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Who I am hates Who I've been

I watched the proverbial sunrise
Coming up over the Pacific and
You might think I'm losing my mind,
But I will shy away from the specifics...

'cause I don't want you to know where I am
'cause then you'll see my heart
In the saddest state it's ever been.

This is no place to try and live my life.

Stop right there. That's exactly where I lost it.
See that line. Well I never should have crossed it.
Stop right there. Well I never should have said
That it's the very moment that
I wish that I could take back.

I'm sorry for the person I became.
I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change.
I'm ready to be sure I never become that way again
'cause who I am hates who I've been.
Who I am hates who I've been.

I talk to absolutely no one.
Couldn't keep to myself enough.
And the things bottled inside have finally begun
To create so much pressure that I'll soon blow up.

I heard the reverberating footsteps
Synching up to the beating of my heart,
And I was positive that unless I got myself together,
I would watch me fall apart.

And I can't let that happen again
'cause then you'll see my heart
In the saddest state it's ever been.

This is no place to try and live my life.

Who I am hates who I've been
And who I am will take the second chance you gave me.
Who I am hates who I've been
'cause who I've been only ever made me...

So sorry for the person I became.
So sorry that it took so long for me to change.
I'm ready to be sure I never become that way again
'cause who I am hates who I've been.
Who I am hates who I've been.

Untitled( by me this time tho xD)

With shaking hands
I reach for the pills on the counter
With ragged breath
I reach for the razor in my shower

Telling me they love me, I know it’s a lie
Their words will fall to deaf ears
I’ll survive but I won’t be alright
Wish I could escape these fears

With tears streaked down my face
I lie down in the dark
As the blood rolls down my arms
And I listen to my heart

Why did you do this to me?
You watched me fall apart
I was too blind to see it coming
Now it's too late to save my heart.

CrAzY(It's by simple plan)

Tell me what's wrong with society
When everywhere I look I see
Young girls dying to be on TV
They won't stop 'til they've reached their dreams
Diet pills, surgery
Photoshopped pictures in magazines
Telling them how they should be
It doesn't make sense to me

Is everybody going crazy?
Is anybody gonna save me?
Can anybody tell me what's going on
Tell me what's going on
If you open your eyes
You'll see that something is wrong

I guess things are not how they used to be
There's no more normal families
Parents act like enemies
Making kids feel like it's WWIII
No one cares, no one's there
I guess we're all just too damn busy
And money's our first priority
It doesn't make sense to me

Is everybody going crazy?
Is anybody gonna save me?
Can anybody tell me what's going on
Tell me what's going on
If you open your eyes
You'll see that something is wrong

Is everybody going crazy?
Is everybody going crazy?

Tell me what's wrong with society
When everywhere I look I see
Rich guys driving big SUVs
While kids are starving in the streets
No one cares, no one likes to share
I guess life's unfair

Is everybody going crazy?
Is anybody gonna save me?
Can anybody tell me what's going on
Tell me what's going on
If you open your eyes
You'll see that something, something is wrong

Is everybody going crazy?
Can anybody tell me what's going on
Tell me what's going on
If you open your eyes
You'll see that something is wrong

about me

"&& She's scared to get close to anyone 'cause everyone who ever said they'd be there for her left "

"When other girls wanted to be ballerinas I kind of wanted to be a vampire..."

Omfg Humongous thanks to my friend Leviathans_Grace for being insanely awesome and giving me the bestest birthday present ever!!

Hello there.My name is Emi.I'm 13 years old, and I'm very depressed. But I can be happy, and I do try to have fun. If anything to keep myself and my loved ones sane. I don't like to whine, or let other people see me cry. I try to act like im strong when really I'm falling apart. I can be bubbly and fun, although I'm like uber shy and quiet at school. I'm a total dork, who watches teen titans and justice leauge still. I love mario and zelda, I still own a nintendo64 and an ancient atari. I have a playstation2 and a wii as well. I'm a gamer lol. I'm a serious bookworm too. I read just about every minute I can, and would be perfectly content to spend all day curled up with a good novel. I like chick flicks and cheesy romances. I ish kinda short, all of a sudden. I'm only 5'6" and I don't think I'm gunna get much taller. I should have light sandy brown hair, lol but I dyed it black. I'm uber pale, but oh well. Pale is the new tan, eh? I'm not really emo...more of a scene kid I guess. I'm into emo stuff and I wear at least some black in every outfit, but I like colors. And if one more ******** person calls me goth I will go off on them. AND JOO WON'T LIKE ME WHEN I'M ANGRY....lol lil' hulk humor there. No good? Eh...I tried. Anywhos I guess that's all I gots to say folks...ttfn (tata for now)

..."Love is when"...
You miss him before you're even apart.
when you could listen to him talk all night and never get tired
of hearing his voice.
when the sound of his name will send chills down your spine
and you see his smile the second you close your eyes

Go to sleep and close your eyes,
And Dream of broken butterflies
That tore their wings against a thorn
You know the pain that they have borne

Silver metal shine so bright
Scarlet blood that feels so right
Dream of that blood trickling down
And wake up just before you drown

The moonlight's shining off your tears
As you bleed out your own worst fears
So tonight when you start to cry
Whisper the cutters' lullaby:

Hushaby baby,you're almost dead
You don't have a pulse and your pillow is red
Your family hates you and your friends let you bleed
Sleep tight with a knife; cuz it's all that you need

Rockabye baby;broken and scarred
You didn't know that life would be this hard
Time will end the pain you hid so well
And down will come baby;straight back to hell

^^did NOT write that myself got it from the site www.myspaceglittergraphics.com under clipart under the name Em0 p0eM and I liked it a lot but the pic wouldn't fit.

"Dead on the inside and cold to the bone
She opened her eyes and saw she was all alone"

Some fave quotes of mine:

"The road to insanity is a very long and narrow one, my friend. It takes time, dedication and steadfastness to get there. Not everyone will make it with there wits about them."-unknown

"What do I look like? The Wizard of Oz? You need a brain? You need a heart? Go ahead. Take mine. Take everything I have."- Stephenie Meyer, Breaking Dawn

"Pain is inevitable,suffering is optional" - Greta Randolph

"And if the blind lead the blind, both shall fall into a ditch" -Matthew 15:14

"I feel so miserable without you; it’s almost like having you here."- Stephen Bishop

"A child of five would understand this, send someone to fetch a child of five" - Groucho Marx

"Somebody already broke my heart" - Sade

"I don't have to be careful! I've got a gun!" - Homer Simpson

"Your chances of getting struck by lightning go up if you stand under a tree,shake your fist at the sky and say "Storms suck!!" -Johnny Carson

"Aerodynamically, the bumblebee shouldn't be able to fly, but the bumblebee doesn't know that so it goes on flying anyway"- Mary Kay Ash

"We're all mad here, In case you hadn't notice I'm not quite all there myself." - Cheshire Cat

"Patrick:I'm mad!
Spongebob: What's wrong patrick?
Patrick: I can't see my forehead!"- Spongebob((Duh!))

"Show me a girl with her feet planted firmly on the ground, and I'll show you a girl who can't put her pants on" - Annik Marchand

"I've had a perfectly wonderful evening,but this wasn't it" - Groucho Marx

"Life isn't fair, it's just fairer than death. That's all."-William Goldman

"Boys are like slinkies- utterly useless but it's so entertaining to watch them fall down the stairs" - Uknown

"Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass it's about learning to dance in the rain" - Unknown

"Maybe we're better off this way, maybe it's better that we break" -Maroon 5: Better that we Break

"Always borrow money from a pessimist; he doesn’t expect to be paid back."-Unknown

"He has a face like a Saint - A Saint Bernard."-Unknown

"If you can’t convince them, confuse them."-President Harry S. Truman

"I didn’t attend the funeral, but I sent a nice letter saying I approved of it."-Mark Twain

"Who picks your clothes - Stevie Wonder?"- Don Rickles

"It is better to remain silent and appear foolish then to open your mouth and remove all doubt" - Unknown

"I for one can see no blood from the hearts and the wrists you allegedly slit."-Panic! At the disco

"Time is never time at all. You can never ever leave without leaving a piece of you." - The Smashing Pumpkins

"Lying there on the ballroom floor, white dress stained a deep crimson, I wonder what kind of Cinderella am I? Not one at all,because Cinderella found true love,and we all know true love is just a fairytale out parents tell us when we're little so we'll shut up and go to sleep"- Me( And some help from Olivia)

"Life is like a magic show, captivating and full of lies"- Me

"I'm dissapointed in you really, you locked away her sanity and swallowed the key." - Unknown

"She's drowning in blood and nobody cares enough to notice. The world is black and white. Some people have endured so much that they just keep drowning,and drowning, and drowning...

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Cut my life into pieces
This is my last resort
Suffocation, no breathing
Don't give a ********
If I cut my arm bleeding

(This is my last resort)

Cut my life into pieces
I've reached my last resort
Suffocation, no breathing
Don't give a ********
If I cut my arm bleeding
Do you even care
If I die bleeding?

Would it be wrong
Would it be right
If I took my life tonight
Chances are that I might
Mutilation out of sight
And I'm contemplating suicide

Cause I'm losing my sight,
Losing my mind,
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine
Losing my sight,
Losing my mind,
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine

I never realized
I was spread too thin
Till it was too late
And I was empty within
Hungry feeding on chaos and living in sin
Downward spiral, where do I begin
It all started when I lost my mother
No love for myself
And no love for another
Searching to find a love upon a higher level
Finding nothing but questions and devils

Cause I'm losing my sight
Losing my mind,
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine
Losing my sight,
Losing my mind,
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine

Nothing's alright
Nothing is fine
I'm running and I'm crying
I'm crying(x4)

(I can't go on living this way)

Cut my life into pieces
This is my last resort
Suffocation, no breathing
Don't give a ********
If I cut my arm bleeding
Would it be wrong
Would it be right?
If I took my life tonight
Chances are that I might.
Mutilation out of sight.
And I'm contemplating suicide.

Cause I'm losing my sight
Losing my mind,
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine
Losing my sight
Losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine

Nothing's alright
Nothing is fine (scream)

(I'm running and I'm crying)

(I can't go on living this way)

Can't go on
Living this way
Nothing's all...right!

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Dittzzynik16 Report | 05/13/2009 6:06 pm: Not much. You?
Dittzzynik16 Report | 05/10/2009 5:58 pm: Your Welcome! ^^
Dittzzynik16 Report | 05/05/2009 6:53 pm: Your profile is amazing!
Yukiny Report | 04/22/2009 4:25 pm: hey,and a lot has happened =P bunch of drama,involving me with a beat up hand #_# and getting a membership invitation to the national society of high school scholars...I dont feel like I deserve it though v_v. How about you? ^__^
XxEmo FreakshowxX Report | 04/21/2009 8:23 pm: =[ i wanna end it all ..... hes killin me i love u so much
XxEmo FreakshowxX Report | 03/23/2009 9:27 pm: i dont like life =[
Yukiny Report | 03/19/2009 2:59 pm: YAY FOR YOU!!!!!!! *happy dances with you* I hope everything goes great! ^_^ and thank you
Foetus Corruptus Report | 03/01/2009 2:30 pm: I know
Foetus Corruptus Report | 02/28/2009 7:02 am: yeah... Me and my bf walked to the other side of the city xD we went to the cemetary, and it was fun lmfao
Foetus Corruptus Report | 02/24/2009 5:13 pm: hmmm...

I had to go swimming today... and now my hair smells like green apples... O_O