'm bisexual..RAWR! and very much taken :]
- I simply adore the taste of blood heart
But I am NO cannibal. I dont even eat meat. lol funny how that works out
-I am very involved in music. I used to be in an all girl screamo band for about 12 years in which i played bass and back up screamer, but sadly had to quit due to schooling. Now I just play some acoustic, saxophone, and piano.
- I dont believe in God making the world end. I believe mankind will eventually destroy themselves in a thirst over power,hatred and war. Not too mention global warming xP Yep, humanity alone will be responsible.
- I am OBSESSED with Tim Burton films. I dont know why, but I like to memorize the script from every one of his movies. Nightmare before christmas is by far the most brilliant cinematic masterpiece of our time <3
- I am a very weird and random person. I like to go to shopping malls to goof around with friends and do cart racing. I also like dancing in public washrooms
- I am addicted to gummy bears, iced coffee, and of course love. Although I am quite intraverted, I love having someone to own my heart <3
- I'm in love with opera, theatre, and gothic imagary
- I do NOT believe in labels of any kind, but i do however love things that they stand for. ie. 'Emo kids' being unique and different. I support what they stand for, and the challenges that make them them. Hence why I belong to the guild :]
- I used to be bullimic, but now I am slowly getting over it
- I am nocturnal (meaning I love the night, and despise daytime)
- I LOVE tats and piercings. I have 8 piercings in total, and I'm going for number 9 and 10 very soon
- I sleep upside downside in my bed. I find thats the only way i can dream
- I love to stargaze on my roof in the winter
- Oh how I wish I was a vampire <3
- And finally.... I'm one of a kind. I dont copy, steal, or upgrade any old styles. I just stick with my own :]
- Nicole Marie's Famous Last words are: Live eachday as if it were your last. Dream every dream as if it were your final night of peace, and remember every good moment of your life that has made you who you are today
~My Amazing Evan~
This boy is the reason I have not given up on love. Never could I have thought or even dreamed of such an amazing guy as my Evan. He's truly one of a kind. He makes me laugh, better than anyone ever could. He makes me smile, no matter how little he tries. He is the only person I know who can make my breath turn completly still, make my heart beat abnormally fast, and melt away ever sadness or trouble i feel inside. He makes life so much more brilliant and worth while. I don't know what I would do without him. And even though I know the word love is a very powerful thing, and can be over used and taken for granted so many times... I know in my heart that what I feel for him isn't fake. It is not over rated and it is not a blind, meaningless lust. It is love. He owns my heart and I love him so much for it. He has captured me. Body, mind and soul. Now all I could ever want is to make him happy. He is unlike anyone I have ever known, and i still cannot believe he is mine <3 I love you so much Evan
I live for music of all sorts; metal, rock, screamo, jazz, alternative crazy s**t like medic droid and white stripes, hardcore rock..lol pretty much everything but rap and country. If I'm not talking to friends or watching tv, you will usually find me sitting around with my earphones plugged into my ears. Come to think of it..I cant remember the last time I didnt have earphones in my ears!! XD I love to tune the rest of the world out and just listen to my own happy voices. One of the few things I have control over in my life.
I love to play piano, what little I can anyway. I've been playing for almost my whole life, but I neglected studying alot, so that talent is slowly vanishing away.
I have also been playing saxophone since grade 9. I also play some bass and acustic. I suck at acustic though. I would play bass all the time at school with my friends, but after dropping the bloody thing on my foot one day I decided maybe moshing out with a big heavy guitar isnt my strength yet tehe. So I'm just sticking with art and writing for now.
~The bands that rock and inspire Nicole Marie's world!!~
ESCAPE THE FATE!
MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE! heart
FROM FIRST TO LAST! heart
THE HORRORS! heart
Apocalyptica heart heart
The Medic Droid heart heart
KILL HANNAH!! heart
MUSIC...namely anything metal and or crazy screamo, ANIMALS (Nicole Marie is HUGELY against animal cruelty...whether it be beating a helpless dog with a stick, or just attacking ants with a magnifying glass. Sorry, she doesnt find that s**t the least bit amusing) MAGIC (She's obsessed with Criss Angel!), her amazing friends ^.^ Gerard Way, MCR, Sonny Moore!!, Jack White, Will Francis!, Pete Wentz, William Beckett, snakebites, EMO boyz and gals, The sponge in the sqaure pants!!!,dancing in the rain, coffee, SUGAR, black eyeliner, VAMPIRES, theatre, Tim Burton films, watching the sun rise and set, writing poems for her love, different languauges (She is in the midst of learning my heritage tongue Russian, and also inproving my french) being in Canada, it doesnt ever hurt to brush up on your french =D, needles, pain (She is addicted to watching blood), watching movies that make her cry (she not ashamed to say that she cries everytime she watchs cute movies like bambi and Old Yeller lol)
Herself for one, sunlight, animal cruelty, celebrity gossip (honestly, who gives a rat's a** about them?) Posers and fakes ( thats the main one. If you're not who you say you are, dont bother talking to her!), Stalkers ( She is always watching for rapists and creepers =( ) The d**k heads at her school, snakes, bananas, labels, rap music, finding spiders in her bed, people standing by and watching innocent people suffer...i hate being a bistander!! If some kid is getting their a** kicked..I am willing to risk my own skin to help the poor kid. I dont ever want to see some kid die when I could have saved them, and last but not least.....the world, lol parts of it anyway!!
Emo love is the best love!!
Her very best friends that she met on gaia are MistressDenoche, my sis Lost_Lover, midnight 08, a heartbeat behind, silence_of _the_word, demotionloverforever(Sarah your my girl!! ^^ Your awesome!), mcr_to_life_and_death, Melodyunchained, Crazed Mcr Fan, Emo_Bunneh, Shadblackcat, [-mcr.the.way.of.life-] and like I said before the list just goes on! =D I love you guys!! <3
I owe you all my life :] thank you for all the support and love you continue to show me
The most important and influencal band of my entire life <3
Gerard Way and My chemical romance have and will always be my most fav band of all time! Really, its not because of their look or even their unique approach to music...it's their pure talent and the message they send out to me everytime I play one of their songs! Its the strongest message of hope I have ever recieved in my darkest hour. They are my Saviors! In the words of one of my most cherished mcr songs: " We'll carry on. We'll carry on. And though you're dead and gone believe me, your memeory will carry on <3" Truely beautiful and inspiring words smile
They have helped me so much when no one else could. Before I met Fabian from grades 9-12, I was living the high school nightmare. I was alone, depressed, and nobody understood what was going on in my weird head. I had my friends, but all they saw was a lost cause. They didnt help me, they just watched me dig my grave and went and bought the red roses to bury me with. I could go into details about those 3 long painful years...but for those kids who are reading this who have yet to attend high shcool, I dont want to freak you out or make you want to get home schooled! High school can be fun...it just sadly wasnt for me sad
And when I was miserable and depressed I only had one true guide and help..and that was music. MCR out of everyone else!Their music has inspired, taught and gave me strenght to over come my depression. Every song is my antidepressant. Iam honest in saying that i would NOT be here today if it had not been for them. Im also a quote freak. These are some of my fav gerard way/my chem quotes:
Be yourself, dont take anyone's s**t, and never let them take you alive- Gerard Way
If you dont got to high school, you will definetly go to jail- Gerard Way
Sometimes you have to die inside in order to rise up from your own ashes- Gerard Way
I have had alot of self hate. The most recent example of this is Helena. Its like a nasty open hate letter to myself- Gerard Way
We are all becoming what we want to be- Gerard Way
Out of all the things Ive lost, I miss my mind the most- Gerard Way
The Jersey mentality is: I work, I drink, I stay up all night, I try to meet a girl, it's a waste of time- Gerard Way
Remember the first time you went to a show and saw your favourite band. You wore their shirt and sand every word. You didnt know anything about scene politics, haircuts, or what was cool. All you knew was that this music made you feel different from anyone you shared a locker with. Someone finally understood you. This is what music is about- Gerard Way
People just love to label- Frank Iero
I dont want you to turn the other cheek, its just as ugly- Gerard Way
The devil got landed with a shitty job, he has to deal with assholes everyday, he's probably bored as hell- Gerard Way
Suicide is a serious thing. And if you know anyone who is suicidal, you need to get them help. No one should be in pain. Everyone should love themselves. Like I love you all.
People think we're rich vampires.
Heroes are ordinary people who make themselves extraordinary.
- Gerard Way
“Being happy doesn't mean that everything is perfect. It means that you've decided to look beyond the imperfections.”- Gerard Way
One day your life will flash before your eyes. Make sure its worth watching.”- Gerard Way
I want to be a vampire. They're the coolest monsters.
And this is a quote of my own. I find this is the most truthful thing on this planet:
You live a life of horror. You wake up and see a spider staring down on you from your ceiling. For a second your'e afraid, but then you realize something. The spider is like a million times smaller than you, so why be afraid? So it is with life. At times life can seem rather too large, and you appear as only a speck in an ocean of ever changing events. But you must always remember that though Earth is in truth bigger than you, it does not mean it can govern you. You only govern it. Dont be afraid to take life by the horns and make the bull pissed off. Sure its a death wish, but if you believe enough in yourself, you will surely win the fight. After all, bulls werent invented to kill you, but rather test you. You are smarter than it. Thus you can outrun as many threats as can be made by this mystery we all call life, and find a way to change the impossible into everyday realities- Nicole Lariviere
These are the lyrics to my favourite song, Sally's song from the nightmare before christmas... I think every girl who's ever loved a guy alot and never been able to tell him can really relate to this song.
I sense there's something in the wind
That feels like tragedy's at hand
And though I'd like to stand by him
Can't shake this feeling that I have
The worst is just around the bend
And does he notice my feelings for him?
And will he see how much he means to me?
I think it's not to be
What will become of my dear friend?
Where will his actions lead us then?
Although I'd like to join the crowd
In their enthusiastic cloud
Try as I may, it doesn't last
And will we ever end up together?
no, I think not, it's never to become
For I am not the one
~NICOLE MARIE'S HUGGED LIST~ All the people she loves that deserve a million and one hugs! =D
- Fogheart!! xxxxxxxxxxx ^_^
-[-mcr.the.way.of.life.-]! <3 (Michelle)
- Morrisroe <3 (My beloved Danny, whom without I would be completely lost)
- Kaunkea!! <33 (Sweet lil Georgie, the sister I wish I had)
- Yhto <33 (Fun loving Andy :] He is just the greatest)
- MistressDeNoche! <3 (keirsten)
- XxLost_LoverxX! <3 (Emily my sis)
- Silence_of_the_Word! <3(Jenny, my second sister God forgot to give me ^^)
- Midknight 08! <33
- lily_bunch! <3 (Emily! My sweet girl from down the street)
- demolitionloverforever! <3 (Sarah, my angel for life!)
- ZackissXe! <3 (Zack...my BBFL =D)
- ShadBlackCat! <33
- ~Xx MCR addict xX~! <33 (Jordo..my brother for life <3)
My signs from the beautiful people whom I love (:
My beautiful Vanja <3 God, I would be so lost without her
My wonderful sister Emily <3 No matter how tough times get, I know I will always have her watching over me
Perfect, amazing Sarah (demolitionloverforever). One of the greatest people I have ever met <3 She will forever have my heart
My sweet girl Letty smile
Beautiful and amazing, this girl has always been there for me through easy and hard times. I luffs her to death <3
Cute avi art a friend made for me biggrin